I know I talked about this a little already in my earlier post on his letter but I really do keep coming back to Florian's conversation with the child here.
The child asked how they could be more like Florian and this was his response. I like the fact that he answered quite seriously but positively, encouraging the child to choose what they want to be even if that changes later on in life (which naturally for a child that will be so most likely).
Though I think his words won't just resonate with children but anyone of any age really. I know for me personally, I've grown up wanting to try and do too many things and because of that I never really focused specifically on one thing. Hence, even now I struggle to find something specific to do.
However, the one consistency in my life has been to write and it's only recently after I finished my schooling and whatnot that I have a clearer picture than before on what I want to do. Yet, I feel as if I missed too many opportunities and missed my chance as what I went to school for is not lining up with what I want to do exactly (though it could supplement it).
Anyways, I don't know if that's TMI but I just wanted to say Florian's words are something I'm going to keep in mind moving forward during what I feel is the most difficult stage of my life yet. Unhappy days, days I did more crying than doing anything useful, days I just wanted to sleep, etc. etc.
I'm more hopeful now but this has been a chronic issue in my life for years so naturally these feelings crop up almost randomly from time to time (like today. Woke up okay, but suddenly mood went 📉).
Okay, I'll stop there before I get too TMI. It's just I feel oddly sentimental right now. Despite everything happening with this game and honestly, my mental has started to crash a bit seeing this and that about those who are quitting the game, losing inspiration to create (and tbh that was me for a few weeks), giving up their social accounts (one IDV news account stepped away from doing it), and that is all very valid.
But I don't want to give up yet. I'm also sick of waiting for NetEase to say something. But I also don't want to quit over higher brass who lack the basic understanding of not being able to be 2 and 2 together. This game has been around 8 years with many creatives like artists, writers, musicians (no one talks about the music in the game but they do SO much from EPs to theme songs to pursuit music...like y'all I was ON Orpheus' mini game when I first started playing this game).
I want to keep seeing that art and creativity. I don't want to scrutinize and see AI in everything. I'm not saying I'm going to have rose-tinted glasses either though. I've kept it mostly to myself my more scathing thoughts towards NetEase since I still want to try and be positive.
I just refuse to let them win and make me drop/step away from a game that gives me such warmth and encouragement like Florian's words above.
Anyways, that's just me though. I just wanted to also say that in case anyone else was in a similar position as me and felt torn. Though I think this was more of a self-indulgent spiel than anything lol
In short...take care of yourselves, guys. Life does get tougher especially when you become more aware of the people and the world around you, but there is still beauty and hope to be found even in the deepest darkness.
Don't give up on yourself either. Sometimes you're the most difficult enigma to unravel...even to yourself but I agree with Florian, it's more important to understand the searching...the journey is what counts more than finding what you think you need (but that can be nice too lol). And don't be afraid of change or making choices big or small. Just make sure to weigh the consequences/benefits first and go forth without second guessing yourself too much.
Oh...that wasn't short. I'll stop. Hugs and kisses to you all <3
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