not even the memories are immortal

m ♡ 23

[phontao]

2012

[autotomic]

latest round of my true detective slop

(last post inspired by this and i cannot for the life of me find the first one)

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

i wish you kinder, softer days that put your heart at ease

[evilwy]

But either way you turn, I'll be there

Open up your skull, I'll be there

Tip jar

[adamraczek]

half man (2026) // late in the long apprenticeship, carl phillips

[gizmorph]

Half Man / Eric Fischl, Hysterics of Love (1997)

[buttholy]

ok NEW TAKE: ruben symbolically married niall at the wedding

wore the traditional black of a groom

nodded yes at the altar while locking eyes with niall

said his vows at the reception

murder-fucked niall to consumate the marriage

death parted them but briefly

[kierancfthehunt]

man the yearning in TID from all fronts is so peak im afraid CC will never write anything so scrumptious again

[fruitgravies]

the failure(s); the many loves of the vampire lestat

prints • insta • twt

[downahill]

june 1. it begins

[shedahis]

I've watched this series too few times.

[shrimpquoter]

ough

[eysnirn]

Photo study from past two weeks.

[1osingdog]

absolutely insane fucking shot

[boo-kei]

Jamie Bell what the fuck is your problem!!!

[caindepot]

“it’s the only thing i’ve ever felt” really says it all. niall would follow ruben to the ends of the earth—into a locked barn, in this case—if it meant feeling alive, feeling anything at all, if only for a second. he has ruined his life chasing that high elsewhere, only to find that everything pales in comparison. it was always supposed to end like this.

[caindepot]

ruben talking about the abuse he faced in childhood is perhaps the single most devastating thing i’ve ever watched on screen. the dialogue and performance is so visceral and harrowing, the way ruben transforms back into the vulnerable child he once was, leading you to the shattering realisation of how different his life could’ve been if all that pain, and the inability to cope with it, hadn’t overshadowed everything. there is no excuse for a lot of the things ruben has done, but every single one of his transgressions has you grieving for that little boy who wasn’t protected and therefore had the choice to be good taken from him long before he realised it. there was no one to teach him how to love and be loved in a way that doesn’t also devour and destroy.