angelhamal:
Hamal looked at Calder sadly as he sucked in a shaky breath. “I don’t have to imagine that,” he began, then he paused to center himself. “I didn’t choose to come to earth, not on my own. I.. we had no idea what it meant, and what was I supposed to do? Abandon the person I loved the most and let him take a blind leap completely alone? Then, when we were here, and we found Raguel we were so relieved, he was one of the archangels, surely he would help us. You think you’re only one who knows about how terrible my family can be? Raguel spent thousands of years torturing me and Abariel. I know. I know what it’s like to put your faith in something, in god, and the archangels, and heaven, and to have it leave you in the fucking gutter. I’m sorry, for whatever happened to you, it’s not my fault. I’m a grunt, I’m nothing, I never was given a choice either.”
The opening statement rose Cal’s brow, though he wasn’t quite as prepared as he thought he was. “I never claimed to be the only one who knew,” was all he said, after Hamal had completely finished. “You’re not too nice to each other either. I knew that, and I said what I said anyway. I shouldn’t’ve.”