Before we start, I have no problem with being blocked or blocking a person. I have blocked and have been blocked, just like most of us on here have BUT the way this happened has infuriated me. It’s been intense 2-3 weeks and not only have I been suffering from a lot but so have the people in my life. About three weeks ago I found out my boyfriend/ not boyfriend had been shot and was moving back to his home state of Texas on Tuesday, December 12,2017. For me, that was the breaking point on top of an incredibly hard semester, dealing with my parents, having NO friends, and a slew of other things. I decided to OD and that resulted in me going to the hospital and then being sent to the psych ward for an additional five days. I just got out and messaged my boyfriend/not boyfriend with “I’m alive just in case you wanted to know lol just got out.” Maybe I was an asshole and shouldn’t have joked around about getting out of the hospital and almost dying but, hey, we all have our ways of coping. Yesterday night I realized that he fucking blocked me on FB messenger... HE FUCKING BLOCKED ME! Things were going great, we were great, and not it is not. I have a feeling that it’s the cliche “It’s not me it’s you”, he really has gone through a hell of a lot of shit in the past month and I don’t think what he is doing is because of me but rather because he too, is dealing with a lot on his plate and maybe I was his breaking point, just as he was my breaking point. This is my first time in a relationship and I know that I’m young, dumb, and new but one thing I do know THIS IS LOVE that I feel for him. Never in my life have I had someone on my mind so god damn much, never have a cried over heartbreak, never have I wanted to talk with and be with someone so much in my life.I KNOW that I cannot be the only one who feels this way. A couple of weeks ago we made love and this was so intense that is was just more than sex, it was the type of sex that makes you CRY, sex that makes you so weak, sex that satisfies, sex that leaves you not only speechless but breathless. It was so different than anything I've experienced in my life and we had a moment, an indescribable moment but it was everything I needed and more. I’m losing my mind thinking that he blocked me and I’ve never been so distraught over someone locking me before. Another reason I know he feels what I feel is because he knows me inside and out, he has taken the time to get to know me...even the things I haven’t told him, he notices. Tell me who in the hell puts the initials of someone behind their name on Instagram and then adds the fire and ice emoji? A person in love does that, especially I person who is so personal and doesn’t really go on social media a lot. People in love do crazy things such as posting subliminal messages on Instagram or crying during sex. I’m not going to lie and say I am ok with him blocking me because obviously, I am not and I am also not going to say he is a straight up asshole because he is not. Love is a heard emotion to navigate and we are both scared and confused but no matter what I will never give up on him. Tell me your thoughts on this guys!
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