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A quiet sigh was all that Brook let out at first. She didn’t know where to start. Everything, she initially wanted to answer when he asked what she was thinking about, but that didn’t seem to even scratch the surface. 

The past few months had been a lot - to say the least. Between what was going on with Sasha, their last break up still playing through her head sometimes, moving away from LA, adjusting to Cairo’s steady accelerating career, and now the issues with trying to have a baby, Brook had a whirlwind of thoughts circulating through her head. 

“I’m okay I guess,” she shrugged, fixing her hanging sleeve up on her shoulder. Her lips pressed together reflexively as she was clearly lying. Cairo’s touch mixed with the gentle flow of cool air outside ignited goosebumps up Brook’s arm; something about him always seemed to create reactions like that out of her. 

Brook turned towards him. She was silent. Her brown eyes were instilled with worry as she anxiously rubbed the same arm her boyfriend just was. “What are going to do if can’t have a baby?” she questioned. “What if there’s something wrong with me? What if I’m infertile? W-what if we can’t seem to make a baby because of me?” she wondered. Another quiet sigh was released from her lips as she calmed for a reason. “All I’ve been thinking about lately is having a family with you, and us having dinner together, and going out,” Brook smiled to herself gently as the picture all began to paint in her head, “And just us being happy,” she continued. Reality set back in and her brown eyes fell with apprehension again. “I just don’t know what I’d do if we couldn’t have the one thing we’ve really been wanting because of me.” She finally looked up at Cairo, wanting to see his expression, “Are you worried too? Am I just being paranoid?” she asked. 

Cairo would be lying if he said that it wasn’t bothering him. He wanted a child with her more than anything and he knew that it had to be upsetting her that they were having a hard time. He wasn’t going to sit there and pretend it was harder for him than it was for her. Cairo knew that on her perspective of things it had to be unimaginably frustrating. He couldn’t imagine what she had been going through, and when it came to their relationship he noticed that she tended to internalize a lot. It was upsetting to see her like this and Cairo just wanted to make things better.

“Hey, hey, hey don’t get like that.” He told her as he wrapped his arms around her again. “Don’t think like that. What if its not you? What if its me?” With all the girls he messed with, it was a miracle itself that none of them ended up pregnant. Cairo wasn’t going to bring up that fact though. “I don’t think we should worry about that too much. You know what they say, it happens when you least expect it. Maybe we just have to be patient? I know its hard baby but don’t think its all you, okay? Don’t think of the worst case scenario. If you want we can go to a fertility doctor and check things out with the both of us. Even....even if we can’t have kids of our own we can still have a family. We can still have kids either way. Brook, you’re perfect to me in every way. If you can’t have kids it won’t change how I feel about you. You’re still the love of my life and you’ll still be my wife and the mother of my children.”

“Maybe this is a sign we need to take a break with trying to have a kid? Maybe we shouldn’t try again until we have an appointment? Maybe we’re trying to force it and it just isn’t happening because of that? It could be so many different things. Hell, we could even be fuckin’ at the wrong time. We could be perfectly fine but we’re just doing it wrong. It could be just stress with how everything is going, you know? We can wait until we get back to LA and things are back in order.” Cairo gave her a tiny smile. “Why don’t I book us a nice spa day or something so we can relax? It’ll be nice.”

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The past six months had been a whirlwind. Cairo gained and nearly lost a sister all in the span of two months. After he had killed her abuser (Cairo is still dealing with the aftermath from that) Sasha went downhill. Although it was amazing having her company and finally having a baby sister in his life, it was evident that she needed help and it took everything within Cairo to finally get her some. After a few months of watching his little sister go down a destructive path, he checked her into a rehabilitation center far away from LA. Cairo went with her though, staying in a nearby rental with Brook so Sasha could have family close by. He figured that it could be a great break from the stresses of Hollywood for them all. Sasha needed to get better, he needed a break from his career, and he and Brook needed a true fresh start. Watching his sister go through that horrible experience made him realize how precious his time with everyone was. So, he decided to focus on the ones he loved and strengthening those relationships instead of just shoving his feelings away and going on auto-pilot like usual. 

Their relationship had grown a lot stronger since their last breakup. Cairo wanted to make it known to Brook that she was number one in his life and even though his career was really starting to take off, he decided to take some time away and really focus on his relationship with her. Being away from Los Angeles really allowed for Cairo to mature and grow. Not only did he start holding himself accountable for his actions, but he had also started to begin therapy to deal with his demons. Now with his mind clearer than before and living in a space that promoted healing, Cairo was  seriously starting to think about the future. He had given Brook a promise ring a few months earlier but now he was really thinking of going out and buying an engagement ring. Sure the two of them hadn’t even come out publicly with their relationship, but Cairo didn’t care. The two of them knew how much they meant towards each other, so much so that they had been actively trying to start a family. For some reason, it wasn’t so easy like people made it out to be and truth be told Cairo was a bit worried. He knew how much Brook wanted a family of her own and he really wanted to give that to her. She deserved it after all she had been through with him and he wanted a little boy or girl running around their home. Cairo was certain that if they had a child the two of them would try their absolute best to do everything right. As of right now it just wasn’t happening and even though there was some tension between them because of it Cairo wasn’t going to let it drive a wedge between them.

After a visitation with Sasha, the two of them went back to their home for the evening. A homemade dinner, movie, and a bubble bath later the two of them were ready for bed. Cairo was about to turn in for the night when he saw that Brook was standing outside near the balcony. Concerned, he walked over to his girlfriend to check up on her and hopefully get her to get some rest.

“Hey baby.” He wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed a kiss to her temple. “Whatcha’ thinkin’ about? Its late, why don’t you come to bed? Its a lot more warmer there anyway.” Cairo gently ran his hands up and down her arms. “You okay?”

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