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Sick of

Being so far behind myself

I don’t mind that people call Dyscalculia dark.

I think it is quite dark, I think I am quite dark. But the me in the book and the book reflect a particular kind of statehood every person can identify and relate to. Being in the tunnel of heartbreak, there is very little light. There is ecstasy, there is growth, but the light is blocked out by the tunnel of grief and the luck is getting to sit in that darkness and learn to make out the shapes of your own sadness, getting to name them and befriend them and develop a new sense, a new way of seeing in the dark. This book leaves you kind of unsettled. That’s success to me, because that’s how it left me and that is the emotion I prioritized. I could’ve picked others but unsettled is where I was happy to end up. It seems people are so unsettled they don’t know how to talk about it? Should I make a guide? Lots of reviewers have just simply relayed what the book is about without any real analysis regarding what it’s about or attempting to do and it kind of bums me out. Like, let’s get into it, it’s meaty and there’s a lot to unpack. I don’t quite understand the reticence to dig into the meat and unpack it. There’s plenty there. There’s misogynoir, there’s ruinous interiority, overindulgence, it’s speaking in the confessionalist tradition, it’s giving millennial online culture. There’s so much in here that’s sort of gone unseen but it’s what I wrote. You can skate beyond the surface of heartbreak and crack open the book’s universe. It welcomes that.

flowerytale

Janet Fitch, from White Oleander

psikonauti

Brent Miller (Scottish,b.1950)

henk-heijmans

Dog bath, 1950 - by Mark Kauffman (1923 - 1994), American

abstracteddistractions

Gerhard Richter, “Abstraktes Bild” (Abstract Painting), 2017,

Oil on canvas

78 ¾ x 98 3/8 inches (200 x 250 cm)

Courtesy: David Zwirner

psikonauti

Maryam Lamei Harvani (Iranian,b. 1985)

Redemption, 2019

Acrylic & Watercolor on Cardboard

flowerytale

Jane Austen, from a letter to Cassandra Austen

dreaming-in-techni-color

“Creativity takes courage.” – Henri Matisse

surqrised

“I think you lost all interest in this world. You were disappointed and discouraged, and lost interest in everything. So you abandoned your physical body. You went to a world apart and you’re living a different kind of life there. In a world inside you.”

— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

sexography

“Have sex. Have dirty, raunchy sex. Have sex in the bed, on the counter, in the car, in the bathroom. Have it everywhere. Have passionate love making sex. Fuck. Go slow. Gaze into their eyes. Learn every curve and bump on their body. Learn what makes them quiver. Learn what makes them cum the hardest. Feel their body and fall back in love with them. Just have sex.”

— (via buddhistbabe)