i mean yeah sorry if that response was like. dismissive and rude and i didnt really plan on coming off like that (especially right after crying for like, two hours about how no one talks to me - so there goes an answer why, lol). but i do that. and i think this - right next to "go volunteer" are the two most popular suggestions i get (volunteering is great and i keep researching stuff i could do in this town, but the few places that do recruit people rn are *serious* places like children's hospice. and i dont know if i, being a person with suicidal ideation, am a good candidate to work with dying children. perhaps as some short of shock therapy, to compare how bad people have it? but that is definitely the wrong reason for doing it, as children dont deserve to be "experimented on" like that by unprepared volunteers).
but yeah. it is just like. yeah. i do that. i know people dont know everything about me - its not really something i feel particularly interested in personally, so i dont really *blog* about finding new yoga plans or some minor drama in the gym i have access to, or hitting personal records (i dont really keep track of it, my work-out cant be "heavyweight" due to health issues, so most important thing for me is keeping it regular, rather than going harder and harder).
but i do agree how exercise is good. im looking forward to finally buy new shoes (waiting until the newbalances i like the most are on sale again, so i dont have to walk around in my old ripped ones LOL) and to start running again, as during cold-and-slippery season it was tough.
yeah sorry im trying so hard to word it in a way where im like, obviously grateful for any sort of suggestion or interaction bc i do need that, even if as some sort of reminder while im already doing that. but i do wanna clarify that i already do a lot of the basic suggestions, like getting fresh air (even thorough the winter and ugly weather), minimizing my online time, diving into active hobbies like creating and movement and travelling rather than passive like watching tv shows, eating healthier and cooking more. i am open for advice because i dont wanna be in a place where i get defensive on the sole suggestion that *maybe* im not doing enough. but, yeah, i do put effort in getting better. its just tough. having bad days and pits of despair doesnt mean im not trying! as much as i am grateful for any sort of desire to help, please, please, please put some trust in me and assume that i am doing, at the very least, the surface-level self-care.