The One and Only Vampire I Would (not) Faint On
Chrome x F! Commandant.
Synopsis: How are you going to explain to Chromeโ who seems to really like his vampire coatingโ while you are excited for him, that you fear vampires? Can you make an exception for this one vampire to not allow yourself to lose your mind (and consciousness)? Oh, how you wish it would be that easy.
a.n.: Being someone that was wounded by a certain vampire anime โromanceโ (you know what you are), I must say vampires alert my fight-or-flight LOL. Mainly because of that Nosferatu became my least favorite coating of his, but I still love its design, really (the splash arts on his memories certainlyโฆ *nom*. Just thinking about it flutters my heart, again). Legit, itโs now on rerun and I am contemplating whether I should just buy it for his handsome portrait dkadlskadald ;;; Also, this could be just a piece of my oc/chrome stuff but i just want to make it as skk in general.
Art below was commissioned from this artist! @/maltmochie (go check them out!)
Lastly, Happy Halloween and hopefully you have fun reading this!
โSayโฆ do you guys really have no other option for the coating options other than vampire?โ
The rustling noise of the paper suddenly stops, replaced by the sound of a cup being lifted, a chugging noise, then a small โtack!โ sound produced by the collusion of the cupโs bottom and a certain researcherโs table. A tired gaze stares into the person that just threw the question. โA-kind-of silly questionโ, according to him.
โI beg your pardon?โ Asimov says while his hands continue the previous halted move, arranging the stacks of paper that are almost never absent decorate his table. A drawing of a vampire-themed coating, or its proper name โNosferatuโ,ย is settled between them, but soon gets picked up by you, who is currently sitting right beside him. Your eyes scan the drawing for the ninth time, flying your attention from the drawing board after checking it briefly back to a certain blonde construct who is busy on the other side of the lab, with Ayla checking every inch of his new coating to see if thereโs a dent or any places that are still lacking or needing further adjustment. Once again, your eyes land on the drawing board, re-reading the name and the description of the coating.
Nosferatu.ย Theme: Paradise Lost. Status: Completed, Accepted by the User: Chrome. Description: Drink a glass of redness in the dark night in admiration of all beings. No longer accepted by the light, he will still protect you quietly in the dark.
As much as those description lines send your stomach on somersault due to how romantic it sounds, it is still a weaker feeling compared to what you feel right now. You then look back at Asimov, almost forgetting to answer his previous question if not for the small cough he just let out to grab your attention back to him.
โHmm, wellโฆ Halloween has waaay more varieties of monsters, no? Uhh, for exampleโฆโ You wave your index finger, thinking hard, trying to come up with a โbetterโ idea, per se. โDemon lord, witches, mages, puppets, grim-reapers, and so on.โ
โAnd a vampire can still be categorized as a creature that is fitting for a spooky event, no?โ, he argues back. You internally curse, despite expecting this kind of answer from him. โHis point is absolutely valid, of course, butโฆโ
โWell, it is. But isnโt it tooโฆ cliche and predictable?โ a pause, โCorny?โ, another pause, โYeah. Itโs totally repetitive and boring!โ, you finally exclaimed as you nervously tap the drawing board. For the next whole 15 seconds, both of you suddenly enter what seemingly to be a staring contest, one is waiting for the other partyโs response, while the latter is staring in disbelief at how dumb you sound right now. He then breaks the silent first.ย
"You seem to be bothered by that. Don't tell meโฆโ He leans closer, bringing his face right in front of you as he mutters those words in whispering and low tone, keeping his sharp gaze to you. You instinctively gulp, having a slight suspicion that he already has everything figured out.
โ... you are scared of it?"
Like a deer caught in the headlight, you just freeze there, eyes widened, before trying to deny the manโs conclusion as fast as possible to refute his (very true) claim.
"No! No way! What makes you think of that? I โ I meanโฆ well, I AM kind of scared, isn't that the whole purpose of a spooky creature? To spook people? Does it notย count as a success as it invests fear in meโ I mean people?!"
"...sure."
"..."
"..."
"So you are scared."
"...yeah."
"But it's Chrome who will be wearing that coating." That sentence alone is enough to spread red color on your cheeks. He knows about your feelings of the blonde construct (a bit too much as you keep babbling about Chrome on him). So much for being one of the close friends of yours since the day you worked with him, or just because he is a great vessel for pouring your heartโs content due to his tight-sealed lips when it comes to personal matters.ย
"Does that make any difference?" You exhale, slightly pinching the bridge of your nose. Those vampire series โromanceโ that you watched during your teenage days slowly emerge back in your mind, sending shudders and unpleasant memories. It's unbearable to even watch 30 seconds of the clip of it nowadays. Whoever made that abusive-romance vampire series where they keep sucking the poor girlโs blood and declare that as love, is a totally lunaticโ or a masochistic author, to be more precise. Or rather, it's just the fact that itโs just not your cup of tea, but it does become your personal hell nowadays. Everytime you try to overcome it, you feel like you want to sink to the nearest pond to cleanse your soul. You tried many times, only to end up with nightmares later. Does this man really think your crush could make you suddenly forget the fear? Deep down, you really hope so.ย
"No, it unfortunately does not make any difference to me. It just reminds me of some stories I read because my friend suggested that it ended up giving me nightmares for like... weeks..." You summarize your reasoning to Asimov, who now has leaned back to his chair with crossed legs.
Asimov just hums, seems unbothered by your distraught. After all, the coating has already reached its complete stage, there's no way an opinion from one person could change the initial plan anyway. The user himself had no objection, since he and his teammates seemed to have arranged plans for their own teamโs theme for this yearโs halloween.
You glance once again at the drawing board that displays the 3D model of "Nosferatu" coating, rotating it around to give it more look. "Though, it does look great, artistically. I just feel.. too disturbed by it. Look at those red eyesโฆ and pointyโฆ uh, wings? And nice cravats, tooโฆ stillโฆโ, feeling more and more uncomfortable, you lightly shake your head, then slightly move closer so what you are about to say only reaches Asimovโs ears.
โBut, Anyway, please don't tell this to Chrome! He already worked hard with WGAA to come up with this coating, he doesnโt have to worry about my feelings, since I know he is pretty self-aware about this kind of stuff, even with his normal frame. I will state this: this is my dumb secret that I will take into my gravโ"
"Commandant?"
A familiar voice from behind almost made your heart jump outside your body as you yelped in surprise and nearly spilled Asimov's coffee had it not been held down by a firm mug-cast (thank heavens, you don't want to spend more money on fixing his computers stuff). You turn back, trying to gather your scattered mind after your freak out to regain your composure before embarrassing yourself further in front of Chrome. Well, you tried.
"CHโCHroโChrome?! Wahโ uh, Hello! Uh, do you need something?"ย
Ah, shit. The voice you just let out really betrays your effort to appear undisturbed right now.
Standing before you is Chrome, which unfortunately for your poor soul, is currently still using the Nosferatu coating you were discussing with Asimov. Red eyes stare into you in surprise due to your previous freak out, a hint of worry is visible on his face. But to your certain fear, that expression is not registered in your head, busy keeping yourself together, to not make the person you adore find out about your silly discomfort. Your hand unconsciously reaching for something on the table, trying to find something to hold your dear life for, something that might become a distraction that offers small comfort to your shaking hand.
โSorry, did I disturb something?โ
โA-Ah! No, not at all! Donโt worry, Asimov just told me a scary story that made me so engrossed that I โฆ didnโt realize you were behind me.โย
โI see.โ
Seems like he is buying it. Fearing the situation plummet down into awkward silence, you decide to shoot a question. You let out a small cough to compose your voice before continuing, โDo you need something from me, Chrome?โ
โAh, right. Yes, I do need to ask something from you, Commandant. Ayla says this coating is 100% done, but I was wondering if you have any thoughts on it?โ, he answers, his right hand plays with the cravat part of this coating, appearing to be a bit flustered after shooting that question at you. His currently red eyes glance at you, Asimov, Ayla, then back at you.ย
โUh, my thoughts? Umโฆ I donโt think I understand what you meanโฆโ
โIs this coating lacking something? Your advice always offers new insight, and I think it is just right to ask you about it right now before the finalization.โ
Looks like the habit of discussing various things with him backfired at you for this case. โUhโฆ wellโฆโ You think hard, gripping something hard on your left-hand, which is the drawing board you just grabbed on. It helps you to tear your gaze from Chrome to look at the drawing, finally for the tenth time. The gears in your head are spinning fast, hoping something can come out as an idea to throw at Chrome so it can send him away from you. But nothing came up. So you resort to the easiest way, just answer something that screams 'OK'.
โI donโt think thereโs anything lacking from this design, Chrome. I think itโs perfect!! Right, Ayla?โ you exclaim as you pull the girl behind him into the conversation. As an artist, Ayla is the most knowledgeable one to convince someone about art, so you hope Ayla can indirectly cooperate with your compliment.
The girlโs eyes light up, very happy to hear your statement. โI know right, Commandant~! See, Chrome, there is nothing to worry, even the commandant thinks itโs already perfect~! Did my words not convince you enough that you need to confirm it to the Commandant? Thatโs a clientโs dissatisfaction in my dictionary!โ Ayla teases, but you know she means well. Chrome just nervously laughs as he shakes his head. โPlease donโt take it that way, Ms. Ayla. I just have the habit of discussing a lot of stuff with Commandant, so this is normal. I am sorry if it offends you,โ he replies. That earns a laugh from Ayla, telling him she is joking and doesnโt mind it.
โThen thatโs great! We can now finalize the coating to the WGAA then! Letโs go there, Chrome!โ pulling his shoulder eagerly, she tries to push Chrome to the door, urging him to follow her back to the WGAA department, looks like Ayla herself wants to release herself from another commission. The pushed man complies, but before walking through the door, he looks back at you. โCommandant, do you want to come with us?โย
You shake your head. โNo need, I still have something to discuss with Asimov right here.โ Well, itโs half truth. โSorry Chrome, I would love to, but right now I feel like I am about to pass out due to fear.โย
As the labโs door closes, a loud sigh fills the room. Finally, once again there are only the two of you in the lab. You let yourself collapse at the chair, the feeling of breathlessness throughout the previous conversation seems to take the toll out of you. This is really bad. How are you goingย to face him on the festival day when right now you are already struggling to keep yourself steady? You have heard this coating is related to the Strike Hawkโs plan for a stage play revolving around the theme called โParadise Lostโ, and Kamui mentioned briefly a few days ago that, โit will make you feel like you are really there to witness the horror of these creatures!โ with a confident voice. Thatโs the last thing you want to feel. Only one idea that appears in your head to avoid such a situation and cause the most minimal damage to your pride and Chromeโs feelings.
โ... I think Iโll find a way to make myself sick on that day.โ
Scoffing, Asimov looks back at you, โYou are crazy.โ
โItโs better than hurting his feelings by avoiding to stare or even look at him. And itโll be twice the nightmare if I see his disappointed face finding out that I am struggling to like his new coating. No way Iโll stain his memory with that. No way! No way!!!โ
โOkay, I get it. Suit yourself.โ He sounds like he just wants to escape your endless worry right now, and you canโt blame him.
Resolute with your decision, you feel a bit better, and suddenly aware that it seems you already bother Asimov enough. Getting ready to leave to go back to your dorm, you stand a while on the door, pressing the buttons, before looking back once more.
โYou donโt happen to have a poison to make up a sick condition only for a day?โ
โGet the hell out of my office.โ
Wellโฆ isnโt it just great?
Turns out, you canโt get sick at all, or rather, you canโt find the window of opportunity to do so. Not without getting an angry-slash-disappointment gaze from Liv instantly making you feeling extremely guilty about it as you put back the ice cream you sneaked earlier back to the freezer (her wrath when it comes to your health is something you wish to avoid, just like your current predicament with Chromeโs coating). Because of that, you canโt consume too much ice cream or iced drinks to at least land you into a โgetting sore-throatโ situation.ย
Another attempt was you begged Lucia to cook for you once, to present you with a delicacy that you know very well can send you to the ER of Star of Life, but her frame needs a lot of monitoring lately, which makes no time for her to do such things. Lee even helped you a lot with paperworks, making no rooms for you to stay up late. Hiding a huge stash of documents from him in your room was a futile attempt, in which you were getting scolded instead as he mistaken that action as your bad habit of being a procrastinator at day to work alone as a night-owl.
So here you are now, sitting in the theater room that you once used for the Romeo and Juliet stage play a few years ago. The place is crowded with some of the other squads, anticipating the upcoming play that is presented by Strike Hawk themselves. You sit among the audiences, your team, Cerberus, Dark Aries, and other task forces, even the Engineering and Purifying Force are invited, and to be honest, itโs such a rare sight to see all of them in this kind of mood, the always present grim and tired look evaporated from everyoneโs face, putting aside the the endless war with Punishing Virus on Earth that never stops to keep everyone on guard.
โI heard Kamui planned this play, Commandant.โ Lucia that sits on your left speaks as she reads the pamphlet sheโs currently holding that contains the overview about the stage play.
โโPlannedโ is a generous word for him, Lucia. I am certain he was spewing ideas like bullets and Chrome is the one that has to gather it one by one to arrange it into a more decent plot.โ Lee replies, which earns a chuckle from the three other members of Gray Raven. Remembering their constantly-bickering dynamics, it is not a surprise for Lee to have that kind of idea.
You take a look at the pamphlet that you have been holding since entering the theater, reading its synopsis for one more time.
โParadise Lostโ, where it accepts creatures that are banished from light, engulfed in the eternal darkness not to suffer, but to celebrate a rebirth in an endless banquet.
Below the description is the list of the cast's name, which consists of all members of Strike Hawk. Except for Chrome, you are still in the dark about the roles of his other teammates. Continuing downward, thereโs like a bunch of star-shaped designs that usually can be found on advertisements (this design choice is very Kamui, you think).ย
โInteractive! Immersive Play! Comedy! Scary! Romance!โ
Looks like you missed that part of the pamphlet before until just now. โInteractive and Immersive?โ Liv comments as she pays attention to the same part of the pamphlet with you, โDoes that mean they will ask audiences to play along with them?โย
โLike those magic shows when they invite the audience to join them on stage, probably?โ You reply, as she then nods and lets out a small hum. โI guess thatโs the possibility, Commandant. Looks like itโll be fun!โ
Fun, huh? For some reason, you have a bad feeling about it. The possibility of something pops in your head but quickly dismissed as the lights of the room turn off, alerting you and all of the audiences that the play is about to start.ย
โIโll just cast aside and try to enjoy the show, I guessโฆโย
Silence fills the room for a moment, before dimmed light starts to brighten up, followed by an ominous toll of bells and melodies of musicโ consisting of organ and violin from what your ears can pick upโ fills the air. Briefly, you feel like you have stepped into a world engulfed by darkness, standing in front of a mansionโ a building that could be a magnum opus of an architect but left abandoned and claimed by underworld creatures that stumbled across it, turning it into their abode.
The scene continues to play out, painting the atmosphere and places to create what you call worldbuilding, getting to each scene with a tidy pacing, and itโs now starting to introduce the mansion โresidentsโ. Wanshi, the first one to get the spotlight, is currently laying on a coffin, and seems to take the role of the classic undead creature from Chinese tales with the yellow charms attached on his forehead. For a heavy sleeper like him, this role sort of fits him perfectly (or he suggested it for an easier role that doesnโt involve him moving a lot).ย
The next spotlight lights up at the center of the stage, drawing all of the audience's attention to Camu that is sitting on a prop that looks like a throne made of swords and skulls, wearing an outfit in which you can describe as the role of someone with high ranking, possibly a ruler of a realm. He sits with crossed legs, showing his authoritativeness. Kamui props himself right next to him, grinning like his usual self, wearing an outfit that is sculpted to look like a skeleton, with a mask sitting on his headโ you are still unsure what to call his role.
And finally of course, the person you currently want to see the most and least at the same time, standing at the highest point of the stage, a massive ring-shaped stained glass window emits a bright light, making his figure very imposing. You canโt miss the sharp red eyes of him, for a moment it feels like those very eyes land on you, giving you goosebumps all over your skin. Your breath hitched for a moment.
โCommandant, are you feeling okay?โ A whisper from Lucia distracts you, as she squeezes your lower arm with her hand lightly, a soothing gesture from her. Crap, did you display signs of stress just now by being fidgety or something else? Not wanting to distract any audience with your voice to reply to Lucia's question, you just nod to assure her you are fine, well, for now. Lucia seems to buy your answer as she nods back and returns her focus back to the stage, as you do the same.
The whole play continues, and the plot is actually pretty simple. It displays scenes on how each resident of the mansion interacts with each other, from the sleepy-as-ever the undead Wanshi, that no matter how many times Kamui nags him, still able to find the opportunity and places to rest. One scene also gives Camu the time to shine, he exclaims the words of darkness and victory as he stands proud at the rooftop of the mansion, screams of praise from the underworld creatures celebrating his triumph. Chrome is pretty isolated. When itโs his time to receive the spotlight, he stands near a window, holding a glass thatโs filled with dark-red liquid. Blood or a wine, you can leave that to your imagination. The glass then being brought to his lips, slowly sips on it as he takes his sweet time to taste the beverage.ย
Thereโs a slight smirk on his now red-stained lips.
The same color can be spotted on your face if the lights in the room are not dimmed enough to conceal it. Calm down, Calm down.
As time goes, you begin to grasp the story as well. After the many scenes of them claiming their possession and ruling many creatures, all of them want to hold a banquet in order to celebrate their victory on the night where total lunar eclipse happens, the so-called โBlood moonโ night, where their whole plan to flood the land with darkness and reaches their final stage of ruling the entire land. A curse spell will be casted, pulling every living being thatโs left to join them on the banquet, bewitching them to enter a new world, leaving the earthly concerns that have been shackling them.ย
The stage changes, now being set up to show a grand banquet hall, red roses adorning every corner of the stage, with chandeliers hanging and reflecting the โmoonโ light, which when combined with the light of purple flames from the lanterns on the wall, setting the banquet in gloomy red-and-purple atmosphere, yet still grandiose. How can something so scary appear so aesthetically appealing? At the center, Kamui finally exclaims as he extends his hands to the direction of the audience.
โShall we start to welcome our esteemed guest as our dance partner?โ
โฆDance Partner?ย
You look around the stage, scanning your eyes expecting to see some side characters emerge from the curtains or between audiences, where they might pretend to be one before their time to perform arrives.ย
Nothing.ย
Does this meanโฆ? No wonder you feel like something is missing as it finally clicks. You totally forgot the so-called "immersion play" the pamphlet mentioned. So the โimmersiveโ means they want the audience to participate in a dance for their banquet scene? Your eyes wander around, seeing how Wanshi, Kamui, and Camu already picked their partners from different spots, some cheers and squeals can be heard from the crowds that surround them.ย
And how is Chrome walking in your direction, his steps as perfect as his usual self, but his face is showing a confident smirk, which for a moment makes you think itโs very unfitting to him? If someone puts a mic close to your chest, it will surely pick up the loud thumping itโs making right now.
Like the Romeo and Juliet play both of you enacted back then, he reaches his hand to your right hand, bringing it close to his fanged-lips (for a moment you really thought youโll lose your hand right then and there), kissing it so lightly. The difference is, this time the hand kiss leaves a chilling sensation at the back of your hand. Is it the Nosferatu frameโs design thatโs grasping the characteristics of a vampire, whose body lacks warmth, or is it your skin that is currently getting cold from the nervousness and fear?
You feel another tug on your right hand that he has been holding, pulling you as it is prompting you to stand on your feet, and your currently numb body does exactly that, robotically following his lead. He guides you to walk carefully on the stairs to the center of the stage, approaching one of the spotlights with a chandelier decorating the ceiling.
The scenery around you, for a moment, reminds you of how you have been practicing and participating in many dances with Chrome all this time. At the start, it was just because it was required in order to attend some ceremonies, banquets, or whatever higher-ups social parties in which both of you were invited. It started solely for that reason, but deep down, at least for you, this is merely an excuse to be closer and spend any free time you have to fill your days with him. All those missions and practices tighten bonds between you, just like this position where he carefully wraps his other hand to your waist to lock you in place, waiting for his next move.
Chrome clearly plans this with how he adjusts everythingโ the pose, the beat of the music, the movementโ to make sure you feel familiar despite the sudden situation heโs putting you through right now. The counts of the dance-steps you both have grown familiar with, the sways he leads your hand and body, the warmth that grows as you come chest-to-chest with him. For some minutes, you let your mind wander off to just think of this as one of those banquet dances.
Illuminated by the spotlight, both of you just sways around, light steps decorating the floor, the world blur into colors like butterflies surrounding two lovers in a sacred ritual.ย ย
It goes for a while until the music fades out, slowing down everything you just experience and finally it comes to a halt. Now you both just stand there, still under the spotlight, though now you are completely unsure what to do. A sudden sensation of cold lands on your neck, making you flinch a bit. You cast your gaze to your side, seeing how Chromeโs hand is now touching the side part of your neck, then look up to find Chrome slightly bringing his head down, catching his eye thatโs still glinting briefly, before closing the gap between you and leaning himself close to your ear. At first, you hear a rushed whisper of โSorry, give me a momentโ, before registering whatโs happening.
The strands of his hair tickle your face as he buries himself into your shoulder. His warm breath fans your neck, but the same cold sensation from his fingers remains unmoved. A small smooch noise could be heard clearly due to his mic, and it finally hits you. He kisses your โneckโ through his own hand, where his lips come in contact with his own fingers thatโs shielding your neck, and from the audience's perspective, it looks like he actually kisses your neck. Like a vampire trying to get the taste of its prey. That action instantly makes you feel like you are thrown into an icy pool and a sensation of cold water a.k.a cold sweat starts to seep into your palm.
The theater erupts into a sea of squeals from the audiences. Some girls are having a good time watching this tale unfolding right now.
It remains for some time before he pulls back, now filling your view with only his face that appears imposing with the lights of the stage framing his features. The cold fingers that touched your neck are now moving to touch your chin, twisting your headย to face the owner.ย
โA fine lady strandedโ or rather, walked willingly with me into my abode, danced with me without questioning anything until now? Amusing.โ He recites, displaying a face of amusement followed by a low chuckle.
His hand traces your chin, exploring your jawline before landing back to the neck, brushing it tenderly, โSkin so delicate, and it makes me want to claim you as mine once I mark you. Though, from the time we spent until now, you donโt mind that, do you?โ He says, now smirking as he is entertained with the idea of it. โTell me with your sweet voice, fine lady, do you want to spend an eternity with me in this endless-banquet? I promise an eternity full of euphoria, more than the seventh heaven could offer you.โ
โฆ
โฆWow.
Since when can Chrome make such a face and say such playful words?!
His lines render you silent for a full five seconds, then your lips let outย high-pitched sputters with incomprehensible words. The whole event brings bewilderment looks and excited cheers from most of the audience, Gray Raven included (you swear from the corner of your eyes your team would react as if you are about to get kidnapped). People inside the theater wonโt expect the usually composed commandant to be stupefied, remaining frozen on spot over a cheesy-flirting. Itโs unsure whether you are freezing from the fear or from the lovestruckโ no kidding, itโs both.
As you are about to reply (to be honest, you just canโt think of anything else other than using โhuh?โ to at least make the scene continue to flow), Chrome cuts you up, aware of your bewilderment, with something he had planned as impromptu in case the โdance partnerโ is not responding. He gets closer even more, breath fanning your left cheek.
โShould I give you a foretaste of it, to let you know how intoxicating it is?โ
He opens his mouth, showing a full view of fangs with a sadistic look. Red eyes shine brighter as it stares at you like a feast. A sight that will swoon most people who are familiar with this concept of story, but unfortunately, you are not among them. It sways your stomach, dropping it to the ground like being dragged down by a roller coaster instead.
Your feet turn cold as the world suddenly twists around you, dark spots fill every corner of your eyes. The last strength of your feet thatโs been supporting you vanishes as you proceed to smooch the cold stage floor with your body.
The last thing you heard was a bunch of screams of your name and the feeling of a pair of cold hands cradling your figure before completely drowning in darkness.
The warm feeling of a blanket and fluffy pillow envelopes you, giving you a sense of comfort. You struggle to open your eyes, your head feels so light whilst you try to collect your consciousness. The white ceiling and familiar decorated walls surrounding you are the signs that indicate you are currently back in your room. Did you feel so exhausted that you straightly fell asleep after the stage play? But you didnโt remember how it ends or you or when you and the others leave the theaterโ
Oh.
You fainted. On stage.
Consciousness fully returns to you, as you come to a realization that you really did mess up there. The sense of panic quickly fills your heart and urges your body to leave the bed and rush back to the theater. So you just do so, sitting up and mentally preparing yourself to apologize to everyone, especially him. Only for a hand to hold you firmly on your wrist preventing you from moving any further. You look to your left to the individual that apparently has been in the room, sitting quietly beside your bed this whole time.
โChrome?โ
Sitting there is the blonde-construct, back at his usual frame. His hair is strangely down, not the usual slicked-up hair you are so used to seeing these days. The realization dawns on you shortly though, as he once self-consciously asked if leaving his hair like that will make him appears weary (he was afraid you misunderstood it as he is too reluctant to see you that night, which you waved off and lightly joked how you would like to see it more often if itโs possible).
This time you can conclude that he is really in a very down mood.
For a moment, both of you just stare at each other, too lost in the thought of how to begin the conversation. In the end, Chrome is the one that takes initiative.
โYou fainted, Commandant.โ He jumps straight to the point.
โThat I didโฆโ is all you can say.ย
โI have been informed about your situation from Asimov.โ Oh, the beans have been spilled. Guess you donโt have to explain it anymore? Still, you feel guiltyโ extremely guiltyโ about this. Avoiding his eyes, you cast your attention to the blanket, fiddling with your right hand as the left one being held by the man beside you. Noticing your silence and your unwillingness to look at him, he grows anxious as well.ย
โCommandant, please look at meโฆโ
โ...โ
โIs this coatingโฆ really that bad? Do you really dislike it that much?โย
โNO!โ Your voice finds a sudden strength to deny his absurd claim. Your hand tries to grip his wrist, keeping him to stay before drifting himself into negative thoughts any further.
Godness, thatโs a very harsh assumption. Did Asimov just tell him you are disliking his frame, leaving no further explanation? Oh.ย
He likely wants you to explain it to Chrome by yourself, giving you the opportunity to talk about it, which in some ways you are glad to have, though right now itโs too straight to the point to your liking after the whole chaos you just made. You are unsure whether to โaccidentallyโ spill his favorite coffee at the nearest sink for the badly provided information or give him a bag of expensive coffee as a thank-you gift for forcefully pulling you and Chrome in this conversation.ย
โNo, please trust me Chrome, itโs gorgeous, magnificent, perfect!! Itโs justโฆItโs just on meโฆโ
Pulling your legs to your chest, you try to hide yourself, at least your face, obscuring your eyes as you feel you are about to embarrass yourself any further in front of him. His hands clasp your left hand, a small gesture that turns into a silent reassuring for you to keep going.
โI canโt help but to feel my body shaking to the core and feeling myself shutting off due to my fear ofโฆ you knowโฆโ Finally, a confession escapes your lips. Who would have thought the first confession you tell him would be this? But you really just want to tell him the truth, your reason, and your feelings, as it is what you must do for him. โBut I am fighting it. I donโt want my selfish fear to affect you.โย
โYou have given me a lot all these years, I should not ask too much.โ
Your feet are surely shaking so much, an icy feeling spreads despite the warm blanket still wraps around them. You donโt want him to feel guilty and feel the necessity to act based on your opinion. Itโs stupid, really. You are aware of his personality, one of them being the amazing leader that always comes with the most optimal answer, and itโs something you have always respected and learned a lot from him as there are times where you feel you are not good enough to be one for Gray Raven.
You thought it was just a one-sided feeling of admiration to him, but apparently, you became aware of his opinion towards you as well. The ear-studs that he once felt insecure about and asked if it looked out of place, are now being kept on his final Glory frame adjustment. Thatโs the point where you start to feel a bit self-conscious when it comes to discussing stuff with him. Including this whole problem.
Feeling suffocated enough after hiding your face, you slightly turn your face to your left, eyes peeking at his face but quickly turn to the bed sheet or floor, whatever you can land your gaze on right now. โWhen you performed that role so well on the stage, just like the pamphlet said, it is so entrancing thatโฆ for a moment I felt like I was actually about to be taken away by an actual vampireโฆโ
Only your voice fills your room right now as Chrome listens to your explanation, his hands thatโs still holding yours, softly tracing the back of your hand with his thumbs, successfully soothing your racing heart. One could say itโs also a way for Chrome to calm himself as well, given hearing your entire rambling just now increased his worries about you, yet at the same time, relieving as itโs not because his Nosferatu coating looks hideous that you hate it.
But truthfully, Chrome could craft any scenarios from A to N when he reviewed the scripts for the past few weeks, from anticipating random impromptu from Kamui to guiding dialogues when the other party confused on what to say, but none of them prepared in case you out of nowhere passed out on stage.
A small cough grabs your attention, pulling your unfocused eyes now at Chrome. โI am glad to hear your explanation, Commandant. I assure you donโt have to feel guilty about it as well. But pleaseโฆโ His grip on your hand tightens a bit, before continuing.
โDonโt hide such things from me in the future. I understand you think it as a burden, but I assure you itโs not. We have been solving harder obstacles, this is not something impossible.โ
He is right. War rages over, yet both of you still pave the same path, reaching for the glorious day that one day must come.
Sheepishly, you chuckle and finally let out the breath youโve been holding. โThank you Chrome, and I know you said I donโt have to feel guilty, but I still want to say Iโm sorry.โ
โAhโฆ Apology accepted. You can relax now, Commandant.โ
Finally, it feels like a huge weight left your heart, now the sense of relief washes over you. You straighten your feet, now turning yourself to face him as you sit on the edge of your bed. Now the tension is over, you just want to dwell on idle chit-chat with him. So, you bring up todayโs performance, before the whole fainting stuff, of course.ย
โLike I said earlier, your performance, Wanshi, Kamui, and Camu were so impressive. With big missions and little free time you guys had, there were barely any mistakes during the play. It was as if Strike Hawk was an actual theater kids group. And costumes too, especially yours, Chrome.โ
โReally? Doesnโt my โnice costumeโ points be reduced from your perspective?โ He teases.ย
โI mean, kind of. But, objectively, it surely is well-crafted. Every gaze seems like they are all over the heels for you!โ You beam, the smile on your face as you cheerful state is back mirrored on Chromeโs face for a moment before it turns into a slight sad smile. Did you say something wrong? Before your mind once again flies everywhere, his voice, slightly whispering, reaches your ears.
โBut itโs meaningless if itโs not from you.โ
His rebuttal catches you out of your guard, like getting splashed with cold water.ย
โI want you to see me in that light as well. I will feel content even if it is just from you.โ
โAhโฆ Iโฆ I see.โ You stammer as blush starts to decorate your face. Deep down, you feel like you know what he implies with those words, and because of that, you come with a new objective, itโs a way to make it up after all.ย โThen, letโs work it out together, Chrome. Help me go through this?โ Itโs your turn now to wrap your palm on his, though you need not to plead, as you are certain the person in front of you will give a certain answer.
โThat we will.โ
Reassuring smiles decorates both of your faces.
โBut, alsoโฆ Chrome?โ
Now itโs his turn to wonder what you are about to say.
โAbout those lines you said to me, I havenโt responded, have I?โ
โHmm?โ
Suddenly, you wrap your hand on his neck, hugging him as you sink your head on his shoulder.
โWherever you take me, that's where I'll follow you. If it's an eternal banquet where you and I will have a happy ending, I will succumb to darkness just to be with you.โ
The hands that wrap around your waist is all you need to know that he understands. Shortly, a small peck from his lips lands on your neck, a small gesture mimicking a vampire marking its preyโ or rather, his lover.
โThen so be it.โ
โI was wondering, are there any reasons for you to pick me out of all the audience?โ
After exiting your room, then settling at the kitchen bar to enjoy a cup of iced-water, Chrome explains the concept of his role.
โKamui said you sometimes fangirl over villains in the video game doing โevil stuffโ, soโฆ I thought by doing something that related to that, one of them I read from a Golden Age novel about how evil vampires catch their prey, you would react the same. He said you will surely love it.โย
That just makes you rack your mind a bit, trying to remember the time which this information took place. Now it makes a lot of sense.
โI guess he mistook me fangirling over an evil-prefect that wants to rule the world in one of those visual novels we played and generalized it as I like everything that screams โvillainโ. Canโt blame him, though.โ Shaking your head, you think you have to tone down your fangirling in the future, especially in front of Kamui, so he wonโt take things too far in the future.ย
You still have one more question though. The heaviest question.
โDid I destroy the entire play after I fainted?โ
Chrome knows beforehand you will ask about this, quickly answer you to cast away your worry. โIt was in fact almost becoming disastrous, but I ended up just doing anything that came to my mind.โ
โAnd that is?โ
โ... Remember the time where I carried you escaping Hetero-Hive Mother?โ
โYeah? Byโ Ohhhโฆโย
You can picture it somehow, very clearly. You just hope next time you are conscious to fully tuck that memory inside your head.
