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[sickandbones]

self care is over, we’re doing drugs again

[caffeineandniconicotin]

vent tw: suicidal thoughts, depression

i don't have the will to keep on living . i'm not even sure what i'm holding out for anymore . the only times im ever really happy are the few moments i get to spend with my boyfriend . i'm not sure how to find joy or purpose in life anymore . i don't like the life i'm living but i've tried changing it . that didn't help . i still feel the same, maybe even worse . i constantly feel like my mental health is so bad that i should be in inpatient . i don't even want to actually die i'm just so tired of feeling this way . i just want to be happy .

[goldenround]

[frag1leb0y]

[barely-existing]

ok so my friend took some pics of me that i absolutely hated lmao but peep the thigh gap 😩

[caffeineandniconicotin]

um who was gonna tell me that koolaid pouches are only 35 cal a pouch ???

[k-ayo]

[kit-cvt-deactivated20210428]

me today ... standing with my feet together ... when the fuck did i get skinny? i was so fucking shocked when i spread my arms out and ?? the gap ?? in my BAGGY shorts ??

[crimsonxcigarettes]

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again:

food < nicotine and caffeine

[caffeineandniconicotin]

my best friend: dont count calories, i dont want you to get obssessed and develop an eating disorder

my clown ass 🤡: yeah ahahaha definitely wouldn't want that....

[nicotineaddictedangel]

oversized sweaters and thigh highs are so cute <3

[ghostisspooky-deactivated202103]

i just wanted to give everyone on ed tumblr some love !!! i know we’re all going through a tough time, but you are still very worthy of love.

( ＾◡＾)っ ♡

[caffeineandniconicotin]

i hope i die lmao

[caffeineandniconicotin]

𝟭𝟭.𝟭𝟵.𝟮𝟬

𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗸𝗸𝗶𝗲: 𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗱

𝗹𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗵: 𝘆𝗼𝗴𝘂𝗿𝘁 + 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗹𝗮 + 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘄𝗯𝗲𝗿𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀- 𝟮𝟱𝟬

𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿: 𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘂𝘁 𝗯𝘂𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘄𝗶𝗰𝗵- 𝟮𝟬𝟬

𝘀𝗻𝗮𝗰𝗸𝘀: 𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 + 𝗽𝗼𝗰𝗸𝘆- 𝟰𝟬𝟬

𝘁𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 : 𝟴𝟬𝟬

[caffeineandniconicotin]

𝟭𝟭.𝟭𝟳.𝟮𝟬

𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗸𝗸𝗶𝗲: 𝗼𝗮𝘁𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗹 + 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘄𝗯𝗲𝗿𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 + 𝗰𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗲- 𝟭𝟱𝟬

𝗹𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗵: 𝗺𝘂𝘀𝗵𝗿𝗼𝗼𝗺 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗽 + 𝗯𝗶𝘀𝗰𝘂𝗶𝘁- 𝟮𝟯𝟱

𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿: 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘁𝗲𝗶𝗻 𝗯𝗮𝗿 + 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗹𝗮 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗹𝗺𝗼𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗶𝗹𝗸 + 𝘁𝗲𝗮- 𝟰𝟰𝟬

𝘀𝗻𝗮𝗰𝗸𝘀: 𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 + 𝗳𝗶𝗯𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗯𝗿𝗼𝘄𝗻𝗶𝗲 + 𝘆𝗼𝗴𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗽𝗼𝗺 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗹𝗮- 𝟮𝟵𝟭

𝘁𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹: 𝟭,𝟭𝟭𝟲

[caffeineandniconicotin]

tw: suicide

ah the one place i can come to and thought dump without my friends or boyfriend seeing . so my boyfriend tried to commit suicide while i was asleep last night, he’s okay now, thank the fucking stars . i cried a lot, now i’m just having my morning coffee and reflecting while he sleeps i guess . it’s scary to love someone so much y’know . i guess it’s like that one song, “and i find it bittersweet, cause you gave me something to lose” i try to keep it to myself, i dont want to be that manipulative boyfriend who puts so much pressure on his lover, but fuck he’s the biggest reason i’m alive right now . on days when shit gets really bad and all i can think of it how easy it would be to just fall asleep on the train tracks outside, it’s him thag keeps me going . not my best friend, my pets, my plants, nothing . it’s just him . i know i know, i shouldnt rely on someone so fucking much but fuck, what future do i even have that’s worth living if he’s not in it ? if i didn’t have him in my life i wouldn’t even know what to do past next year . i wouldnt have anything to look forward to . no fucking reason to keep existing for myself . selfishly, he’s the only thing . the only thing that gives me hope, happiness . and honestly, i love him too much to leave him behind like that . and honestly i kind of blame myself for it happening . i always stay awake until i know he’s asleep, that way i know he’s safe and sound asleep and wont be needing me . but last night he was singing and i was already so fucking tired, so i just caved in . i figured he’d fall asleep shortly after me since he had expressed how sleepy he was . but it didn’t happen that way . that’s all i really have to say .

[caffeineandniconicotin]

hhh i was restricting well today but then i had the chance to have a burger meal, which being a vegetarian in an area with a lack of veggie burgers, doesnt come often ); im trying to remind myself that it’s okay to have days where i eat something special but i still feel like a fat ass ):