I get that I need help. The issue is, I dont need help during the day. I can hold it together then. It's at night. At unreasonable hours, when I find myself listening to music, their pain from a similar situation put so much more eloquently than I could. Or when I've had one too many drinks. When I feel that depression episode wrapping its arms around me. And I dont want to bother anyone with it. So I just lay here in it's embrace like I have for so long.














