I feel like Laura Jean doing this, but it is definitely a way for me to express some thoughts.
One thing to take from this summer was meeting someone. Someone I never thought I would ever talk to in a million years. Leave it to a dating app to let that happen. Had I not come across your profile the day I did, I would have never met you. How crazy is that... Social media, you’ve done well this time. Back to this guy I met. Turns out we went to the same school (that’s actually how I recognized you). I was debating whether or not to like your profile. After 30 minutes, I thought why the heck not. What’s the worst that can happen. Funny thing you liked my profile back and that was the start of things.
After talking to you for a week, getting to know the “mature” you was fun! I enjoyed messaging you at night, even though I would knock out at times. Learning how you changed from high school and lived your college life was eye-opening (I would have never thought). It was your positive vibes and wholesome personality that definitely drew my interest. And when we met for the first time, I was so nervous. Almost as nervous as telling someone I liked him (been there, done that, took a shot). When I started to realize the time passing by, I thought you were standing me up. The minute I decided to leave, I see your message saying that you were here. Seeing you in person and hanging out with you until 1AM was an experience to remember. I’ve never stayed out that late with someone back at home.
Moving on, we didn’t take for some time after meeting each other. So I decided to get a gym pass like we talked about before. And I also messaged you so we can go together. When you were down and we made plans to go at 12PM, I had no idea what to expect. Our first day at the gym was fine, a little awkward (I will never tell you that the rep thought you were my boyfriend). I can’t believe I subconsciously held on to your hand a second too long. I don’t even know how that happened, but I think you gave me a weird look after. Sorry about that! Onto the second day of my 3 day gym pass. This day was definitely better, still kicked my ass, but I got to workout alongside you and learn new things. I remember when I set the time to 11AM and you actually woke up on time to go. However, I was dead tired from the day before so I changed it to 12PM. After that day, I thought to myself, I am done with the gym until you mentioned that we’d see each other the next day. I straight up said that I wasn’t planning on it, but I decided against it and planned to go one more time with you. The third day was a pain in the ass. Very tired from the first two days, and then remembering that it would be the last time hanging out with you didn’t help. After we said our goodbyes, it was bittersweet. it didn’t help that you said you would come back during Thanksgiving and we could hang out then. BTW, this person was leaving for volunteering for a year. Horrible timing....
It didn’t help that my sister and friend was advising me to tell you I was interested in you. But I had to say something before you left. Trying to hang out with you was definitely a struggle, so with the help of a friend, I messaged you, asking if you wanted to keep in contact. You have no idea how happy I was to see you say sure. When the day came for you to leave, I thought I would be chillin, I thought it was no big deal. BOY WAS I WRONG. I felt lonely since I had no gym buddy AND I got pretty sick. What a coincidence... There were days when I wanted to message you, asking how it was going. But my friend advised against it and to wait and see if you’d message first. Two weeks passed and I was sure you wouldn’t message me, so I messaged you first. It felt like nothing changed from when we met again through the app. Just sending messages here and there.
The timing sucks since you’re gone now. When you come back, I might be leaving for pharm school. Although I am pretty interested in you, you love your single life. I am sure you see me as a friend, but I don’t see you that way. I know that meeting you gave me hope in relationships again. It got me going to the gym now and helps me stay positive throughout the day. I always look forward to seeing what random, but funny responses during the day. I just wanted to thank you for this experience. Hope you had a good one too.
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