malibu 1992

i watched you board an airplane. a high dive from the summer's heat wave, ᵈᵒʷⁿ. a bit ( t o n g u e ) and a taste of IRON. 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓈 that high school soured, now.

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hi friends i’ve jumped ship to @pcrscphones !

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hellO i’m back from the dead & am not really feelin my drafts atm so like this if i can go through your open starters and reply to a few maybe ??

[mockingjaykatniss2]

[dracarysnoir]

Ryan Guzman as Carlos in Heroes Reborn

[eizagonzlez]

a true goddess living among us

[bruxabaiit]

[qeckosfuller]

[ooooomahama-deactivated20180106]

[fyeahbellarke]

There was no hope. Now there’s hope.

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ichorfvlled:

he’s not really ready for her words, but he answers as quickly as he can. “anything, for you,” it’s strange. it’s strange to have another anchor into this world. besides his sister. god, if she could see him. so close to a woman, making sure she was happy. making sure she was alright. she wouldn’t believe it. the feared russ brennan running behind another strongwilled woman, perhaps he sought out people like his family. unstable and strongwitted. god, he should steared cleared. but he’s never been a fan of easy. so this is for the best. “think i can try,” it’s not a promise, he can’t do that. and he won’t start lying now. he’ll start looking, and getting himself out in the process, seems like a good idea. he can finish up college, do something with his life that doesn’t involves fists. perhaps, they can make it out. and as his eyes look into her, he smiles. “are you sure?”

she isn’t used to this, to having somebody in her life that cares for her. she isn’t used to having somebody she can turn to when she’s in trouble, somebody who’s actually willing to help her if she ever swallowed her pride enough to ask for it ( today it seemed as if she had ). paige had been on her own for so long that she wasn’t used to that feeling. she had never gotten the chance to meet or know her father, and her mother was so occupied with her boyfriend of the week that the girl had basically learnt to fend for herself. it’s how she found herself in the fighting scene, some would say. just a girl from the wrong side of the tracks. but she was good at what she did, enjoyed the thrill and rush of it all. but that adrenaline wasn’t something that lasted, only kept her going in the moment but when all was said and done, she was just left with herself and the decisions that had led her here. she couldn’t make a future from this, didn’t want her future to consist of something so toxic. even if it was all she knew. “ yeah, i’m sure, ” voice is soft, barely above a whisper as she looks up at him. “ i don’t want to feel like... this anymore. like this is all i’m good for. ”

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ichorfvlled:

“saying no would be the easiest option, isn’t it?” she titls her head, because she wants him to say that no because he wants to know something about her. that there’s more than just an arranged marrige with him. she wants to fill the silence, even if she isn’t going to remember it in the morning. “you can say no, you know that?” she doesn’t really get why he does this every time. but it’s just mindless chatter. nothing she’ll remember in the morning. besides this is more of a bussiness arrangement, more than anything else. and after being comfortable enough, she speaks again. “i’ll find someone else to bother.”

he isn’t really in the mood to be talking about this, has far too much on his mind with his meeting in a few hours to be worrying about when she wants him to say yes and when she wants him to say no. in order to prove a point, he’s half tempted to lean over, open the passenger door and tell her to find her own way home if she’s so desperate for him to say no. he doesn’t do that however -- his grip only tightens on the steering wheel as he starts the car and pulls back onto the road. “ i doubt many people would be impressed if you rung them in the early hours of the morning, but go ahed. try someone else next time, ” a shake of his head follows, and he briefly looks over at her. then there’s a short, breathy laugh leaving his lips and he’s looking back to the road. “ can’t you just accept the nice gesture ? you must know nobody else is going to come to your rescue if i’m the first person you call. ”

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ichorfvlled:

she wishes that their problem was clear. what was going on between, whatever it was, it was breaking them. and for more that she loves him, for more that she loves them, she doesn’t think she can take more of it. she’s tired of the arguments, tired of feeling like she’s being clingy. but most of all, she’s cristine is tired of feeling like a burden to him. she knows that probably isn’t the case, butit feels that way. feels as if she isn’t needed anymore. for all she knows, he probably feels the same. maybe if she tred harder. but what was done, was doone. she couldn’t change it. she tries to remember better days. when she knew she could count on him not matter what. where they didn’t stop talking for days at a time. when she knew that he’d be making her feel safe. his words are simple, and she appreciates it. “it was boring anyways,” she shrugs now, bitting her lip. “mom’s asking about you, wanted to know how you are,” she says, her tone tired. she can almost her feel her eyes closing, now that he’s close. she wishes though, that she could cuddle close to him. bury her head on his chest, and he’d tell her that everything is going to be alright. 

there’s no doubt in his mind that he loves her, of course he loves her and he knows that he always will. though it’s in the moments like these that he begins to wonder if you can over-love someone or if love itself is even enough sometimes. carlos had never even believed that love existed until he had met her, until she had proven to him that it was real and that he was capable of feeling it and that he was capable of having similar feelings reciprocated back to him. because he also knew that she loved him back, couldn’t see why she’d stick around through all of this if she didn’t. it wasn’t like he had much, could give her much. but maybe love was too good to be true, maybe it was reaching its expiry date for them. he wasn’t oblivious, there was no denying that things weren’t working between them anymore but he still held onto a thread of hope that maybe things could get better. “ boring or not, i should’ve been there, ” he tells her, a slight shrug of his shoulders following suit. “ yeah ? well, i hope you told her i was good. ” he isn’t entirely sure on how much her mother knows about their situation, can only hope she doesn’t know too much.

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eternvals:

“we’ve been friends for what? ten years? it’s kind of crazy that we haven’t actually fallen in love with each other or had sex but i think it’d be best to keep it that way,” andie shrugs and bites her lip as she feels his hands on her thighs. it’s not like the thought hasn’t crossed her mind a few different times but…this was eric for crying out loud. he’d literally seen her in a face mask and unflattering pajamas, it was totally weird for them to even consider anything like that. or at least it was to andrea who was too much of a control freak to let anything slip past her fingers. that distinct trait is what led her to being in and out of relationships quicker than most. she thought she was a genuinely good girlfriend but her need to always have control over every situation in her life is what made a lot of her relationships ( platonic or romantic ) fall apart. it still baffled her how eric had managed to stick around this long. andrea was also a bit too cynical for romance — she’d never mastered the art of balancing work and relationships and often found herself caught up and letting someone down which was something that ate away at her too much. she’d become married to her work since her last failed relationship and it was rare for her to even notice when anyone paid her any sort of romantic interest. “you should only be so honored,” she shot back, a playful grin on her features. “do you really? how sweet. i think about you when i touch myself so we’re even.”

eyebrows furrowed, eric's hand gravitates closer to his face, long fingers reaching out to tap against his lower lip. “ speak for yourself but i have no idea where this talk about not being in love is coming from, at least on my side. i’ve been in love with you for at least nine and a half years. ” the only thing that indicates that he’s joking is the smile across his face, and then the brief sound of laughter that follows his words. of course, eric loves her, though he’s pretty certain that the love he has for her is more in the platonic sense. they’ve been friends for so long that it’s difficult to imagine her as much more than a good friend to him, though that doesn’t mean he’s going to stop teasing her about it anytime soon. because, naturally, his mind’s gone there on one or more occasions, but it’s not like he’d ever go for it. not unless she made it known that she was into it, then he might. then again, their friendship wasn’t something he was entirely sure he was willing to risk. of course, he had other close friends but andie was his oldest, and probably his best friend. she’d stuck by his side for all these years for whatever reason, and he’d probably be lost without her. “ oh, come on. you shouldn’t be allowed to tease me like that. now that’s all i’m going to be thinking about all night long. ” he teases, shaking his head.

[mattdamoen]

[oilversqueen]

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eternvals:

“noted. well, i’ll just come back to you about a favor or somethin’. i’m not really sure what i’d need from you to begin with.” in all honesty. benji’s not even entirely sure that he’d ever really ask freya to do much for him. they were pretty good friends so he truly didn’t mind doing this kind of thing for her, even if it was a little weird. he’s taken notice that she doesn’t actually do relationships — in the entire time he’s known her, benji’s never once seen the girl have a boyfriend. or a girlfriend for that matter; he wasn’t entirely sure what her sexuality was since he’d never seen her interact romantically with anyone. and he just didn’t feel like it was appropriate to ask. “snobs back home? am i going to meet said snobs?” the way that freya carried herself and spoke about her family made it seem like she came from some sort of rich liniage which made him a bit uneasy considering the fact he just washed cars for a living and still lived with his dad. “it’s not bad, it’s just…weird, i guess. but yeah, i’ll do it. when are we leaving? do i have time to pack?”

she’s glad he’s doing this for her, doesn’t know who else she could’ve turned to if he had said no to her rather weird request. it was often that freya found herself comfortable around another to ask anything even along those lines, so it was a semi-big deal for her. though she didn’t want to think about that too much. fingers dancing along her collarbone, eyebrows raise at his question. “ do you want to meet the snobs, benji ? ” honestly, she wasn’t even that keen on meeting them herself. her and her mother didn’t necessarily have the same taste, and anybody her mother liked, freya made an effort to dislike. “ check out your competition a little, yeah ? ” she teases, soft smile displayed across his features as she nudges him with her shoulder. but then she’s shaking her head, a light chuckle departing her lips at her teasing words. “ it’s a weird spot to be in, i get it. it’s cool if you don’t want to or whatever; you don’t owe me or anything... it’s fine if you want to back out, you know ? i can work something else out. ”

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atticus: i'm offended again

atticus: STOP BULLYING ME HAYLEY

atticus: oh :/ he doesn't want you anymore either

atticus: you're so mean to me i want a divorce

atticus: WOW SO BOSSY JUST HOW I LIKE THEM!!!!

atticus: the door's open :)

hayley: good

hayley: what is this """bullying' you speak of

hayley: yes he does :/

hayley: what do you expect me to be?? nice to you ?? unrealistic

hayley: omw :')