21st century mage

26 | they/she | autodidact | soul seeker | system, processing

[ieafy]

I can’t stop drawing mantises I fear

[kosmogrl]

[cavernslair]

anyone seem to revert into childlike habits when emotional state gets bad? i think it may be because i had to grow up rlly fast and that contributed to my original emotional trigger, but when my delusions or depression start to get overwhelming I become more muted and rely more on stuffed animals and stuff for comfort. I also dealt with an alter for awhile (that was resolved through hypnotherapy) that ended up being a little girl sort of fronting with malice. just a thought. 

[cavernslair]

y'all this post from 2015 is so crazy. For context I was finally diagnosed with DID when I was 23. Looking thru my old posts and realizing how blatantly I was not psychotic and just extremely dissociated makes me sad but it's also kind of funny. I've been going through a big remembering period, there's a lot of parts popping up and sharing memories. In hindsight there was always some part of me that was leaving breadcrumbs like this. My own brain is just constantly rickrolling me.

[illegalcatboy]

[cavernslair]

who wants to go to the four seasons thailand? MEEEE

(posted this on reddit if u saw it there first no u didn't)

[bleedingspiral]

[cavernslair]

the further i get from my high school experience the further i'm convinced I stepped into a Wayside School x Twilight Zone esque dimension the moment I walked thru the doors

[cavernslair]

freshman year the school had to go into lockdown because three deer ran into the building and then kool-aid man'd themselves thru the glass windows in the enclosed courtyard and they had to call animal control to shoot them.

[cavernslair]

the further i get from my high school experience the further i'm convinced I stepped into a Wayside School x Twilight Zone esque dimension the moment I walked thru the doors

[prettyshiitty]

a fossilized keyboard in norwich city centre

[cavernslair]

S. Addison St. gun hole, 1991-2025, Richmond, VA

[aschrecordings]

401 towards london by jack chambers, 1968-69

[muirneach]

north americans will literally have religious experiences about highways

[catasters]

[cavernslair]

season 4 abed is very dear to me because he is the strongest rep i've ever seen of what it really feels like to have a dissociative disorder + the flavor of autism that makes you obsessed with analyzing media (it's me, he's just me)

[smuchshypush]

[cavernslair]

the 2012 og tumblr version of myself would never understand the layers to this image for my brain specifically

[wolfgangamadeusmozartwife]

[janelapaisagem]

[tragicc]

Thanks, Jay