Idiot

Music, writing, drums for Lesser Degree http://lesserdegreetx.bandcamp.com/releases

[caseyryand]

I hope those therapy sessions are truly helping you now, and I hope you're not just using that boy to cover your mouth. You were always afraid to be alone.

[caseyryand]

Lesser Degree 2016

So, we just finished writing a new song yesterday, and simply put; it's the best song we've written yet in every aspect. We always bring different influences to the drawing board when we write songs, and this time around for me was a lot of Converge, and Every Time I Die. So we have parts in this song that are different than anything we've tried before, but it fits perfectly, and end result is sick. In the end what we created is a really diverse song. There's something for everyone, with 2-steps, stomps, fast punk beats, and slow chugs. It's gonna be fun seeing people react to it 😏 I've always thought it was so interesting hearing how bands naturally progress over time, and it's so cool to see and hear my own band progressing with each song we create. Every song we write is better than the last. We're also about to start recording a two track demo, recording the two unreleased songs we've been playing for some months now. Meanwhile we're also writing new songs for a bigger release. We're busy and busting out ass, and I love it.

[theconstantdigression]

Turnover S/T

382/420

[caseyryand]

All I am for anyone anymore is just a good fuck, but I guess I set myself up for this. I wish I cared.

[brendan-murphy-deactivated20211]

I’m always bending over backwards for you. Build you a home; my bones, I hope you fit. Don’t have much time for conversation. When we talk, we talk in tongues, with every word you speak aimed at my neck. Did you say something? Or am I hearing things again? Convince myself it’s in my head but somehow I’m still here. If my breath is the only thing securing my mortality then I guess that’s fine… You won’t be seeing me again.

[brendan-murphy-deactivated20211]

I’m having nightmares about us growing apart… We already did.

[caseyryand]

When you spend so much time in the company of another, you forget who you really are. I lived for you, and I breathed for you, even in those closing months when it felt as though our love withdrew. Where do I go from here? Who do I live for now? Can I really say myself, when every breath is complacent, and exhausted? And every new person I meet just feels like everyone else? I'm not frantically searching for answers, just stuck, lost within myself. A stationary lapse, collecting dust on a shelf.

[caseyryand]

I blame you for where my head is at. I've been feeling so internally conflicted, and feeling indecent. I walked away feeling like the aggressor, the culprit, the ruiner who broke you down and left you just a pile of broken pieces, a culmination of fragments and shards. But every time I think about what you put me through; the anxiety, the emotional abuse, the neglect when I literally pulled my heart out of my chest and extended to you. I can't find a fuck to give about what I did to you. Retaliation wasn't my intention, but nonetheless, you deserved it. After a few weeks of sulking in an unfamiliar room, I started to believe that I could rebound, and actually love someone again. You're the first girl I ever truly let in, and now I don't think I can let anyone in again.

[likepacific]

Worthless Case

New music and video will be released soon. Until then enjoy the first single off our new album “Distant Like You Asked”. 

[fuks]

[fuckoffidiots69-deactivated2021]

Is this Louie CK

[milesjai-deactivated20190613]

who is she

[thuggums]

She is the F U T R E

[caseyryand]

Amazing

[blastedandpink]

#NowPlaying Wanderlust by Every Time I Die

[lvcixn]

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DEAD SWANS | Thinking of You

It’s starting to pull me under, I can feel it beneath my feet. The last few months have passed so slowly  and it’s been so long since I’ve seen your smile. I’m afraid to ask what’s wrong so I sit and stare  frustrated digging my nails into my palms. I never wanted you to see me like that. Bloodshot eyes, bleeding fists, speechless love, a new year’s wish. I never wanted you to see me reenact those days I threw away. Stuttered screams from a distant voice:  I followed you all the way to your front door. No words could take the pain from your eyes  like a knife through the heart. I’ll be sleeping alone tonight;  and when I wake you won’t see me again,  you won’t have to worry about me anymore. I’m sorry for all the times I fucked up,  I’m sorry for every time I let you down.  You always said it was hard to talk and I guess it always was.  But it still feels the same, I still feel the same.  The only difference is you’re not there. I brought this on myself: you’re not there. When I need you the most, you’re not there. And I can’t stop thinking of you.

[allthebettertoeatyouwith]

[elliah-deactivated20221002]

It seems to me that the brightest were built to fall and rot away.

[caseyryand]

You're rotting away, unloved and alone.

[ratherbehardcore]

It was never meant to end, it was never meant to stop. This is all that’s left: broken hearts still beating, Strangled throats still screaming loud.

One of my favorites from Dead Swans’ Sleepwalkers LP, an absolute classic from UKHC melodic hardcore.

[caseyryand]

Destined

I bare no regrets, and I no longer yearn for her touch, so I why do I feel vacant and distant? Can I blame my decision, or was I always destined to feel so lost?

Admittedly, I stuck around much longer than I should’ve, our love expired months ago, it fled with your regard for me. But I guess you kept me distracted, distracted with your sex, and your lukewarm body sleeping next to me. Your lukewarm body was warm enough to keep me company, and that moderate heat was enough to keep my worst demons at bay.

I’d like to believe it was enough to continue enduring your distrust, but this discontentment would’ve caught up to me either way.

[closetweather]

Turnover - Diazepam (x)