Carianne Birrell

[cariannebirrell]

Been a while

[cariannebirrell]

Waking up an hour or two after sleeping is becoming a real pain mentally 😞 I just want to feel like myself again

[obshuh-deactivated20250522]

[the-suicide-effect]

[sa-dnesss]

“I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately.”

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[xxxspookyghostyxxx]

I’ll probably get broken up with, soon... But hey, the very thought of getting broken up with makes me sick to my stomach, so maybe I won't have an appetite enough to eat anything. So while I'll probably get dumped, at least I'll finally lose weight and be hot. Gotta look at the positives... Right?

[bookofdani]

I am so terrified of being happy. Sometimes it just seems easier to self destruct than face the reality of always having to fear losing that happiness.

[nachtroach]

Fat people can't date.

I'm too fat to be dating and too ugly to be seen in public I am unlovable and need to be hidden from the world

I shouldn't exist.

[c0ffinbunnii]

[just-sad-vibes]

im sorry for turning into a monster when i promised i wouldn’t

[cariannebirrell]

Hmm. Episode again and it's got me thinking and wondering if I wasn't subjected to sexual abuse at 8 and 15 or childhood abuse in general if I would be different to how I am now. Maybe I wouldn't be a shit friend and girlfriend and mother and maybe I wouldn't think everyone's abandoning me 🙂

[chronicallylav3nd3r]

you deserved a safe and good childhood

you didn’t deserve what you got instead

[cariannebirrell]

ED is trying to crawl back out.. how fun

[cariannebirrell]

This heat has left me emotionally drained. I'm tired of feeling like shit because I can't do simple things like sleep. Can't take much more 😭

[cariannebirrell]

Woke up full of anxiety and sadness,can't get rid of it and all I want to do is cry, throw up and sleep

[cariannebirrell]

1. My cat destroys my diamond painting so the whole things in the bin

2. Ants all over my livingroom

3. My child called me fat

I'm having a great day!

[peepline]

“Why do I feel like Im hard to love”