I AM BECOME DEATH;

( UNDER CONSTRUCTION. )

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xcommanderxlexax:

Lexa watched Clarke as she spoke, not being able to take her eyes away from her. It was just a relief, being able to look at her as much as she wanted, to be able to show her how much she meant to her, how much she loved Clarke without having to worry about what her people think. “You should. I mean, if we are settling in here, we should start looking for something to do … I think people call it jobs here.” She could see Clarke as an artist and a good one. When it came to herself, she had no idea what she could do for a living. Her only skills involved fighting, hunting and commanding. “I know Clarke. But it wouldn’t hurt to at least have my dagger hidden down my boot. If someone tried to hurt you, I could defend you.” Lexa turned her body so she was facing Clarke. She brought her free hand up and caressed Clarke’s cheek, before offering her a smile. “It’s okay, Clarke, I promise. I know how much this means to you, we should check the rest of it out. And just so you know, I really like your hair like this, you should wear it more often.” She said, before running a hand through the blonde’s hair. “Ai hod yu in, Clarke.” She whispered, before pressing her lips slightly against her’s.

“ a job. ” clarke repeated as if the word were foreign to her. they had jobs on the ark, but clarke hadn’t ever really been able to get one. at first, she was in school, which meant she was too busy, but then she had been arrested and place in solitary confinement for eleven months. the chance had never really come up. “ you’re right. we really should look into getting jobs. we can start tomorrow. ” for now, she just wanted to enjoy the festival with lexa. it was so colorful and loud and fun. it was a really nice change up from all of the misery back home. “ if i can win against anya in a fight, then i’m almost positive that i can win against anyone here. ” from what she knew, the regular residents of magnolia didn’t have combat training. they were just normal people that lived normal lives. anything else that clarke was about to say was quick to be forgotten as lexa ran her hand along clarke’s cheek, once again reducing her to a puddle of emotions. she never was going to get over the fact that her love was back. “ oh yeah ? ” she smiled, relaxing even further as lexa’s hand made its way through her short blonde hair. then, like always, clarke melted into the kiss. “ ai hod yu in seintaim, leksa. ” truly, madly, deeply. 

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xcommanderxlexax:

Lexa smiled as she looked at Clarke. They didn’t get to smile much back in their world, there was always something going on, usually something bad, so to be able to make Clarke smile, it made the former Commander happy. “You’re talented, I’m sure you would be amazing. Have you thought about starting to draw again? You have the time now.” Looking around them, Lexa nodded. “It’s quite alright. Would much rather have a weapon with me and some armor, but I can handle it. I am used to walk among big armies, but not a big crowd of strangers.” She turned her body so she was facing the blonde. “I also want to enjoy this with you. We’re supposed to start fresh, adapt to this world, so I need to get used to this.” 

it seemed like clarke was constantly smiling now, but how could she not ? she had lexa and jasper back. raven and bellamy were safe. sure, she missed madi and monty and even murphy, but she had high hopes that they would all eventually show up in magnolia. she just needed to be patient. “ i have not, but i think it’s something i’ll look back into now that you’ve mentioned it. ” magnolia had a lot of beautiful spots that would make for the perfect project. “ i know, but weapons are illegal here. we have to follow the laws. ” considering the fact that clarke’s closet was currently hiding both guns and knives, she probably had no room to talk, but she found it better for lexa not to have a weapon on her while they were out. the last thing they needed was for the former commander to get spooked and pull a knife on some innocent person. “ come here, ” stepping forward, clarke took lexa’s hand in her own, keeping the girl close. “ if it’s too much, then we can ditch this and head home. it’s fine. ”

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xcommanderxlexax:

After a lot of convincing from Clarke and going through a lot of clothes, Lexa had finally agreed to take off her Commander’s clothes and put on something more normal, or acceptable in this world. She felt naked, without her weapons and her armor to protect her, but she guessed they weren’t in any danger in this world, plus if something happened and she had to protect Clarke, she could still fight with her own hands. Much like Clarke, Lexa wanted to get to know this world and the culture, although a big crowd like this was making her nervous. She was fine walking among an army, one she was commanding, but this was a whole new thing. Clarke had asked, almost begged her to come and Lexa just couldn’t say no, she wanted to make the blonde happy. She followed Clarke to the art exhibit, looked over at everything in display. “It is. Although, I believe you should have had your own art exhibit here, Clarke. You’re the best artist I know.” 

the compliment brought a smile to clarke’s lips, still amazed that lexa thought so highly of her. “ thank you, but i haven’t drawn anything in almost seven years, so perhaps it’s best that i don’t have my own exhibit here. ” her skills were bound to be rusty. “ -- but are you feeling okay ? i know this must be overwhelming for you. ”

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face painted and blonde hair temporarily streaked with what people called pride colors, clarke was having the time of her life at the festival. it normally wasn’t her style, but she couldn’t pass up the chance to have a little bit of fun and to learn about a bit more about this new world. plus, the food was amazing. much better than anything they had on the ark or the ground. not wanting to attend the event alone, clarke had practically begged lexa to come along with her, wanting to show her girlfriend ( ? ) everything. “ come here, ” she spoke, glancing over at lexa as she walked towards one of the art exhibit tables. “ isn’t this neat ? ”

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la-vie-dure:

Grantaire had his face painted in a watercolor-looking style, the part around his eyes colored in pink, yellow and a light blue. The light blue swimmingly went over to a dark blue at the center of his nose, his upper lip being red, connecting to the dark blue while his bottom lip was painted black. His philtrum had a yellow pi symbol painted over the red.

Sitting at his stall, he smiled at the people walking past when he noticed someone looking at him. “‘ello, would you like to ‘ave your face painted? Or any other part of your body?” While he spoke, he nodded towards a portfolio that was propped up at his stall, “If you need inspiration, I can easily paint any of these or even your own design if you prefer. I also do any color combination that you would like, I do not only paint the rainbow.”

clarke gasped in wonder as she leaned forward to look at the examples. with this being her first ever festival, the blonde couldn’t help but to be fascinated by practically everything. “ i would love to have my face painted. -- but the artist always knows best, so surprise me. ”

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unstoppcblc:

It was easy yet hard to reminiscence about the time in space. They’d found their own flow and form of peace when things were going right, but the difficulties now laid in now knowing where the rest of them, minus Bellamy, were. “I’m glad that you had someone,” Raven said with a genuine smile. Being alone for six years was unimaginable. “Hopefully the rest of us will pop up sometime soon. They’re probably all indulging in food that isn’t algae.”

there were so many things that clarke wanted to ask raven. she wanted to know all about what had happened in space, but knew there would be time later on to discuss such things. hopefully. “ me too. ” madi had been clarke’s reason to live. without her, clarke probably would’ve gave up long ago. that wasn’t a s fact raven needed to know, thought. “ you know, you’re probably right. you always are. ”

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xrebelkingx:

As Bellamy heard the words escape the female, his thick brows curved downwards. The male dipped his head in a nod as his eyes drifted their gaze down Clarke’s features.She still looked the same minus the hair.“ You too.” The words fell from Bellamy’s mouth in a thick and muffled voice. Between the corners of his right lip, a half smile formed for a brief moment. Silence filled the space between them as Bellamy extended his arm forward, placing his thumb on the side frame of Clarke’s face. “ I didn’t think I’d see you again.” The words were choppy as Bellamy’s fingers skimmed down slowly, until drawing away from her face. Words never came easy for him, in fact, he was much more comfortable keeping them to himself.There was so much that was never said that he wanted to, but time ran out and it was a gift that none of them were ever afforded. Bellamy can remember vividly the day they left Clarke behind. He watched Primfaya take full effect through the window, and in that very moment, he thought he lost her, and once again couldn't protect the ones he cared for; just like in the black rainstorm. Guilt haunts his memory of trying to save his people but the storm was too thick. Though Bellamy is relieved and very happy to know that Clarke is alright, he is still unsure how to react without allowing his emotions to consume him, which they often do around her. 

“ i know. ” she knew her friends had been under the impression that she was dead. they had all seen praimfaya approaching, had watched it destroy everything in its path, so it had been fair to assume that clarke hadn’t been able to escape it. then again, this was clarke they were talking about, so they really should’ve known better. “ are you okay ? how was it up there ? why were you guys a year late coming back ? ” the questions tumbled from her lips before she could stop them, the happiness that came with seeing him again nearly suffocating. 

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add-it-up-jasper:

Jasper was more than okay with no longer calling her Wanheda, and honestly, he wasn’t too sure how long he’d keep up calling her Princess, let alone if he ever would. It was like a long lost nickname that bore too many scars too. Too many faces of friends they had lost had called her that at a point or two in the begin, but Jasper was quick to become good friends with Clarke, enough to respect her to stop calling her Princess, at least until after the ‘meeting’ she and Anya were to have back all the way at the bridge that no longer existed thanks to him. As she opened up to him, he sort of had the feeling the two women were something. Call it a feeling, but he had one about her and Lexa and hearing that she had lost her girlfriend too, didn’t make Jasper feel any better. Part of him had hoped that one day she’ll experience the time of pain she inflicted onto him, he still believed he could have saved Maya. Clarke probably thought she could have saved Lexa. The realization only made him pull her in tighter. “I’m sorry, Clarke. How come you never told me?” He asked and wondered if the talk would have saved him at all or made him more infuriated with Clarke. As she pulled back, he let her go and smiled. “Ironically, me too. I haven’t been glad in years.” He joked.

“ you never would have listened. ” clarke shrugged, not holding back the truth. her and jasper had been in bad places when lexa had passed, so telling him about what happened probably only would have resulted in him picking at her wounds and making things worse. “ besides, you were dealing with your own pain at the time, so i didn’t want bother you with mine. ” not a total lie, but it was the best she could offer. “ welcome back, jasper. we’ve really missed having you around. ” the angry drunk had not been her friend, had not been her jasper, so getting him back in a happier state was something that brought clarke a lot of happiness. “ hopefully this world will treat you better than the last one did.”

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xcommanderxlexax:

The group of people Lexa cared for was a very small one and she had already lost most of them with time. Actually, the only one still alive is Clarke. Costia, Anya, Gustus, Aden, they were all dead and most of their deaths was because of her. No matter what, it seemed like she would always lose people around her. She was never able to truly mourn them, because she had to be strong, couldn’t show weakness to her people. “I have you, that’s all I need, Clarke. My past will eventually come up, that’s what always happens. I don’t … I don’t do friends. I wouldn’t know how.” She said with a small shrug. “They were uncomfortable and not very practical. But I trust you to help me find something good.” Lexa turned her head so she could look at Clarke. “It’s still hard to believe, you know? That we are here, together once again. But I’m not complaining … I’m happy.” She smiled.

clarke gave a small nod of her head as lexa explained that she didn’t do friends. it was understandable after being forced to be commander for so long. still, clarke hoped that lexa would be able to meet some people that she connected with as it would make her transition to magnolia much easier. “ you’ll always have me. i promise. ” nothing would be separating them this time -- no murderous man, no war, no duties. clarke was here to stay. “ of course. we’ll look when we get to the apartment and you can tell me what you like. ” pausing for a moment, clarke offered lexa small smile. “ me too. this is everything i’ve ever wanted for us. ”

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carlnotcoral:

“Yeah, we call them walkers, but they have a lot of different names.” Carl said, shrugging his shoulders as if it wasn’t a big deal since he was rather used to it by now, but the danger of them never went away. “I understand. It’s this way. What do you think would attract her attention? Like shop wise, content in the shop.”

“ how did that all start ? did people just randomly get infected ? ” she was both confused and intrigued by his history. she was used to apocalypses, she just wasn’t used to zombies being the ones to bring such a thing on. “ i don’t know. honestly, we lived in a small patch of forest for five years, so everything would fascinate her at this point. ” 

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choaticflares:

           ‘ honestly there is a whole list. would you just like to come to lunch with me and i can order what you should try? ‘

“ oh. ” the offer took clarke off guard for a moment; the blonde not used to people being so kind and inviting. “ i don’t have any money, so i think i’ll have to pass. ”

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unstoppcblc:

It sucks, but they had all been through awful things and made it out on the other time. A chuckle managed to escape her lips about Murphy, though she gave a shake of her head. “I was more worried about having Echo up there, honestly. I knew Emori would make a good adjustment up there, Echo though… We made it work, somehow.”

clarke smiled to herself as raven spoke. she had no doubt that her friends would make things work in space; they had raven and bellamy -- two people that always pulled through. “ i can only imagine what it was like with her up there. ” she chuckled softly, glad the two grounders had adjusted and survived. “ i’m really glad you’re back. six years without you guys was torturous. had it not been for madi, then i probably would’ve started talking to trees. ”

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carlnotcoral:

“Hey, you aren’t alone in that. The world I come from is filled with dead things trying to eat us.” Carl laughed dryly. “Yeah, sure. I haven’t seen anyone with that name or description, though. Maybe we can just walk around and see if we spot her?”

“ are you talking about zombies ? ” clarke had been under the impression that zombies were simply something that had been made up to scare children and teens. there hadn’t been any movies or comics about them in her time, but there had been horror stories that the kids told each other when bored and looking for a small thrill. “ sure. she’s not a people person, but i think she might’ve gotten scared and headed into one of the shops or something, so perhaps we should head to the more populated area of town  ? ”

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xcommanderxlexax:

That gave Lexa a little bit of hope. Maybe she would be able to see the people she cared about once again, in this world. She had lost everyone, the only person who was still alive was Clarke. Maybe it was some kind of sick faith, anyone she ended up caring for, would end up dead. “You have your friends here, or at least some of them. I just wished some of mine would be as well. Apart from you, I am alone.” Lexa frowned and looked down at herself once again. “I had some too … but I didn’t like them, they made me look like Skaikru. Plus, I didn’t know this place, I wanted to be ready for a fight just in case.” And that was why she still had her swords attached to her back and her dagger on her waist. 

despite most of her friends still being alive, clarke knew very well what it was like to lose loved ones left and right. her father had been floated, her best friend had been killed by a child, she had mercy killed her first love, and then she had held lexa as she died. hell, she had even grown attached to aden only to have him slaughtered as he slept. still, clarke had been able to express her sorrow over the losses, but lexa hadn’t. it all seemed very wrong. “ you’re not alone. this town is a filled with many kind, wonderful people. people that don’t know your past. it’s a good chance to make some ... friends. ” did lexa even do friends ? clarke wasn’t sure. “ skaikru clothes aren’t bad. in fact, i think anything we get here is gonna be similar to them. ”

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xcommanderxlexax:

Lexa smiled slightly and nodded. “I won’t complain about being stuck with you.” Maybe before she would have, when she was trying so hard to fight her feeling for the blonde, but not anymore. She had open up to her with time, showing her her true colors and letting her walls down. Clarke had been the only one capable of doing that. Lexa shrugged. “His job was to advice me, not kill the person I love. I know he was trying to protect me, but doing the same thing Azgeda had done to me with Costia … he was there, he knew what I went through and how much I suffered. He shouldn’t have tried to kill you.” Lexa nodded and extended her hand for the blonde to take. “Let’s go then, Clarke. The sooner we find her, the better. Do you think … if I’m here, do you think it’s possible that Aden is as well? And Anya?” And Costia. But she wouldn’t mention her ex-lover to Clarke, she didn’t want to make things weird. But she would like to see her again, even if it was only to apologize, for being the one that caused her death. She missed them deeply and she wished she could see them again. “Also, should I change clothes? I’ve noticed some people looking at me sideways and weirdly.” She asked, looking down at her Commander clothes.

clarke nodded, not wanting to fight with lexa over the subject of someone that had betrayed both of them. titus’ actions had shattered clarke’s entire world, so pondering over the man wasn’t really something she wanted to do. “ if you say so. ” she replied, starting to walk towards the town with lexa. hopefully madi had simply gotten curious and fled to the crowds. she always had been a curious child. “ maybe. at this point, i think anything is possible. ” although, the idea of anya showing up again worried clarke a little. the two of them had been on good terms when anya had passed, but they had been trying to kill each other a few hours prior to that.  chuckling at the next question, clarke glanced over at lexa. she was used to the other being dressed in her commander outfits, so she hadn’t really stopped to think what modern world people think of the clothing. “ that might be a good idea, yeah. i have some clothes back at my place that you can have . ” she wasn’t sure how the clothes had gotten there, but she wasn’t complaining about them. 

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hclplcss:

eliza smiled at the woman before speaking. “ 18th century. ”

“ wow. ” clarke breathed, slightly fascinated with the whole time travel thing. “ this world must be so weird to you. ” 

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hclplcss:

“oh no, i am so sorry. —- “ she knew how it felt to lose a home. she had been through that . “ i am from the past. “

“ it’s okay. ” not like it was really something that could be avoided. “ how far in the past ? ”