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this semester is finally over. how wistful, calming, confusing, exciting, and nerve-wracking all at once. i like to say “i don’t know” what’s happening next because surrender is a must for the anxious mind. i did well, you did well! let’s keep going <3

ps. had a beautiful life affirming moment that hasn’t fully sunk in related to my music path. it was kind of surreal. bts had a concert at my university which was insane because 1. no one comes to this god forsaken city 2. i have been a fan of them for nearly 9 years 3. min yoongi is one of the biggest reasons i chose to pursue music (how i was introduced to the concept of music production) 4. the friday before i saw them in concert i spent the entire day crying because i felt like i wasn’t improving on my singing 5. it was this semester i started officially being a music student 6. a bts concert at my university’s stadium????!?!! being a music student??!!!???????? are u freaking kidding me 7. having struggled from depression and anxiety since i was 11 years old, discovering bts at 12, and me owing my life to them because the concept of loving oneself was so radical and life changing for me and i wouldn’t be on this path today. i would still be suffering greatly with no understanding of it whatsoever. 8. so many other amazing reasons

candlemusic

labels are a big joke to me. i like writing poetry, but i am not a poet. every time you give yourself a title, you’re expected to fit perfectly inside a box and write perfect poems instead of having fun with words and writing something that is pretty and meaningful to you (by no means meant to satisfy the masses). this applies to almost everything. call yourself a singer and you’re expected to have flawless execution of all registers and styles and technique. people don’t exist to be judged or accepted. we exist to do what we enjoy without a care in the world. imperfectly, freely. it’s a shame to see artists having fun and expressing themselves in the spotlight and someone wants to jump in and criticize the imperfections of their work. what the fuck is wrong with people. as someone with insane anxiety and self-doubt it makes me so fearful to even TRY to put myself out there and make my creations because people can be so cruel and love pretending to be geniuses who have a right to comment on other’s abilities and deservingness of success. life is a journey for us all and we are not meant to match the standards of others or overcomplicate our own methods just to fit into the norm and be warmly welcomed. i pray i find a community that is supportive and uplifting when it comes to my passions where i don’t feel so intimidated to make a mistake. i cannot live my life so rigidly believing in a “right” or “wrong” when it comes to artistic pursuit.

mirrorballbutmadeoffoil

eXACTLY like art is supposed to be EXPRESSION not PERFECTION smh

candlemusic

THIS!!! you get it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mood

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labels are a big joke to me. i like writing poetry, but i am not a poet. every time you give yourself a title, you’re expected to fit perfectly inside a box and write perfect poems instead of having fun with words and writing something that is pretty and meaningful to you (by no means meant to satisfy the masses). this applies to almost everything. call yourself a singer and you’re expected to have flawless execution of all registers and styles and technique. people don’t exist to be judged or accepted. we exist to do what we enjoy without a care in the world. imperfectly, freely. it’s a shame to see artists having fun and expressing themselves in the spotlight and someone wants to jump in and criticize the imperfections of their work. what the fuck is wrong with people. as someone with insane anxiety and self-doubt it makes me so fearful to even TRY to put myself out there and make my creations because people can be so cruel and love pretending to be geniuses who have a right to comment on other’s abilities and deservingness of success. life is a journey for us all and we are not meant to match the standards of others or overcomplicate our own methods just to fit into the norm and be warmly welcomed. i pray i find a community that is supportive and uplifting when it comes to my passions where i don’t feel so intimidated to make a mistake. i cannot live my life so rigidly believing in a “right” or “wrong” when it comes to artistic pursuit.