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I feel pretty productive. Finally. 

Alain got me the kickboxing and crossfit package for vday so now I can go to the 10am kickboxing rather than having to get up for the 9am crossfit... the extra hour makes such a difference for me. I got my nails done after kickboxing and I got gas. I showered and made a health breakfast and packed lunch for when I’m in school. I’m really anal about getting to school for parking... I really hate circling around when theres like a million people doing the same thing...its really pointless.  If I just leave an hour and a half early I’ll get decent parking without having to fight anyone or be aggressive lol. 

So here I am...in the parking lot an hour early and its beautiful out! I might go over to Starbucks and get some iced coffee... The beautiful weather really changes my attitude toward everything. Maybe thats why I feel so productive or maybe its because I’ve reached my limit literally with everything..

Money. Spiritually. Health. Attitude 

I’ve felt over run, dry, exhausted and just not into doing ANYTHING, like at all. Not just working out or eating right but like getting my nails done, or going to the bank- I’ve literally felt so tired and dead and I’m like why? what for? makes no sense. I’m realizing that this year is more than just another year- another year that is yes closer to another graduation, another year that has birthdays, holidays, celebrations and not even just another year I can try and be healthy... No this year is is possibly the last one that might be like this. I’m not really sure exactly what Alains doing or what his plans are, not because we don’t talk about it but because his mind changes so much and right now he has the right to do it without worrying too much about me. I’m willing to move where he’s working.. But if he’s staying like he says he is now then when I graduate I need to look for a job there not and here. I don’t even want to look in NJ if he’s staying in Philly because I’m really over being apart like it never was fun but now its just really only getting harder everyday. I plan to graduate in May of 2018 and if I’m going to be looking for a job there obviously that means moving there... I have conditions to move in together and Alain knows that. So much has the possibility to change over the next year and a half its kind of crazy. 

So I was thinking, along with trying to understand my constant feelings of exhaustion and lack of interest in most things, how about I do my absolute best to better myself in any way possible? Being healthy is always a thing for me, but what about going into my career credit card debt free? How about having a much stronger relationship with the Lord? How much better off would I be? Its not easy to change but I’m taking small steps to get stronger, closer and wiser 

What more can I ask myself other than small steps?

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multigrain superfoods banana bread

guest post by @peachonomics

“I’ve been addicted to olive oil cakes lately - it just adds that extra depth to your baking without overpowering it.”

dry ingredients

190g flour, 

40g your favourite muesli, 

2 tbsp cacao powder 

1 tsp baking powder

pinch of salt

2 heaped tbsp walnuts 

wet ingredients

1 large ripe banana

6 tbsp peanut butter

1 egg

2 tbsp almond butter

1 tbsp extra virgin olive oil

for topping

baobab coconut clusters

½ banana

chocolate granola

method

Mix the dry ingredients together in a large bowl and put aside. Add the wet ingredients to a blender and mix until combined. Add more olive oil if mix looks dry. 

Pour into your bread tray or long thin baking tray and top with baobab coconut clusters from graze (it’s SO ADDICTIVE you need to get your hands on this - fabulous for topping breakfast bowls too), half a banana sliced lengthwise to 3 long slices, and some choco granola. 

Bake at 175C for 50 minutes. Serve with extra almond butter and honey or fruit if desired (there’s no sweetener used in the banana bread itself apart from the banana, peanut butter, dried fruit and muesli).