But what if I can?

𝐽𝑜𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑒𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑔𝑜𝑎𝑙𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟.

[carl0pacad3m1cs]

Day 1/90

[carl0pacad3m1cs]

So it's been a really complicated academic year and I didn't post anything. I scored a 8.3/10 in the last year, and I NEED to be at least in that level if not more this year, but I feel like I'm not making it. It's Okay I have 2 months left until I start working in a neurobiological study (just practices) for 3 months. I have to lock in but I've been saying that since the beginning of this grade. But I have to really lock in.

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[carl0pacad3m1cs]

I have to update you guys! On my first exam I got an 8.4/10. I honestly expected more, but I have to stay positive, this is the first exam of the year so I'm going up from here.

Anyways I had another exam of the same subject and this time I got a 9.6/10. I'm very happy with this result but I have to be concentrated and stay persistent.

I am happy with my marks and I have to believe it, that this was the result of my efforts. And it's deserved.

[sourdough-seal]

bingewatching will never come close to bingereading. there is nothing like blocking out the entire Earth for ten hours to read a book in one sitting no food no water no shower no bra and emerging at the end with no idea what time it is or where you are, a dried-up prune that's sensitive to light and loud noises because you've been in your room in the dark reading by the glow of a single LED. it's like coming back after a three-month vacation in another dimension and now you have to go downstairs and make dinner. absolutely transcendental

[carl0pacad3m1cs]

Tomorrow I have my first exam, which is about cytogenetics and molecular biology. I'm a bit nervous because it's the first and I don't know how it's going to be, but I know I study and I have to believe in myself.

[carl0pacad3m1cs]

I've been 4 hours today in the balcony at night doing pathophysiology summaries and outlines, that gave me the opportunity of reviewing the subject so I'm very happy that I've done it :)

And it was raining!! :))

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I know medicine is hard, and that scares me because I don't know if I'm good enough to go through that. But it is my dream and it has been on my mind all this time for some reason. In my country it is sooooo hard to get into some med school so I have not entered. I'm expecting to be accepted in some studies that are like a bridge to access medicine. But the problem is that in there I have to be a ten (A), and I have never been able to be a ten (A), so I'm very scared that I will not be able to do this. But I have to try you know?

[carl0pacad3m1cs]

My name is Carla, most people call me Cece, I'm from Spain so I may not have perfect English. Honestly this account is for me, to improve my English, have an excuse to be more productive and get motivation.

So at this moment I'm on vacation so I don't have very productive stuff to do. I will post some pictures to keep my enthusiasm alive and talk about the things that are on my mind.

[carl0p]

This have touched my heart. I could never be more proud to be Latina and Hispanic, this movie has made me cry more than ever, I saw it weeks ago and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I haven't stopped watching documentaries and interviews. I have been devastated by the story and the survivors and the focus that Bayona has placed on the victims, all the people who stayed there and could not see their families again. The Coco cards, Liliana and the void she left in her children, Marcelo the team captain, Numa and his need to help in any way he could... All of those people are now immortalized thanks to Bayona and the entire team involved that has made all of this posible. I couldn't be more grateful that this work of art exists.

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Esta película ha llegado a mí corazón. Nunca podría estar más orgullosa de ser latina e hispana, esta película me ha hecho llorar más que nunca, la vi hace semanas y no he podido dejar de pensar en ella. Ni he parado de ver documentales y entrevistas. Me ha dejado devastada la historia y los supervivientes y el enfoque que Bayona ha puesto en las victimas, todas las personas que se quedaron allí y no pudieron volver a ver a sus familias. Las cartas de coco, Liliana y el vacío que dejó en sus hijos, Marcelo el capitán del equipo, Numa y su necesidad de ayudar en todo lo que pudo... Todas esas personas ahora están inmortalizadas gracias a Bayona y a todo el equipo involucrado que ha hecho que todo eso haya sido posible. No puedo estar más agradecida de que está obra de arte exista.