Canyon

Physical nonhuman || He/Him

[canislupuslatrans]

About me, profile warnings & other info

Name: PNW K9-445 "Canyon"

Species: Canis Lupus x Canis Latrans (Northwestern American coywolf)

Biological canine born and raised in human society

I don't identify with human concepts such as race or gender, however I do not mind being referred to in masculine terms

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I am open to any questions, I don't mind being asked about my identity ^^

However I might not answer everything as somethings are highly personal and others pertain to my life offline that I can't share due to safety reasons

If you have a question, my asks are always open

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These are the only warnings you will get on my blog:

I block incest supporters, radqueers and MAPs. I don't generally get involved with human issues but I feel the need to protect my mental wellbeing when it comes to these topics

I am a carnivore, I have a prey drive and eat meat. I advise that prey species do not interact for their own comfort

There will be in depth posts about my biological alterhumanity; which affects every aspect of my life, so naturally some of these posts may contain mentions or in depth discussions of heat and rut, however they will be tagged with the appropriate tags if you wish to filter that content out.

Don't come to my blog to "challenge" my identity, I don't give two shits and I don't have the energy to deal with humans trying to "fix" me. (however genuine questions are welcome)

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Tag guide -

#coyote rambling - random thoughts/general posting

#rabid coyote - hot takes/debates

#moonlight howls - afterdark tag/NSFW content (nothing sexual like porn or stuff, usually just gross biology facts or mentions of sexual stuff, I don't do horny posts)

#canidae - stuff relating to physical alterhumanity and/or shifting (please be aware that most of my blog/posts have physical nonhuman content, this tag is just for the extremely in-depth posts)

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Everything in here is subject to change.

Not interacting with syscourse, my blog is a space for my experiences, don't try and hijack it with stuff thats not related at all to me.

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EDIT: If you don't like my posts then don't interact, generally speaking I don't really care for others opinions on stuff I post about. If you don't wanna see it then the block buttons right there.

I experience very violent mood swings and I do post upsetting content every once and a while, if you don't want to see it then either block me or block the #rabid coyote tag as thats what I filter all my upsetting posts with

[canislupuslatrans]

I need to be taken care of

But I refuse to be muzzled again

[canislupuslatrans]

I am violent by nature

It is in my blood to bare my fangs and bite

And yet with all my violence, I chose to be kind

My kindness is rough, it will leave you with scars

I am violent because that is all I know how to be, I chose to be gentle because that is all I can be

My gentleness is the greatest form of violence I could ever commit

I am not incapable of being kind despite my violence

You don't have to choose a path that was given to you

[canislupuslatrans]

I don't want my blog to be about stuff I don't like, I just don't know how to talk about myself. I've never been great at it, and with my fragmented memories of the before, its even harder to make a coherent sentence about my existence.

I want my blog to be a place where I can post about the parts of my existence so that others like me can know they are not alone.

I just, don't know what to say. I'm not sure what to talk about because most of my existence is just: canine is forced to do human things and is punished through public humiliation when said canine does not know how to act human.

Its not really much to talk about, and its hard to talk about it without giving too much personal details away. I don't want anyone to identify me here.

It doesn't help that my normal state of mind is already slightly volatile, I don't know how to exist without being emotionally violent. which isn't great for anyone

[canislupuslatrans]

I just remembered I can add whoever I want to the polycule.

Currently relaxing with my two plush partners and my giant bjd

Life is good

[canislupuslatrans]

I hesitate to use the term zoanthrope for myself. I have not been officially diagnosed with anything (I try very hard to avoid it, I don't want to risk my freedom being taken away).

Personally I would say clinical zoanthopy is what sounds closest to my experiences. I haven't dealt with as severe psychiatric punishment from humans as others have had due to how much I have been able to hide from my caretaker. I do not wish to encroach upon a space that may not be mine.

A part of me wants to seek diagnosis, to "prove" my existence to myself in some form. But I know it would only do more harm than good, its best to keep the human's eyes off of me

[canislupuslatrans]

Alterhuman/therian spaces constantly try to lump zoanthropes and physical nonhumans into their communities when we are not the same community.

Its not a "we're better than you", its we are quite literally not the same community, we have different experiences. please for the love of god stop trying to use our terms in contexts that don't fit them. Zoanthrope is not a broad-spectrum label like nonhuman or alterhuman is, Zoanthropy has very specific meanings.

please for the love of god just let us keep our spaces, our communities. we've been fighting for so long to have a space where we can exist, now we can barely find eachother due to how mis-used our tags and terms are.

physical nonhumanity has already lost a lot of its meaning. please just leave us alone, we just want a space where we can exist

[a-minke-whales-tale]

I have been blocked on my previous post about this distinction being made between clinical and non-clinical zoanthropes, but this discussion is important to have so I am going to repost my reply to the comments. Here is the original post and reply To those who identify as "non clinical zoanthropes" seperating your experince from "clinical zoanthropes" on the basis of psychosis, please read this.

Firstly, the concept of the term Zoanthrope being universal because of grammar is incorrect - the history of words is very important in how they are used and why you should not take or use some words. Lycanthropy has historical widespread use. Zoanthrope is however really limited to solely clinical zoanthropes. You can use almost any [noun]-thrope or were-[noun] without issue. Zoanthrope though specifically is used as shorthand by the clinical zoanthrope community as a means of rejecting the psychiatrisation we experience and it is through that means that it has been primarily used. Taking the word for yourself and seperating yourself entirely from that experience only serves to damage and - given the tendency of language to drift and soften - destroy our community and the limited means we have to find each other.

What you are doing is sanist, and amounts to the same behaviour engaged by therian communities to essentially cut us as seperate and it fails to understand our community, history, experiences, and why we word things certain ways. There has always been an understanding within the zoanthrope community that there is no requirement of specific diagnosis - just reasonable suspicion, psychiatrisation, or the understanding that psychiatrisation would be applied. Almost all zoanthropes reject the humans understanding of our experiences as psychosis or madness. The problem comes in trying to define yourself as "non-clinical" zoanthrope in opposition to "clinical" zoanthrope. There is no means to seperate the concept of "clinical" from "non-clinical" within the space which does not have sanist outcomes as it inherently frames one as mad and the other not. This plays out in your writing, and that of others that have replied, framing your experience in opposition to ours - with ours as a psychotic affect. This is not an analysis almost any zoanthrope accepts for themselves, but in placing it on others you inherently devalue our experiences and identity as genuine, while at the same time claiming yours as genuine affect of your existance.

Your background of being physical nonhuman and the treatment from therian community does not preclude you from engaging in sanism or mistreating further marginalised communities or further marginalising segments of that community. Genuinely, if you actually care about our experiences, and view yourselves as meaningfully different from us, please stop appropriating our terms. They are the only way we have to find others and to be able to express our experiences without bowing to the psychiatrisation and reality checking demanded by the human world and therian communities. Not every term is for you and you are not entitled to every word. Or, if you do view yourself as like us, you must stop creating this dichotomy which sets one experience of greater validity against anothers madness as this only serves to marginalise those already most marginalised within the community. You may not intend or consider this outcome, but intent is irrelevant, this is the outcome.

Kindly, Kala

[canislupuslatrans]

I refuse to celebrate pride month until I am welcome in my own community.

I am kicked out of lesbian spaces for being a man,

Kicked out of gay spaces for being a woman.

There is nothing for me to celebrate while our siblings are being murdered in broad daylight and our own fucking community refuses to talk about it.

[redstonedust]

we all know adult humans dont get enough enrichment but the other day i was walkin home past an empty playground and impulsively ran over to spin myself on this zipline merry-go-round contraption for a few minutes and it really did feel like it unlocked some neglected part of my brain. like damn we really should all go outside and play more. fuck. they werent kidding with this play time thing. have you guys heard about play time. it could be huge.

[canislupuslatrans]

Remember folks: if the playground is community funded, it is community owned. Anyone has the right to use something in their community, it's what being in a community is all about (although playgrounds tend to be small, even for older children)

[two-facedgod]

I know the tumblr alterhuman community is alive and thriving, but where else are we these days? All the old forums are dead. Discord's good for conversation but not necessarily journalism and self-expression. TikTok is toxic. Reddit seems... moody. Where can we find each other?

[canislupuslatrans]

The death of forums is the cause of the death of a lot of similar communities to alterhumans and is also the cause of a lot of lost culture and history in alterhuman spaces.

We genuinely need an archive thats not tumblr (because tumblr would make a crap archive)

unfortunately a lot of older community members have left due to the death of forums, the community today is not the community that we remember. I would like to see the revival of forums, mostly because I do want the community to grow and change but I also would like to have a space where folks can easily access our history

[canislupuslatrans]

With some of my posts, I've found therians interacting and getting confused so let me explain: unless I mention therianthropy, my post isn't about it. I don't mind interacting with y'all and y'all interacting with my posts, but pls don't assume I am talking about your community. I don't want to change/influence your community.

Most of my posts are directed towards physical nonhumans, clcz (I still struggle with getting the acronym right), and/or transspecies communities.

I am all for therians being here but I do want to make the distinction that I am in a separate community with separate experiences and I am trying to make that distinction because physical nonhuman spaces have been absorbed and forgotten about. I also don't want to interfere with the therian community and cause any issues/changes over there

[canislupuslatrans]

I've never understood the hyper empathy approach to other animals and how humans are villainized for killing animals. Animals will literally kill and eat each other, they aren't more morally "pure" than humans are. I promise you that the coyote eating roadkill has no empathy for the roadkill, they are just trying to survive and reproduce like every other living organism.

Please stop applying human empathy onto animals, human morals don't apply to animals.

Now, this isn't to say to not be sad at an animal's death, it's a totally normal and okay reaction to have. But don't villainize humans who hunt other animals to survive, they are as much a part of the ecosystem as we are. Humans are animals, they are also a part of nature.

EDIT: I would also like to add on that a lot of anti hunting stuff does stem from classism, especially in rural communities where hunting is deeply tied to the culture, lifestyle and history of the location.

Not to mention that a lot of folks generalize humans and human activities (which is extremely racist on so many levels) humans may all be the same species but they are a diverse species with many different cultures and ideologies, don't assume that humans are all the same western stereotype of a hunter

EDIT2: as an example: humans have also driven out the large predators that manage deer populations, without something to keep them in check, the deer will breed like crazy, leading to a huge increase in CWD (a fatal prion disease that is highly transmissible in deer and leads to a very slow agonizing death). With no natural predators, it is up to the humans living there to manage the population. Without hunting the ecosystem will suffer the consequences of over grazing, disease, and other issues caused by an over inflated deer population. Overgrazing can lead to soil erosion, taking away habitat from other species. All in all, humans are an essential part of the ecosystem, and trust me, they do have laws and regulations about how many deer you can hunt and when you can hunt.

[kitten-of-bast]

Maybe I'm mistaken but it feels like these days in the tumblr therian community its much more common to be 0% human.

Feel like a bit of an outsider now. Somecreature posted a more poetic version of this sentiment a few days ago: something like too beastly to be human, too human to be beast.

[canislupuslatrans]

I think this is an issue of the communities trying to merge each experience, therianthropy and non humanity are not always experienced side by side, you can be therian or nonhuman without being the other.

I've seen this a lot with the physical nonhuman community, folks have tried to blend it in with other communities which in turn has led to folks trying to change the definition.

The main cause is how separate communities are seen as the same community when we aren't, nonhumans and therians aren't the same community, they tend to overlap but they still are separate communities.

There's also been a rise in the adoption of terms from the physical nonhuman community, and as a physical nonhuman, don't feel pressured into making your experience something that's not authentic to you.

[canislupuslatrans]

Folks keep saying "interact with your local queer community" y'all, my local queer community can't handle the idea of a bisexual person. What makes you think they'd want me?

[canislupuslatrans]

I should be allowed one violence per year

[canislupuslatrans]

Old (orange fox) vs. New (grey) I like the old one but the new one will allow for animation, plus its generally a cleaner model

Improvements: Better topology, jaw and head are separate, cleaner eye sockets