She emerges from heavy wool blankets fresh faced and sprightly; even in the brutality of winter, she is no less a goddess. Her color has only slightly faded, leaving her naturally light bronze skin a bit milkier in tone than usual, but it is to be expected given the scarcity of sunlight in the Winter Court. Giselle’s chambers, while exceedingly opulent in both design and decor, are still somewhat smaller than the sprawling suites that she’s always known in the High Palace. Lithe fingertips gently draw open the white, gossamer-thin curtains of her canopy, and like a butterfly, she steps out of her chrysalis and onto ice cold stone floors. She feels much lighter than normal and there’s an unordinary feeling of absence gnawing at her insides as she takes relaxed steps over towards the vanity by the window. Eyes of a particularly striking shade of light green open wider as she slowly approaches the solid gold plated mirror, her breath beginning to quicken at the realization. Her jaw drops in horror of what she’s seeing, and with each blink she hopes to find that her eyes are simply playing tricks on her. Oh, something is playing tricks on her, but it isn’t her eyes.
They’re gone—both of her wings are gone. Her skin turns even whiter as she furiously attempts to reach behind herself to find a single wound or gash where they might have been cut off in her sleep. To her surprise, there’s not a single drop of blood on her back where her wings once rested. The skin on her back is just as supple and scar free as the rest of her body, but it doesn’t reassure her. No, feeling nothing but unblemished flesh only scares her more. If her wings are gone, then what of her abilities? An outstretched hand attempts to manipulate a stone from the walls around her and yet her hand commands no power and the material remains unmoved. She’s frozen in her stance now, a look of pure disbelief washing over her features. Giselle has never felt this…powerless in her entire life.
Who could be capable of performing an act as cruel as removing the wings of the High Queen? The lack of blood or wounds leads Giselle to believe that this is not the work of a peasant gone rogue. There’s intricate magic involved in this, perhaps a misused glamour of sorts. Whatever this is, she’s frightened of it and for the first time in what must feel like eons, the fear is plainly written across her face. She almost crumbles, but like the Earth, she is nothing if not resilient. Slowly but surely, her nerves begin to steady and she’s ever thankful for the amount of mental training she’s put herself through in order to prepare for moments like these. Her mind moves a mile a minute, gathering up all the pieces of a scattered plan that might fix this. Just as quickly as her mind wanders into far off territory, she instantly returns to reality at the sound of frantic pounding against her door and the hollering of her name. Immediately, Giselle recognizes who the voice belongs to. Something has happened to Cassius.
Moving her from her place the vanity, Giselle strides confidently towards the door. Cool green eyes soften at the sight of her Consort the moment she opens the door, though the moment does not last long at all once she scans his body. Cassius’s winter-weathered wings are also absent from his back, and finally Giselle concludes that this is not a personal attack on herself. The panic is evident both in his voice and the whiny breaths he manages to take in between his words. “Cassius, can you breathe? Please speak to me.” She’s never actually seen him in such a distressed state, for Giselle has always known Cassius to be a man born of iron. Cassius is, in her mind, a gust of air that is unfazed by most things. Seeing him like this only reminds her that even the strongest are not unbreakable. He doesn’t know it, but she’s fallen for him even more after witnessing him come undone like this. She almost fights it, but her hands act without the permission of her mind as they so often do whenever she is in Cassius’ company. Reaching forward to gather his hands into her own, her dainty fingers slip elegantly between his own as she leads him inside of her chambers with the wooden door slamming shut behind him. “Cassius, please.” With his hands resting comfortably in hers, Giselle runs the soft skin of her thumbs over the back of his hands. She only wishes to comfort him in this moment, to bring him down from whatever precipice he’s currently standing before.
Upon seeing the queen, his breath continued to stagger. Even in his distress and panic she is so ravishing and radiant. How he had been so lucky for her to pluck him from the thousands that wanted to court her to be her consort. His eyes fall upon her green ones, much like the earth he had come to love. He remembers as a child how he used to dream about those eyes, how they were they only bit of color that flashed in his dreams or when he spent endless days in the very white and barren Winter Court. If it were not for everything else he had come to know about Giselle over the years, the things he had learned to love, it would always be her eyes that he could recall. The first time he saw them he was in for it. And just for a moment, seeing them here when all he seemed to be seeing was the yellow hues of panic around him, he felt as if that was washed away. But only for a moment before he noticed that her irradiant wings were not softly fluttering behind her. Then the air had been pulled from his chest once more. The realization that he was not a fae was enough to send him into a panic, but the High Queen— his Queen, not having hers, that was enough to keep him there.
Cassius shook his head at her question, though he tried again to draw a breath in and only came out gasping at the other end. What was it like for a fae with an affinity to not have enough air to breathe? Surely it was more tortuous than losing another affinity, water and fire and earth could all do without. But air was the very thing that had kept everyone alive for their long immortal years. Without air, how could they live? How could they continue on? It was cruel to have it taken away from him. With each passing moment he could feel his chest tighten, and if Giselle had not held his hands and interlocked her fingers with his, they would have found their way to his chest, clawing at it until they could open him up so that he could get any bit of air that he needed. His head grew light from wheezing for air as she took him into her room. Even the sound of the heavy wooden door now frightened him, ringing out a noise that seemed to echo in his mind louder than any thoughts he had.
Never in his life had Cassius experienced any of this before. Or if he had, he would not have had such a visceral reaction to it all. He was a very stoic man, emotions like these were far too… Human for him to show. The shortness of breath, how he trembled apprehensively, the way his hands felt as if they were to slip from Giselle’s careful grip if he moved too quickly. The fear of impending doom that a fate had been chosen for him— a life that he could not control. “I-I-I,” his voice did not even sound like anything he had recognized. Ragged breaths left his mouth just as quickly as they entered, far too much for him to get many words out. “I can’t b-breathe,” he shook his head again now pulling one of his hands from her grip to his chest, clenching his shirt tight as if it had been the reasoning for all of his panic, trying to pull it away from his body so that he could at least then blame something.
Was it only due to his discipline as a soldier and a fae that he had been able to conceal his feelings? Was he truly nothing without it those at hand? He couldn’t even manage to conjure up anything worth to say. How he usually mulled over his thoughts, let them stew into his head before he picked out the perfect words to say. Now if he sat on them any longer he just knew that he would implode from the chaos. Cassius only wanted to unravel in her presence, as she stood there her words so warm in his ears. Even though he no longer had the air or his wings to lift him up and his feet were placed firmly on the floor below him, he still hadn’t felt like he was truly grounded. The only thing that brought him back were her eyes, strong and resilient as the earth. “I… Don’t have anything,” he let his head hang feeling tears start to brim along his eyelids. He looked back up at her through blurry tears and vision that had seemed to blear as the panic continued to manifest within him. “I… I woke up, and-and-and it was gone. E-everything was just g-gone.” His words slipped from his mouth as if they were secrets he had been holding up inside for hundreds of years. And now that the floodgates were open there was no indication that they were going to stop.
T-the air, I… I can’t,” he closed his eyes hard, finally letting the tears spill over and roll down his cheeks. He wanted to close his eyes and wake up as if this had all just been some sort of nightmare for him. But as he opened them again, the reality seemed to sink in deeper. That he was still here and Giselle stood in front of him without wings of her own as well. He cried out again before he allowed himself to collapse into her, gently sobbing in the nape of her neck as his arms wrapped around her and he clung onto her to make sure that she was still real standing there with him. It was so odd for him to behave like this, his parents had always taught him better. He thought that he knew better. But the boy was fraying and there wasn’t anything that he seemed to think to do about it. The only thing he was sure of was that she was here with him. He pulled away again, not bothering to wipe the tears from his cheeks. “I-I am so sorry. I just.. I just,” he sort of groaned in frustration as he couldn’t form the words into a coherent sentence. It was one thing to always hold everything on the tip of his tongue and never say it, but it was another to not have the ability to say anything at all. “Giselle,” he whimpered softly as he drew in more unsteady breaths. “W-what’s happening? I-I just went to bed and-and now we don’t have our wings or-or-or our powers. I,” he shook his head in disbelief still. “I should have been w-with you. I could have s-stopped this from,” he trailed off still not sure what exactly this was or even if he had been with her that he could manage to have the power to stop it at all.