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i wake up every day with a pit in my stomach and I cry myself to sleep until my face is all red. I ruin everything good for myself. I just want to be stabbed in the heart 33 times over until i bleed out on the bathroom floor. I could never bear the weight of this cruel world. I drove away the one person who loved and cared for me out of my own impulsivity and selfishness. I tried so so hard. I forgave her when she beat and broke me down into a pathetic little crybaby begging her to love and stay with me. I make one mistake and she gives up. I dont have a future I dont have friends Im going nowhere in life all I looked forward to was us. I cant do this. I want to be locked in a psychward and strapped down to a chair and sedated until I see stars and then none of this will even matter. God please put me to sleep forever. At least if i die young i wont live to see my decaying rotting body

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gf just asked me if she could unblock her p3do sugar daddy shes known since she was 13 🥺🥺🥺shes so silly

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ok but u dont get it she loves me omg i swear she does UGH U ONLY SEE OME SIDE OF IT IM BEING NEGATIVE WHATEVER

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every time she talks to a male in any capacity I feel a pit in my stomach. I never felt in competition with males before her. Before she made me develop this insecurity. She talked to guys as early as December ): Im so sad, i had a crush on her for years and all I get is abused abused abused. Im such a little crybbaby i say this as if i didnt choose it and as if im not some nazi freak with a rape fetish im fucked up too

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oh my god you just dont understandddddd do you bitchhhh?)(?

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god im so pathetic i have to beg her to be nice to me and not scream at me. She tells me she hates me so much. I feel like a little kid when my dad would yell at me over and over it scared me sm. She makes me feel vulnerable and weak when she does this. Im so dependent on her emotionally i feel like my nervous system will never recover from her borderline personality. Shes hot and cold and she traumatized me

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baby u make me want to slit my throat ):

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Im so bipolar someone murder me

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I just miss when you were sweet to me, maybe if I try hard enough

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Id run back like a lost dog every time

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Ok I ALSO HAVE MY BPD SPAZ MOMENTS LIKE YOU WHORE FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF OMMMMMGGGGGGGG UR NOT THE ONLY CRAZY BITCH ON PLANET EARHT ILL MURDER UR FAMILY AND BEND OVER UR MOTHER LITTLW 4'11 SLUT OMG UR SUCH A MIDGET ID FUCKING R@PE U AND FILM IT POST IT ON THE NET FOR UR ENTIRE BLOODLINE TO SEE I NEED EVERYONE TO SEE U CRYING HOW U MADE ME CRY ALL THOSE NIGHTS ALONE IN MY ROOM WONDERING WHAT I DID WRONG AND I WONT FORGET WHEN I CRIED SO HARD AND BLACKED OUT I COULDNT BREATHE BECAUSE OF U AND THEN U SAY IT WAS MY FAUILTTTTTTTTT LOL

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IM 17 NOW BEING MENTALLY ILL ISNT AS CUTE AS IT WAS WHEN I WAS 15 NOW IM JUST A DUMB BITCH ITS NOT MYSTERIOUS WHORE U SOUND LIKE A FAT DRAMATIC TR@NNIE GET IT TOGETHER OMFG I CANT BE ANOREXIC PAST 18 IM GENUINELY GONNA CRY SOMEONE R@PE ME UNTUIL I CANT BREATHE

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LMFAOOOO OH MYGODDDDDDDDD PUT ME ON SEDATIVES NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW AHAHAHAHAH BROOOOOOOOO