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TW, personal blog, backup: @cassysi1, 🦋, disappears for years just to post something random, english is not my first language

[cassysi]

I was letmebelikecassie

If this blog gets reported: @cassysi1

[cassysi]

I was so inactive 😭

And completely forgot I changed my pfp and stuff it looks so fuckin ugly what was I thinking but I'm too lazy to change it back

[returnoftheshitshow]

[weliveinaprozacnation]

the aftermath of the “fuck this ed” mindset is devastating. i just binged so hard 😭

[cassysi]

I wanna kms

[cassysi]

Being junkorexic is a fuckin curse like yeah I just ate my cals in two milka cookies, one chocolate bar and coffee in one sitting so let me just fast for the rest of the day. I crave chocolate so bad practically all the time

[cassysi]

Filling my lungs with fuckin flavored air cause this bitch already ate 1460 kcal

Also I am pretty sure the scale is lying cause I compared my body to my older pics and there's no way I'm 43 I'm still 45kg

[cassysi]

Ironic how everyone hates me but I am the only one holding it together rn

[cassysi]

Also shopping is hard bc i have no idea how I want to dress like I got goth clothes I got clean girl aesthetic super basic stuff a bit of old money something similar to grung I just don't fuckin know everything's so pretty and I genuinely feel good in everything

[cassysi]

I desperately need money

[cassysi]

I can't wait to get home I can't stay in my calorie limit here

[cassysi]

I can't really count the calories so I'm just asking for the smallest portion she's willing to give me and eating half of it

[cassysi]

Finally found the scale mines old so I thought my weight stayed the same but it's at least 0,5kg down

[cassysi]

So if I don't fuck it up again it could be 1kg at the end of the week

[cassysi]

Finally found the scale mines old so I thought my weight stayed the same but it's at least 0,5kg down

[cassysi]

I miss horse riding can't wait to be back home

[cassysi]

I can't stop thinking about bananas covered in Nutella I'm almost crying

I wanna off myself

And the fact I could just purge it 😭

I hope I fall asleep soon I'll stuff myself with black coffee in the morning until I'm so sick I won't want anything I'm such a stupid bitch

[cassysi]

Oh to be able to do the same thing as the main character from My year of rest and relaxation