☾ task 032. resolutions ☽
001. tell the world about my brother and my mental illness— since his death, it’s been incredibly hard for me to talk about it, but i don’t like hiding such an important part of myself from my friends and my fans. it’s just time everyone knows because there’s no reason to hide it anymore.
002. actually be myself more— for the longest time, i’ve tried to act like this heartless, over-sexualized douche bag, because i thought that’s what people wanted to see. i though it would make people like me. sure, i got famous pretending to be that person, but it’s honestly exhausting to keep up the facade, and i’d rather have people not like me than like me for someone i’m not.
003. learn to accept help when i need it— i think the major problem comes from those high school years when i felt like i couldn’t talk to any of my old friends or let them know how bad i was because they’d call me crazy or wouldn’t understand. my friends now are a lot more accepting and open, and i need to learn to let them in and actually tell people what’s wrong when i’m upset rather than just cutting off from everyone.
004. smoke less— in all honesty i don’t know if i’ll ever quit smoking, but i’d at least like to smoke a little less. by the end of the year, i want to get down to a pack every one or two weeks, not one or two days.
















