My Fantasies

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Could a dream cause you a feeling?? Had a dream of a person last night. The kiss, the hug from behind, and being closed to her, created tons of butterflies that I'd make a garden for them!

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I really miss you so much. I’m glad you start following me back on IG. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and tell how unwanted reality had hit me these past months. I miss you. 😔

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3:57AM. I woke up in the middle of the night from the dream of you. I lost you in there and I got scared that I woke up. I miss you. Hoping you’re doing okay.

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Happy valentine’s, V.

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It was good to see you, even at your feet, as I wasn’t dare to look up to catch your face. You did notice me right?

I missed you.

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Something I hope you should know how I’d do for you. I do care for you, genius. And I miss you. 😔

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Most of the times, I think I probably watch too much western movies which completely change my point of views in life that is totally despite my reality.

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I should have said goodbye to you yesterday, but I didn’t know how or what I should say to you because I have never let my guard down. All I knew is that I’ve always missed you. You look great and enchanting. I’m happy to see grow. This is amazing.

Dec 1, 19

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You, to me, are not like just another disposable thing. To me, you always exist in my mind. Even though we’re not together, I’m happy when you’re happy, archiving goals, or having met the love of your life or them all at once. You are the most unforgettable person who gives sparkle of joy in my soul. I hope you’d remember me, too. Yet, let’s not wait for each other cause who knows, you’d find your loved one, and I would someday found a man whom my heart calls out for as the way it does for you. I wish I would have also been able to make a deal with you like Ted and Robin did that they’ll have each other if they were both single by 40. Could you agree with that?

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Jealous dream

Beanie on your hair, long sleeve white tee, you were mischievously playing behind a chair at a coffee shop. That’s when I checked your stories in you IG in my dream. And I felt jealous when I was dreaming and after I woke up. How’s that even possible?! 😒 I’m probably jealous cause I thought you’d be with someone special to take you such photos, knowing you’re uncomfortable having your picture taken...

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It keeps going. I don’t know how long.

I remember the things you liked, the places you went to, or the ideas you told me about me. I’ve started to realize to do all of the stuffs and like them. The matcha ice cream with almond nuts, milk tea over cokes, how I analyze people’s age by their skin tone...how different I felt talking/chatting to someone else and nothing compares the feeling I enjoyed having with you. Those conversations have kept me recalling nonstop-able. I wish we could’ve talked to each other like we used to with no fear that each and every word we say now become a disappointment. I miss us so bad. However, I think you’re better off without me. There are more people for you to meet and better connect. To you, I’m nobody important, and I’m okay if they’re just not only my assumption. I’m more relieved that way that we both won’t have to be hurt by one another, and we’re not breaking our family into anymore resentment. Missing you is the only best job I could do, and I would keep every memory to myself for only god would know when it’ll be forgotten. But just so you know that I still miss you, and I think that’s what I really know what it is. Because you’re the very first person who made me become this confused but having beautiful butterflies and they never flatter away from this heart whilst there’s you in it. 🦋

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Gone through some tiring activities still couldn’t get my mind off. I’m oddly missing you daily. Tell me how to cut someone off easily like you do, because it’s so impossible for me! 😔

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If everyone keeps changing, why couldn’t I change my mind not to think about you? You took almost 1/2 of my brain memory which I supposed to use it for the final revision. Why are you tutoring me this way? Why do I let my broken heart hurts every inch of my emotion and body like that? When will it ever stop? 😔