Useless Monika Stan

ao3 (he/thon, half-ripe 29) ... You lost the game. profile pic by amtesia

[caveinspencer]

Intro~

You know, I obsess over doing things the right way. It's a real problem of mine. So, let's try something different. How about I just do this the way I want to? It's the internet, right? Nothing's set in stone.

Hiya! Name's Spencer, or Bast if ya know me from Ao3. I'm a writer, a nerd, and a loser(affectionate). Just a lil trans (he/him) Aro/Ace dumpster fire trying to get it right.

Fandoms I love:

FromSoft

DDLC

RWBY

FNaF

Housemarque games (Returnal)

Vocaloid (Utau, SynthV inclusive!)

Funger

Bakugan

I like anime, space, bugs, slimy creatures, queer literature, math... I like a lot of things, really. And I love to talk about all of that goofy shit! (Though please be aware that I am a fully grown adult, so I don't talk to minors in private. Y'all young'uns are killin' it though! You do you!)

This blog is, uh, nothing in particular. It's anything I like, my own little curio-cabinet. Sometimes I'll share my writing or art or a random thought. Not exactly NSFW, and I don't really share anything sexually explicit, but the content isn't generally geared towards a younger audience.

So that's me!

If you wanna talk about music, writing, art, games, philosophy, mental health, the politics of diversity, disability and queer culture, literature, or anything in between, you know where to find me.

Thanks for stopping by! Please take care, and be well!

pfp by @amtesia <3

Resources:

Please take care of yourselves. If you or someone you know needs help, i encourage you to reach out to your local resources, your friends, your family, your community, and ask for help.

US Crisis Line: 988

Trevor Lifeline: 1-866-488-7386

International: https://lifeline-international.com/

[boybeetles]

A lot of people seem to mix up ‘community’ with ‘friend group’ so when they read ‘no one should be abandoned by the community. No matter what they did’ they think it means ‘you have to be friends with abusers’. When in reality it means ‘no matter what someone does they shouldnt be left to go homeless and be denied financial, housing, medical, etc aid’

You don’t have to be friends with these people, no one is saying that. It’s just saying that you should support rehabilitative justice, support programs that help homeless people, support funding for free medical services, and make sure they don’t turn away anyone who needs help.

[castametric]

[caveinspencer]

if anything bad happens to Cibo my beloved i riot. i will have WORDS for Tsutomu Nihei. you leave that beanstalk of a woman alone, do you hear me? she punched through a wall. she's twice as tall as everyone else. she's the smartest, funniest character we've got. she got all the audacity in this entire universe. let her be happy in the end or else i stg

[brockpkmn-deactivated20221115]

ok but legitimately i think the reason why kids aren’t taking internet safety seriously is because the people who are telling us not to put our personal information out seem so out of touch. no one acknowledges the possibility of meeting very real teenaged friends online, they always say that everyone you meet is a 40 year old white man in disguise. because they aren’t acknowledging things we know are true, it becomes a lot easier to dismiss the rest of what they’re saying as well. internet safety lessons absolutely must keep up with the times and acknowledge the internet’s capacity for good if you want kids to take to heart warnings about its capacity for bad.

[ajthebumblebee]

Some actual safety tips for teenagers:

1. Have proof they're a teenager first. More than just a picture, have a video call with them.

2. If you want to meet up with them, have your parents or a trusted adult come with you. Even if they are a proven teenager, its still good to have supervision in case any issues happen.

3. If you are talking to an adult, and they start being sexual in any way, you run the fuck away. It doesn't matter if they're 40 or 20. An adult inherently has a power dynamic that teenagers do not. And its up to the adult to act responsible about it. There's exceptions of course, if you're 16 and dating an 18 year old, that's not a problem, we're not talking about that.

4. Being in a server with adults or ran by adults is not inherently bad. Talking to adults is not inherently a problem, and will likely happen in any number of Discord servers. It is only an issue when they are acting sexual and show predatory behavior.

5. Look out for grooming behavior. It can be difficult, because at first it seems like innocuous behavior, like complimenting or giving gifts. Especially if you feel lonely and have low self esteem. And groomers actively target people like that.

If they start trying to isolate you, talk sexual with you, state they depend on you for emotional needs, blame you for their own actions, try to be secretive about the relationship- Then you need to talk to people you trust, block the perpetrator, and call the police on them.

6. If this does happen to you, remember this: It is not your fault. Even if you didn't listen to a single thing listed here, it is not your fault. It is the fault of the adults who knew better, and didn't care. It's not your fault.

[tomboyjessie13]

To my followers: if any of you guys are underaged, please be very VERY careful on here, and don’t fall for any of the tricks the groomer would use on you, just block them and report them.

[caveinspencer]

jgfhbhjvffh it's been FOUR YEARS since i had to decide what to work on creatively

that's SUCH A LONG TIME!

now what ;-;

i have so many ideasss how am i supposed to choose

[mongrel-architect]

Something something the fact that Morgott is the only demigod who you do not have a choice in killing

[caveinspencer]

you know those things you've said in conversation that you are like oh god why did i say that i don't even mean that who tf was i trying to be there but you can't unsay them and--

[stronglychromatictroll]

Some scarlet hollow text post meme things

[dracula1992soundtrack]

being online is so scary aren't you guys worried about the world wide spider

[redfagdiver]

It took 36 years for someone to make this joke and by god it was worth the wait

[caveinspencer]

yes and the antimemetics division and Red are now sprinting/ambling towards your location. you have seen it. it has seen you. there is no escape.

[unamusedyams]

coffee

[so-many-ocs]

immediately after an interaction: i have GOT to get more normal oh god i need to get more normal immediately i have to get more normal or they're going to hunt me down they're going to hunt me down and flay me for sport

during an interaction: and why not put a little spin on it? why not add some conversational zest?

[caveinspencer]

new sewing hobby go brrrrrr

gonna make so many things no one can stop me dont even try i ordered fabric and fursuit be upon yee

gonna look suave at the function

[baba-is-blog]

DAY IS AROMANTIC

[pukicho]

I find it hilarious they gave me hay despite having it just yesterday

[amtesia]

[orteil42]

given the current climate this pride especially i feel i must mention that i love my trans friends, i stand with trans people in the fight against transphobic legislation and those who would enforce it, and this blog is not a good place for you to be if you do not vibe with that

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.