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Cyron allowed Ezra to take his arm that normally seemed to be bionic and metallic. It still felt much firmer that a normal human arm but, it didn’t have any effect when Ez touched the synthetic skin. “It feels real, and simulates a core body heat. I just, get busy and I don’t think to put it on all the time.” He admits in a softer manner. Gently touching his adoptive son’s cheek with his normal hand. “I know..but, you’re not theirs anymore. and we will do everything we can to give you the life you deserve.” 

It was a curious thing, and he couldn’t help the curious fascination holding onto him. Though, his train of thought was derailed at the hand against his face. “Yeah, well...” Ezra let his hands go back to his jeans where they rubbed against his thighs a little bit before tugging at his glove cuffs. “I’ve been having some low days lately and it doesn’t feel like it when I get too low.”

His eyes were trained on his gloves for a moment much longer than he’d have liked. But then they moved up and he forced a little attempted smile. “Sorry. Don’t mean to bring things down after the good news. Happier things. Sometimes when I’ve got Ashes in her harness for walking she starts to wander off, so Bear picks her up by the harness and brings her back.”

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“I kind of forget that I own it. But, I use it a lot more during the summer so that I don’t die of heat stroke with the layers. But..also the arm doesn’t bother me that much anymore.” Cyron explains as he looks back at Ez, smiling softly. “I suppose that I don’t really care that much what people think of me.” Shrugging a little. 

“Though, I could definitely ask Tony to make something for you. Natasha convinced him to make this one for me after I nearly passed out from the heat last year.” He admits as he put the button into his pocket. Leaving the synthetic skin on for now. “It’s water proof and you don’t have to worry about it running out of juice as the battery on it lasts about a month.” 

Though he was used to people pulling back when he reached out to touch (and recognizing that as a sign he shouldn’t do it) he couldn’t help but gently hold onto his friend’s arm to study the disguise. “How? I just... Mine always bothers me. I can’t imagine if I had to keep my whole arm covered up instead of just my hands. That’s just with knowing people look at me strange, not even touching the fact it’s a constant reminder of what they did.”

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“Well, both Natasha and Tony know how they work. She used to use the ones for faces in the past on different missions and I am sure it wouldn’t be a hard task for Tony to make one for hands. I have something similar. I just don’t use it often.” Cyron mentions as he walked to his room and returned with a see through looking sleeve that had a hand on the end of it. Pulling it on over his bionic arm and securing it around his shoulder. Pressing a little button on a remote with his free hand. His bionic arm disappeared and looked identical to his normal arm. “See? You can’t tell.” 

Ezra watched with fascination and even leaned in to get a better look. “You really can’t... Why wouldn’t you use it more?” To say he was enamored by it would be somewhat of an understatement. 

Though, his view was probably skewed by the fact he was still young. And on some level a lot of young people just felt like they needed to fit in. Couldn’t exactly fit in if you were the weird kid always wearing gloves and if there was a chance to at least look like you fit in...? Ezra didn’t really get how someone could have the ability to fit in and just choose not to. “You wouldn’t have to fuss with the glove then. And it’d be more comfortable in the summer, yeah?”

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Cyron fell quiet for a moment as he thought about it. He knew that Shield had used holographic disguises before for faces and hair. He wondered if Tony had ever dabbled into that technology as Ezra did have a point about the fact that most people didn’t wear gloves in the summer. Even if he, himself did at times due to his bionic arm. 

“What about a holographic disguiser? I know that they exist. Maybe that could be mixed into a set of gloves that also work on phones. The holo effect will mask to look like your skin, hands, nails. everything. It’s hyper realistic.” He explains as he was curious if Ezra would be open to that type of thing. 

“That’s pretty much what I was thinking, but I didn’t have the right words.” Ezra nodded a couple times in agreement. “I’m not technically inclined enough to be sure how it’d work, but that was the basic idea.” 

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Cyron listened but he shook his head lightly as he could tell that Ezra was beginning to doubt and mentally beat himself down. “Hey, you’re a lot brighter than you take yourself for. And gloves that work on cellphones sound like an amazing thing. Not just for your ability and worries. But think about how many people when it’s cold outside want to use their phone without freezing their fingers off. Ez, that’s not stupid or a dumb idea. If anything it’s brilliant.” Expressing in a serious yet uplifting manner as he looked at the younger man. 

“You could take that idea to Tony, explain why it’s beneficial to not just you but many other people. Did you know that the older a person gets the less receptive their skin is to technology? That’s why older folks have a harder time using touch screens. Their skin doesn’t registrar as easily on it. It’s not a silly idea. If you don’t feel comfortable bringing it up to Tony alone. I would be more than happy to be by your side for that conversation.”  

“I got good marks in lessons, so I suppose I’ve got a brain in there somewhere.” He tapped the side of his head for emphasis and continued his fidgeting. “But it’s not just usability that bothers me. I’ve noticed people staring more when I go to shops. In the winter that was one thing but spring and summer is another entirely. People don’t expect someone wearing gloves in summer doing their shopping.”

Ezra chewed on his lower lip while taking in a slow deep breath. “I don’t like when people stare a lot, so I thought it’d be nice if... you know, people couldn’t realise I was wearing them. But how would that even work? It just doesn’t seem to work in my head as a concept let alone a solid enough idea to propose.”

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Cyron grins as he listened to Ezra bring up the shiny pokemons that he had in his collection. It warmed his heart in a way to see his kid excited about it. “I just have a blue Psyduck.” Thinking for a moment at the question. “I am not too sure but the little boosts from the friend gifts are nice.” He adds with a little shrug. 

“You never know if it’s a stupid idea until you pitch it and get some feed back and I know Tony wouldn’t be rude to you. He cares about you as well and I am sure he would take your ideas into consideration.” Chuckling softly. “Yeah, he does do that. But I think it’s just a habit of his.” 

“I don’t know, a lot of times it feels like what I’m saying is stupid.” He had been nodding along until that point and started to fidget with the cuffs of his gloves with nerves. “You know... you spend so long not actually talking to people, then when you start to talk to people nothing seems right? Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice, but... Always feels like I’m saying the wrong thing or my words aren’t making any sense at all. Part of it’s thinking my idea doesn’t even make sense to begin with and part of it’s thinking I can’t say it in a way that it would make sense.”

A more recent change in social development, nervous rambling. At least it was better than bottling it all up? “Words’ve never been my strong suit, that probably doesn’t help. And it’s not exactly something i’m sure I could draw and have it understood.” There was a faint groan, not unlike a teenager groaning with frustration at a parent or school assignment. “I’m not good at the social thing, I should just live in a cave or something.

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A soft chuckle escapes Cyron as he listened. “The shinies are pretty. I only have one of them so far but they’re really cool.” He nods, pulling up the app, waiting for it to load up before he went into the friends menu. “Yeah, you can add me if you want. You can get little gifts from the pokestops and send them to your friends in the game. It builds up a friendship meter.” 

He looked at Ezra’s gloves for a moment. “you know, I bet Tony could modify a pair of gloves for you that work better with your phone screen. It if becomes more of an issue with using your phone.” Suggesting to Ezra with a hopeful tone of not only helping out the kid but also getting him to interact more with the others. 

“I’ve got...” Ezra was quietly murmuring to himself as he brought up his pokemon and scrolled through them. “Three. A Swablu that’s yellow instead of blue, Aron’s eyes are red instead of blue, and...Mareep that’s pink instead of yellow.” After that part he’d stopped and listened to Cy’s explanation about gifts and friends. “Wondered what those were for. What’s the friendship meter for then?”

The idea of better gloves was definitely appealing. Especially since at times he attributed some of his clumsiness to the barrier between his hands and everything around. “I’ve had some ideas regarding that, but they sound stupid in my head. Suppose he’s had his own ideas about that. Stark seems to like fixing things even if they don’t need to be fixed.” Not that that was necessarily a bad thing. Often times it meant he had a solution in mind whenever things eventually did need to be fixed.

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“The eggs are pretty cool. It’s like a little reward for walking in a way.” Cyron mentions in a warm manner. “I think I had more fun with it once I realized you can rename the little monsters that you collect. I got creative with some of them.” Chuckling to himself as he smiled. “I’ll let Logan know before the next time I have to pick her up from school. You can add her as a friend too on the game app.” Happily reminding Ezra as he decided to sit on the counter. Checking the delivery time for their food before he texted Logan quickly.  He also emailed one of his lawyers to get his hands on adoption forms. 

“I got one of those sparkly ones from an egg, that was pretty nice. Thought something might be wrong with it at first cause the colours were off, but nope. Turns out that’s just a thing that happens apparently? I like those ones. But wait... You can do friends in here?” He really hadn’t been paying much attention apart from his collecting and item gathering. He’d even made it to level twelve without picking a team.

Mirroring Cy’s movement, Ezra moved to sit on one of the other countertops and made a noise of thought. “I think the only problem I have with the mobile is the fact it doesn’t always pick up when I’m selecting things, but that’s more the gloves than anything else. Mildly annoying.”

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“i mainly use the grocery one for when I am too busy, not going to be home for a week but still is my turn to stock the fridge or..I really don’t feel safe leaving the compound.” Cy admits as he chuckles a little while admitting to his lower days. 

“Your pokemon battle other pokemons. It’s actually what most of the card game and tv show is about. I’ve never seen the show but, Logan told me all about it when she convinced me to download it.” Explaining in a warm manner, smiling as he was proud of Ezra for wanting to spend more time out of the compound with someone closer to his age. “We normally go on longer walks anytime it’s my turn to pick her up from school or if there’s a pokemon raid going on somewhere in town. I’m sure she would love to have another trainer with her.” 

“That’s fair.” A very valid point.

His head tilted a bit when Cyron explained more about the game and its basis. “I have it going when I’m walking Bear around, and times I walk or ride my bike to the shops. There’s some stops around there where I can get items and eggs. I like when I get the eggs. Between that and walking them for candy it keeps track of how much I’m walking pretty well.”

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Cyron grinned, holding in a chuckle at Ezra’s question. He didn’t laugh when Steve asked such a thing, so he wouldn’t allow himself to laugh at his son for asking the same question. “Yes, there’s different apps for take out places. Some of them are professionally done by the corporations, others are local. There’s even a few where you can kind of..pay someone to like buy your groceries for you or get you food from a place that doesn’t deliver.” Explaining as he pulled up the folder in his phone labled ‘hungry’. 

“Well, Pokemon Go, is a spin off from the card game and tv show. You can battle other people’s little monsters in the game now too. That reminds me that Logan and I need to go walking again, would you like to come with us some time? She’s better at it than I am.” 

“Hm.” He made the noise with curiosity as he watched Cy’s phone screen. “I don’t like the idea of having someone do my shopping for me. Suppose it’s useful if you can’t leave the house though.”

Ezra brought out his own phone and opened up the game in question. “I don’t know if I want to fight other people in the game. I like seeing if I can find the sparkly ones though, that’s always a pleasant surprise.” It was only after a moment or two that he actually registered the question. “I think I’d like that...”

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Cyron nods as he pulled out his phone, going with their usual order as he typed away in the pizza take out app. Though, he decided to also pick a couple of desserts to rewards Ezra with for taking such a big step on his own. 

“I still think Ezra Jakub Oaza suits you. It shows that you’ve grown a lot more. That you’ll keep growing. It took me awhile to figure out what I wanted my own name to be in the world. It’s a nice feeling knowing that it’s real and tangible in a way.” Expressing as he praised his soon to be adoptive son once more. 

Ezra nodded with a faint smile. “It is, yeah...” His focus turned to Cy’s phone, even moving a little to look at the screen. “There’s apps for takeaway? I just got puzzle games. And the Pokémon game thing, though I haven’t really figured out what a Pokémon even is. I just like that you get to collect the little monsters and walk with them.”

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Cyron held in a chuckle. “I don’t think anyone does. I mean, I am not good at handling them either when they happen..sometimes I am a broken down puddle of tears and other times I fall into a blind rage..But, it happens, and I have to work through it. Get to the other side again.” He mentions in an more honest manner. 

His expression softening once more as he nods. “That is adorable. So…pizza or Chinese?” asking as he still wanted to celebrate Ezra’s effort of getting an ID.  

“Erm...” Ezra was choosing to let the topic of panic attacks drop, focusing on the brighter side of their conversation. “I think we got Chinese last time, so pizza? I like a good veg pizza.” He nodded about his choice, even though he sounded a little unsure of it. 

He went for his ID again, rubbing his thumb against it and looking at the name. “It took way too long to figure out a name. I’m not sure if it fits, but it’s better than what I had before.”

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Cyron softly rubbed Ezra’s shoulder. “It’s okay, I wasn’t bothered by it when it happened and I won’t be in the future. It’s normal. Everyone has them. I’m glad you have bear and that he cares so much for you to know to reach out to me when you’re needing support.” Nodding a little. “Ashes is a smart one. if she takes over his bed and sleeps on top of him. I want a photo of that. It sounds adorable.” 

“I know everyone has them.” Ezra couldn’t help the slight eye roll, the one he did when he’d commented before about knowing that sex made babies. Both understanding and completely misunderstanding the point that was being made. “I just don’t handle them well, that’s the part that bothers me.”

There was a hum of agreement. “I’ll try to get a picture or video next time it happens. He lets her walk all over him. Quite literally.”

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“The last time I heard Bear bark about something was when you were having a panick attack and had fallen. When you got hurt. He was barking to alert me.” Cyron softly mentions as he knew that Ezra’s dog was a sweet animal. “It’s probably just because he’s big compared to Ashes. I’m sure as she gets a little older, she’ll be stealing his dog bed if she aren’t hasn’t.” 

“Yeah...” Ezra’s face reddened at the memory of his panic. “I still hate having troubled you over that. I’ve been trying to handle them better.” But even with the embarrassment he nodded with a chuckle. “Yeah, she already does. He uses it sometimes and she’ll protest but either she’ll send him off or she’ll end up on top of him in his bed.”

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“He is a sweetie.” Cyron agrees as he smiled upon hearing his phone ping. Pulling it from his pocket to forward the video to Steve and Clint with a caption of Ezra’s dog being cute. “Nipping is normal with dogs that are new to people when they’re younger. It doesn’t mean anything if you show the dog that nipping isn’t okay. He’s not vicious despite being protective of you. Ashes is still a cutie too, I am sure she will warm up to him soon enough.” 

“He is.” Ezra agreed with a nod. “I’ve been doing my best with getting him to back down when he gets nippy, but when it’s from hand-feeding treats it’s just accidental. I’m trying to teach him to take things gently. For Bear, being protective is just growling and trying to look like he’s tough. I’m sure Ashes’ll warm up... Just might take a while.”

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Cyron watched Ezra pull out the phone. Expecting photos, though his face lit up with excited realization as he watched the video. Moving closer to Ez as he watched the short yet precious video of Bear being so pure and innocently whining over the butterfly. 

“Bear is so damn cute.” Beaming in a warm manner as he looked back up at Ezra. “You have to send that to me. I want to show Steve. I bet Clint would love it as well. He’s got a couple of dogs too.” 

“He’s a sweetheart.” Ezra agreed with a nod as he changed apps on the phone to send the video. “If Bear was dragged into fights like the shelter people said, he was probably one they used to work the other dogs up. Worst I’ve seen from him is nipping at fingers when hand-fed a treat, and he’d nipped at Vision a little but. But he’s used to him now so that’s good. Ashes hasn’t quite warmed up to him though. Trying to work on that.”

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“Ah..so maybe not that one if they’re putting down specific breeds.” Cy mentions as he didn’t want Ezra to work in a place that could upset him by any means. He wanted his son to enjoy his place of work. 

“Bear is a precious cuddly small yet heavy ball of fluff. He doesn’t even go after flies. Did you get a photo of him with the butterfly on his nose before it flew away?” Curiously asking as it sounded like a cute moment. wishing he hadn’t missed out. 

“Right, exactly.” He nodded in agreement. “Though I have donated some toys and food during the winter.” Ezra rooted through his pockets for a moment, making a slight face until pulling out his phone.

“I got better than a photo.” There was a momentary delay while he unlocked the phone and went into the album. He’d gotten video, Bear lying on the grass and Ashes with her harness and lead going around to investigate various plants. There was a butterfly resting on his nose and Bear’s eyes were looking at him, an almost pitiful sounding whine coming from him.

In the video, Ezra chuckled and cooed over Bear. “It’s fine Bear, just a butterfly. Probably more scared of you than you are of it.” Bear still whined until Ezra reached into frame to gently wave his hand enough to send the butterfly away. “See? You’re alright.”