hold me, just for tonight

am i in love with you? ✘ or am i in love with the feeling? ✘

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oh, absolutely, i get turned on by anything that looks vaguely like an asshole.

shit ivan says. (via svdbcy)

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sensual conversations about theatre with @svdbcy

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ivan: i want someone to love me someone: *loves him* ivan: yikes

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proof i am a grandpa

- hates kids - full of useless information - everything hurts - ready for death

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“s’okay, baby,” he breathed, taking it slow on his boyfriend until he felt he was stretched enough. “alright,” milo pulled his fingers out and rolled the two over. now leaning over the younger boy he kissed him sweetly before pulling away. mi sat up and shoved his boxers down his legs, his rock hard member springing free. “this is what you do to me,” mi smirked and bit down on his lower lip. the brunet grabbed a condom and teared it open with his teeth before rolling it on. “get on your stomach,” milo watched the blond turn over. “that’s a good boy,” the male groaned softly at the sight of his boyfriend’s ass. mi’s rough hand landed on aidan’s left ass cheek with a loud sound echoing through the room. mi took the lube and spread enough yet not too much over his cock. milo spread aid’s asscheeks and placed his tip against the other’s hole, “breathe out when i thrust in,” he advised the inexperienced before slowly pushing inside, letting out a loud string of profanities. fuck did it feel good.

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aidan collapsed onto the floor of his bedroom, unsure of how they ended up fucking there. but they did, and he would never forget it. breathless, he looked to milo with a tired smile. “hey.. you were amazing.. you are amazing” aidan wasn’t usually one to compliment, but he couldn’t help it, with milo having fucked him the way he just did. aidan stood up, grabbed milos hand, and pulled him onto his bed. immediately, he entangled their legs and cuddled against him. “was i bad?” he asked softly, fingers brushing over his chest and tracing tattoos. “like... on a school of one to ten, how bad?”

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hudson thought the boy reminded him of a little bunny rabbit, trembling and gripping tight to him until he relaxed under the soothing touch of his fingertips. he wanted to smooth the hair from beverley’s forehead, but he couldn’t do that while he was carrying the other, so he settled for deciding that he’d do it once he tucked him in. the trip upstairs was no trouble at all, with hudson not even slightly out of breath when he opened his front door. beverley weighed nothing in his arms. “you can have my bed,” he announced, thankful that he’d cleaned up and changed his sheets earlier that day. “i’ll take the couch.”

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what was the most polite way to tell someone you want them to sleep with you? beverley was terrified to do so; bottom lip trembling. he hated sleeping alone, even though he did every night. but he had his cat to keep him company, and now he faced wit a new challenge. a challenge of sleeping in a strangers bed, in an unknown place, all by himself. “y-you don’t have to d-do that” bev spoke, trying his hardest to sound somehwhat convincing. “y-you can s-sleep-” he took a deep breath, trying to stop his stutter that always appeared when he was scared. “you can sleep with me.. i mean n-next to me- i mean, w-we can share”

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character aesthetic:@carnalx‘s aidan talcor

I was the shyest human ever invented, but I had a lion inside me that wouldn’t shut up.

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I'm 9 followers from 400 lol

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finally set down, ivan folded his arms over his chest, sulking and looking up at aiden through his lashes. the only hint of a reaction he gave to the comment (compliment? could kinks even be cute?) was another blush and an indignant lift of his chin, walking ahead of aiden in silence.

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“oh come on!” he dragged out, running to keep up and walking by his side. “i’m just having a bit of fun. you need a drinks’all” aidan noticed his blush and celebrated his silent victory, until they got back to ivans place. “right- whiskey, never have i ever. let’s go” aidan suggested whilst they walked back down to the basement. he dragged the bottle he had been drinking before and shoved it towards the smaller male. “drink.” 

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maybe aiden dropping him head first onto the pavement wouldn’t be a bad idea- it’d end his suffering. he couldn’t help it though; his hands were strong and ivan was sure he didn’t even know his own strength. “oh shut up,” he snapped, beating a tiny fist against his back.

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he faked a gasp and moan, so loud it echoed across the cemetery. aidan just snickered and finally put him down at the side of the road, beside the shopping trolley. “you hoping in again?” he asked. sure, they were acting flirty now, but aidan still felt like it was banter between them. nothing more. aidan snickered at the side of him, leaning down to kiss his forehead. “cute kinks” he whispered, and pulled away like it was nothing.

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it was easy to forget how absolutely ferocious ivan could get, especially given his size. he didn’t think he should be held responsible for the things that came out of his mouth when he was scared. “i’ll spoon your eyes out and fill the holes with cement and-” once again he was cut off, this time with a whine.

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he stopped in his tracks, laughter cut off by a small gasp. aidans smirk only grew. “um... what the fuck was that?” he asked, continuing to walk and shaking his head. “i can feel your boner dickhead” the fact he’d done this to him twice now was starting to make him question what else ivan was into.  

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he looked up at him, eyebrows raised. “what ide-aah fuck!” ivan was clinging onto him once he was hauled over his shoulder, arms wrapped around him and eyes squeezed shut. “christ! don’t you dare fucking drop me, i swear to god i will spoon your fucking eyes out.” he trailed off, knuckles white as he gripped onto his shirt.

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“yeah yeah” he muttered and rolled his eyes. aidan looked at ivans ass, a little smirk settling on his lips. “spoon my eyes out hey? such a big threat from a tiny person” aidan snickered, and slapped his ass, laughing even harder.

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ivan hopped to his feet and hurried after him, reaching for the back of his shirt to keep him from getting too far ahead. “fuck you mean hop? i can’t jump that fuckin’ high.” and even if he could, he doubted he had the arm strength to pull himself up securely.

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aidan chuckled and stopped, looking back over his shoulder at the little one. “well... i’ve got a better idea then” he moved quickly, not allowing ivan so argue as he picked him up fireman style and threw him over his shoulder. “this work for you?” he rhetorically asked and smirked. 

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deciding not to comment on the matter of erections, ivan looked skyward, moving his hands between his knees to keep them warm. “what, are you afraid or something?” he moved his leg to knock his knee against aiden’s. “s’just a graveyard- live a little.”

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aidan scoffed. surely not, he would just rather get back and smoke some more. “i am living- i just came out and kissed a dude. that’s enough living today” he stood and turned on his heel to leave. “hop on my back or i’m leaving without you

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now he was sure they were in the same boat, as he could feel his pants constricting and his cock stiffening. at least, he thought, he had the hoodie he was swimming in to hide it. “we could,” he gave aiden a quick look up and down, biting his lip. “if you want, i mean. i’m okay with whatever.” strangely though, he felt at home in the graveyard, and there was this nagging sensation that if they left, it might as well have been aiden walking back into a closet.

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aidan took a look at him and stiffled a laugh. he was certain that kiss had done something to him too. “well... what use is it sitting in a graveyard with boners when we could be back at yours?” aidan smirked, not even aware if ivan had a boner of not but just wanting to tease him. “i’ll give you a piggy back... if that makes it any better” aidan gave him and encouraging smile and reached to ruffle his hair once more.

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yo shoutout to that anon who keeps hitting up my ask box

letting you know that i literally hate disclosing my information without knowing whose asking

so maybe come message me for real

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he shook his head, catching his own bottom lip between his teeth once he’d pulled away. “no- i mean, everything’s fine.” ivan closed his eyes for a moment, trying to will away the blush on his cheeks. fat lot of good that did him. “you just- my hair, and… pulling it.” he opted to say nothing else, just crack a small smile.

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“oh...” he nodded. “OH, oh right, yeah- interesting” aidan couldn’t help but smirk now. not too bad for his first day on the job. he chuckled and gave him another quick peck, hand moving from his hair. “so er.. should we head home?” aidan wasn’t sure what was to come now. sure, it was casual and all. but he couldn’t help it now. something he had denied for so long. since that night they met at the party; aidan had a big fat fucking crush on ivan.