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[cantfindmenowlosers]

WELCOME TO MY PERSONAL BLOG <333

Hiya! My name is Cin/Czar, I use they/them pronouns, and I'm 24 years old :D

Thank you for stopping by my blog. It's pretty empty right now, but I'm hoping to fill it with my favourite things! Writing! Painting! Music! Fandom! I'm excited to make it my own~

I'll be blogging about daily life and reblogging things that make me happy, basically. I've been lurking on Tumblr since I was 11 and using a different account, but now I've decided to be active so I can post the development of my art, poetry, and... FANFIC!!!

Yes, that's right, I write fanfiction. Mostly in the NBC Hannibal extended universe, but I'll likely dabble in some Marvel, a bunch of different anime, and - who knows - maybe even K-pop demon hunters??? (I'm actually obsessed: it's a little embarrassing). I've finally gained the courage to share my writing, so yall are gunna get real tired of me.

I'm also in the process of publishing original work so please keep an eye out for that >:)

If youre interested, please follow me on the following platforms!

Personal accounts:

Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/cantfindmenowlosers?igsh=anIyamRmaTFsMmlx

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AO3 content

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Video content:

YouTube - https://youtube.com/@c.in.c.ity2000?si=OlVk5S8eD1CrUMpD

Twitch - https://www.twitch.tv/cincity2000?sr=a

Tiktok - https://www.tiktok.com/@cincityy2000?_t=ZM-8y66gC2Mavu&_r=1

Thanks for visiting! I hope to have fun and make a lot of friends on this platform <33

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Sub Hannibal propaganda to go with my top will propaganda

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Propaganda I'd fall for every time..

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You know you're at a Filipino event when they pull up the Manny Pacquiao fight.

Like, guys. This is church?

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I think I'm just old, but I'm very intimidated by discord servers. Even when everyone seems very kind, I am very scared.

I joined a Hannibal discord server hoping to make friends and maybe find a beta for my fics, but that was literally three days ago and I, only now, mustered up the courage to say hi and make an intro.

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Love Letters

We are not strangers to the words that fill the space between us.

It was where we began, after all.

Our stories were written in the lines of our sheets,

In the bold of the condensation between our parted lips,

In the cursive of their teeth marks,

In the ink of the bruises they left behind.

(I used to hate it)

Now I wear them like fine jewelry —

A necklace made of rot.

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AND YOU'RE TELLING ME PEOPLE THINKS THIS MAN TOPS????

(Maybe when Will lets him)

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I woke up at 6AM today and I cant imagine doing this shit for FUN??? Aren't yall sleepy? I'm a sleepy guy.

It's still only 7AM and I have no clue what to do with myself. Maybe I'll write a oneshot or something.

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Dinner & Divinity.

It's too empty without you here:

At the table.

Your chair is askew, gaping in its lack,

Akin to something lost at the core of my being, where your embers

Created both a hearth and a hole in my gut.

You carved yourself a place at the pit of my stomach,

Your bare hands: hot enough to melt flesh and resolve. Oil burns

And cum trails

To mark my skin with

Scars.

In short,

I’m in love with you.

But repeated words slowly lose their meaning.

It becomes too much of a ritual to say the same thing

In the same way repeated prayers become irritating to a God

And worship begins to lack significance.

Can “I love you” explain the way your ghost lingers —

Breathes against my skin when you aren’t by my side?

No.

The words themselves could never understand

The way my chest feels like a pot that you’ve left over a flame to stew.

Slow cooked.

You fucking cannibal.

Feed on me,

While my meat is tender.

Before the rigor mortis sets in,

Before the earth claims the soil of my body,

There are still pieces spared by the unrelenting appetite of

Decay.

My blood is still

Edible.

Dinuguan.

Then at the end,

Let my soul return to you,

So I might feel the way your eyes linger on me again.

Not just like a meal.

Or something soft like a lover.

That gaze is a reminder of why I still sit here,

Allowing my peace to be tainted by hunger.

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I don't know how to use Tumblr anymore. I posted into a community not knowing that it doesn't post on my blog and now I gotta repost it :(

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If you know me from AO3

First of all, you don't

Secondly, follow my fic update blog: @ao3blankspace