REQUEST: “could you do a fanfic where you get lost and jade is trying desperately to find you”
Oh! A fun one! Thank you for your request, please enjoy! (I took this very literally so if you meant a more profound or figurative "lost" you should let me know KSKDJS hope you enjoy sorry this took centuries)
Notes/Content/Warnings: kinda short n sweet, literally not even half a drop of angst maybe some language, protective/anxious/slightly ooc jade but only bc she's a softie with you :') FLUFF
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How did she lose you? How on earth could she have managed to lose sight of you when she was positive you were right beside her this entire time?
It had only been a couple of seconds swiping through the oldies records section of the small vinyl store within the mall and Jade had turned around to be greeted with your very abrupt absence. Instinctively she called out your name so only you would hear if you were somewhere around the surrounding aisles, but no, nothing. No response.
Jade wasn’t one to visibly display her panic, no, she denies it. Practically renounces the feeling, even if it seems impossible, she may feel it but no one needed to know that.
Great. The gothic girl tensed and completely forgot the record she once had interest in, dropping it back in its place and exiting the small shop hidden amongst the seemingly endless aisles that snaked throughout one of the largest malls in Hollywood. It’ll be fun, she said, we both need time out she said. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Jade had gotten a little more frustrated with herself, knowing how anxious you got when alone in public places, already regretting suggesting this idea with the burning passion of a thousand suns.
She called your name again, twisting and turning every direction in search for you, trying her best to remember what you were wearing and hope it stuck out within the large amount of passerby people.
She ran an anxious hand through her hair, letting out a frantic breath as her slightly worried green eyes searched for any sign of you. Fuck, where are you are you okay where are you where are you.
She shut her eyes tight and slung her bag over her shoulder firmly and stormed down the aisles, trying to gain any vantage point to spot you. The raven haired girl grew more and more worried as time passed, angry and frantic that she’d managed to let you slip away so easily, you did get very distracted but you could only be diverted for so long until something eventually became too much.
That was what your relationship was built around, she caved first and noticed how anxious you could be, and well, she set up shop around that and decided she’d always be the one to make sure you were held, secure, and stress free. A completely non-jade thing of her to do, clearly, but again, you were also something very non-jade to her, and she liked that about you. And now, she lost you, she lost you, how could you just fucking disappear she was watching you. You were right beside her, you were gonna pick out some softer music for an afternoon of cuddling and sleeping, you begged her if you could do that, she caved, or course she was going to get soft music for you, of course for you, only for you, everything was fuckin cool, and then it fuckin wasn’t and how does that happen—
“Jade!” Her knees almost caved in on themselves hearing your voice, and she turned around to face you as you practically skipped over to her with a bag in your hands, holding it out as you made your way in front of her with a big grin on your face.
Though as you neared her your grin melted into a worried frown that mirrored hers, you put your hands down bashfully, looking at the gothic girl with a concerned expression.
“What happened? Are you okay?-“ “Am I okay?! Are you okay? Where did you go? What happened?” You cut her off by holding up the bag in your hands slightly, leaning into her seeing as her hands instinctively made their way to your waist during her small ramble.
She broke eye contact as she looked down at the pink shopping bag in your hands, then back to you with a raised brow.
“I-I got us some scented candles, I know you said you liked em, so I picked out some lighter ones, there was this coconut and sea salt blend that was really cool looking- or this other one that had a bit of peach in it and I—“ you paused seeing her stare down at you with an unreadable, blank, expression on her face, instantly worried that you did something wrong.
You dropped your hands down to your sides instead and sent an apologetic look.
“Sorry- I could take them back if you don’t want em—“ “What? Baby, no” she broke off the statement with a brief chuckle at how ridiculously she'd reacted, shaking her head and regaining her composure and looking at you with relieved and loving eyes that danced with humor.
Jade swooped in and claimed your lips gently despite how sudden the move was, effectively bringing a bright pink tint to your cheeks which she definitely knew was happening because she let out a soft chuckle as she pulled away seeing your flustered appearance.
"I'm sure I'll love whatever fuckin candles you got honey." She reassured you. "I'm sorry, I guess I was overreacting or whatever, I just didn't want you getting lost or hurt is all, hospital bills are a lotta cash." Jade half jokes and you caught onto it all, sharing a genuine chuckle at the remark as well. Your heart soared knowing she was worried for you and got a tad protective, it really showed that even the big bad jade west had a bit of heart in her (and that it doubles as a huge soft spot for you).
You leant in and gave her a meaningful kiss to semi reassure her as well, she was so genuinely concerned and it made you want to gush about it for hours. (And you did over a very lengthy phone call with Tori.)
REQUEST: Can I pleaseplease request a fic where the R is dealing with her sexuality nd cuts class w/ Jade to come out to her+ aDmiT hEr fEeliNGs foR hER? ndmaybetheykissatheend
slightly out of character jade but not really lmao, she’s just (sorta) nice with you 🥺 but only you🗿
andmaybetheydefinitelykissattheend
i hate the way i ended this i felt like i could’ve wrapped up shit better but ANYWAYS lmk how this is or if i needed to clarify things better it was hard keeping shit in character 😔
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“Y/n no!” Tori’s pace was fast and frantic as she followed you, clutching her bag securely to her side as she practically jogged in her heeled boots to catch up.
She huffed and panted, running circles around the school to maintain any adequate distance with you. It had been a troublesome week and to be fair, her rampant sessions of either questioning you or lecturing you on how to adequately disperse your feelings could’ve been cut short to a minimum; but she only had them because she cared! Really!
You scoffed and stopped in front of the area you wanted to be seated in, slinging your bag off of your shoulder and under the tree just behind the school in the large field, plopping down and waiting for a very exhausted looking Tori to finally come within a normal distance, crossing your legs and leaning back into the tree and watched as she hunched over to catch her breath.
“Ya know, you sure tire out fast, I feel bad for Robbie” It was a coy remark at the exhausted pink on Tori’s cheeks, her eyes squinting daggers into your smirk.
“Oh that joke is low, even for you,” she panted, standing upright, throwing up her arm in exasperation at how you sat with your legs crossed in a carefree manner. “What are you doing here?”
“Just hangin out, what are you doing here?”
It was a small inquiry, the same gentle smirk on your face seeing her flustered state increase.
“Uh, trying to get you to get to class!? Why are you ditching all of a sudden?”
“It’s just one class, mom” you rolled your eyes at her, waving her off before checking your phone to see class was about two minutes from starting. “You should get a move on now, you’re gonna be late.” You smiled, showing her the time on the face of your phone.
You grinned seeing her eyes widen, then letting out a puff of exasperation. You heard footsteps nearing you; the day only seemed to get better by the second.
“We are not done here! We’re talking at my place later!” She declared with a pointed finger.
“Yeah, yeah, Vega, piss off.” Jade cut in, taking a seat next to you and giving you a small side hug before placing the pizza box in her other hand onto the grass.
You nodded at Tori and gave her an apologetic wave before she turned and practically sprinted to class.
“You’re so mean to her” you dragged out playfully, giving the girl beside you a gentle nudge.
Jade let out a devious giggle while nodding, making your heart flutter just a touch. She was hardly carefree anymore after ending things with Beck, these sessions with her were the highlight of your week. Sometime’s school is a bit much, so you both hang out under the same tree during any classes you just can’t handle that day. A little r&r never hurt anyone.
“Yeah, you love it.”
The raven haired girl inquired shortly, pulling her bag over her lap and reaching inside for something, silencing you before you could even deny her statement.
“Got something for you, by the way.” Her smirk was even more devious as she pulled out a small case of beers she most likely got from the absolutely disgusting gas station across from Hollywood Arts.
“Wow, you really know how to treat a girl!” It was a playfull quirk while Jade pulled apart the casing and handed you the transparent topaz colored bottle. “Or maybe you just like me tipsy, hm?”
The older girl chuckled quietly, taking the beer from your hands and flipping the lid off with the bottle opener attatched to her keyring.
“Well, yes” she sighed after finally getting it open, then immediately bringing the bottle to your lips with a smirk “And, yes” she giggled lightly as you tilted your head back to accomodate the flow of cheap beer in your mouth, eyes watering lightly at the burn. Air became an issue as she continued and, in the fear of choking, your eyes widened slightly, hands falling over hers to take the bottle away from your mouth and out of her hands, gasping for air with a playful pout all during her fit of stifled laughter. You still held her hands out and away from you as you both were distracted, soon releasing them with a light flush that was thankfully covered by the pink exhaustion on your cheeks from the lack of air.
“Oh, fuck off” you wiped at your mouth with your sleeve, rolling your eyes playfully as she opened her own beer bottle and took a swig without even flinching.
“Mm” she paused, swallowing the beverage easily, “You adore when I’m mean”
“You know just because you say it with finality doesn’t make it true!” You scoffed with a small giggle at the end.
The majority of your time spent at the small little edge of your world under the tree was a lot of playful banter, complaining about classes, and Tori (that was mostly Jade though), and soft subtle passes and touches to each other that threw you away from the conversation every time.
After a while you’d catch yourself just fucking staring at her once she broke into a fit of giggles after messing with you, and the more you paid attention to how you actually did that your face heated up just a little more.
You’d eventually spaced out, jolting your attention away to picking at the grass during her laughing fit, the bottle in your hand simply sitting idle cradled by your fingers. This was getting too real.
“Hey,” The girl beside you had frowned slightly, leant back on her hands in her spot, glancing over at you sitting idle and daydreaming.
Jade pushed herself up and nudged you gently with a small smile, eyebrow raised in your direction.
“I was just teasing you before, you know, I didn’t mean anything by it, or when I tease you in general, I never mean it, I’m sorry,” “No! No it’s really okay! I’m sorry, I’m just really distracted all of a sudden.”
You dropped the grass in between your fingers before interrupting her, looking back up into her eyes with a reassuring smile only to see how close she’s gotten. Jade’s face only faltered slightly with concern but it quickly faded away into the tiny smirk that always seems to pull at her darkly painted lips.
“Yeah?” Her arm came to rest just behind you, propped up in the grass while she looked down into your eyes, mouth still upturned and pupils dancing with playfullness. You could just barely feel a ghost of her breath across the lower half of your face and it made your chest tighten in on itself. “What seems to be distracting you?”
Was, was that flirting? Is she flirting??
“I, I uh,” perfect, idiot.
Jade was almost pressed against you now, your shoulder almost backed into the bark of the tree. She only looked away from you to prop her beer bottle up against her bag as a holder, then meeting your gaze again and reaching over to place a firm hand on your left thigh, hair falling to the side of her face and framing the steely gaze she was giving you. The oxygen left your lungs at that, heart beating incredibly hard against your chest.
“You, what?” Jade’s smug look was endless, and you thought with every fiber in your being that if she pulled away now and said she was just messing with you again you’d curse the universe tenfold and dig yourself a hole to crawl into for the rest of eternity. Jesus christ, Jade Fucking West.
She was so cocky and could not be any more attractive as she was right in this moment. You became increasingly more aware of that as she gently pried you for answers, practially caging you against a tree in between her two arms, with one hand on your upper thigh.
You absolutely caved once she nosed against your cheek after what felt like a million years, hearing her giggle lowly in her chest at your flustered state, the vibrations of her voice practically melting you in your spot. You tilted your head and shut your eyes, lips meeting hers gently but with simultaneous need.
Jade hummed quietly into your mouth, kissing back softly and allowing her hand to reach up and gently pull at your hip once she pressed your body into the trunk of the tree with hers.
The sound made your eyes go wide, brain snapping on finally in the realisation of what’s happening. Jade’s eyes were shut, lips claiming yours with fire, the placement of her hands burning and you couldn’t fight acknowledging how good everything felt despite your anxieties, your insecurity with how new this is.
You pulled away shortly, meeting Jade’s slightly hurt expression.
“Alright, what’s up?” She asked, sitting away from you so you weren’t as close and could properly face each other. You let out a shaky sigh.
“Jade,” there was a pause, breaking the eye contact you had you let out a disbelieving, nervous, laugh, hand coming to nervously scratch at the back of your neck now that you had some more room to move. “I’m, uh”
There was an even longer pause from you and eventually Jade rolled her eyes and let out a scoff. She punched your shoulder impatiently with a laugh.
“What? You’re what? Gay? A lesbian?” You were looking at her in shock, mouth almost dropping open in surprise. “Oh, is it true, Y/n? My Y/n?! A homo?!?-“ You cupped your hands over her mouth with wide eyes, stifling her laughs at you as you glanced around to see if anyone had really heard her voice, looking back at her and raising a brow.
“Well! I mean,” You dropped your hands and threw them up in exhasperation, one coming up to run a hand through your hair. Could she have been any louder? “Yeah! How did you just know though?!” At this the gothic girl laughed even harder, almost fanning her face as tears threatened to well up in her eyes.
“I’m glad you find this so funny.” You crossed your arms with a scoff, leaning back against the tree defeatedly while the older girl calmed down. She looked back at you with nothing but amusement in her eyes, taking a sip of her beer briefly and calming herself down, then scooting closer to you.
“You say all of that like we weren’t just making out, and like I wasn’t about to give you the best head of your life right under this tree-“ “Jade. West.” you gasped, interrupting her and placing a hand on her chest to stop that absolutely vulgar mouth. (You liked it.)
“What?! Just me knowing about that last part? Shame.” Jade added with a smirk.
She scrunched her nose playfully at you, leaning down into you as you two held each other’s gazes, her hair falling over the two of you and keeping your attention locked onto nothing but her face. The raven haired girl grabbed either side of your jaw with one hand, pulling you to her lips in a warm kiss.
“I don’t give a fuck what you are, clearly” She kissed you deeply again, this time pulling you over her lap fully, arms wrapping around you as you two kissed.
“You don’t have to explain anything to me, or to anyone, what anyone else think’s doesn’t matter,” she started as she pulled away, briefly kissing you once or twice in between, “Who you are is up to you, and personally I think that, whoever you may be, or whoever you love, is fucking cool.”
Another kiss, but it was much deeper, her pulling away again after groaning into your mouth at the delicious contact. “Now shut the fuck up, please, and let me work.”
You were blushing a deep red at the fire in her voice at this point, along with how she held you so tightly. Her mouth was kissing from your cheek to your jaw, hot puffs of air leaving her nose and ghosting over your skin, the contact almost making you shake.
You definitely did not think this was how the day would end, and their would definitely need to be time to discuss what was happening between you two later, but for now, feeling much more carefree, you tangled your hand in Jade West’s hair and tugged her head back and kissed her without a single thought of stupid fucking class in your flustered little head. Tori’s going to lose her shit.
REQUEST: “Could you maybe write a smutty fic featuring R and Jade where Jade is jealous that R is spending so much time with Tori and pulls her away and fvcks her to remind her who she belongs to?”
This is kickass, first smut request! Alright lets do this thing fellas. Enjoy!
Note: all characters have been aged up to 18!!! This goes for all of my fics, strictly legal and 18+ blog! No minors allowed!!
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You threw your head back in a loud laugh, placing a hand on Tori’s arm tentatively as she giggled along with you at the tale she shared. You sat with the entirety of her friend group at lunch, Jade seated on the left of you and Tori perched closely on your right.
The two of you were very close friends, ever since Tori’s first day you warmed up to each other and nothing seemed better than a nice friendship to blossom forwards into the school year, you both grew very fond and trusting of each other and it was almost destined for you two to become best friends. Days like today weren’t common but nothing unusual, just you two feeling more comfortable and happier with each other as the week spiraled on, your friendship was stronger than ever and people took admirable note of that.
Well, people unlike your girlfriend Jade. You very well grew accustomed to the bashful, sweetheart, romantic she could really be when the two of you were alone, but she never shook the fiery, snarky, dominance she radiated on a daily basis. She was still the gothic, domineering, woman everyone took her to be and she was a force to be reckoned with at times.
You knew it so by the lingering touches she gave you that day, the hand holding that lasted longer than usual, and the firm groping of the softest parts of you absentmindedly before you bid each other goodbye when separating for class.
Jade wasn’t excessively verbal with her affection only because conveying her feelings wasn’t her strongsuit, clearly. Touch, sensation, physicality was the way to convey and understand Jade West and it’s the best way for her to understand in return. She only loved physical contact with you because she felt it was her best way to show you what she wanted, and today, with the bubbly brunette she spited with such a vexing snark hogging your attention, she became more and more aware of what she wanted as the seconds passed.
You chatted with Tori for the majority of lunch, speaking of classes and the older girl’s ideas for a play she’d be writing soon, enamored with her work and how your best friend was doing in general. It was a genuine, heartfelt, interest and you treasured these moments, surrounded by good people and knowing that people like Tori were so trusting of you.
Jade’s blood boiled, hand on your thigh fighting it’s way from tightening painfully into your delicate skin as you gradually turned farther away from her as you spoke to Tori and listened to her blab on about her life. The food before the taller girl grew less and less appetizing as time passed and before she knew it the bell had rung, and classtime grew near. Her jaw clenched at the thought of how much time she’d missed to be with you, even if you were present and literally right next to her. So what if you were probably going to eat in silence and maybe run off and make out after? That’s quality time! Gone! Because Tori Vega had to step in and ruin things once again!
Jade finally perked up at Andre’s word that they were all heading to class and she clenched her fist before standing and walking past him, aimlessly tossing her tray into the garbage and storming off to where you began walking to class with Tori. Usually, she’d be the one walking you to class, and there Tori was, arm linked with yours as she skipped on over to class with you like the perfect priss she is.
Yeah, maybe she was a little jealous, and despite her rather reserved exterior she knew just how to make sure everyone knew that, everyone including Y/n.
And that is what brought the two of you into the confines of the janitors closet, Jade fully clothed on her knees, and you shirtless and with your skirt up to your chest, pressed against the locked door, her mouth biting and licking just below your naval while her fingers curled into you aggressively.
Her breaths were ragged and almost a growl against your skin with each thrust into you, her other hand reaching up to grip your throat with tight possession.
You whimpered and whined her name, the soft pleas as jumbled as the mess of hair your hands tangled into. You grasped her in hopes of finding your balance amidst all of the abrupt pleasure, hands grabbing her anywhere. Her hair. Her shoulders, bunching up the sweater she was wearing. The back of her neck. Everywhere as your abdomen clenched under her greedy mouth and the coil in your stomach tightened. There were no other thoughts or words leaving your mouth, even if it was a blissful babbling, other than that of : Jade Jade Jade JadeJadeJadeJadeJade please please fuck please Jade please please fuck.
“Aw, baby, please what? Hm?” Her voice was low, and she mouthed and licked up your abdomen and up your throat after removing her hand. She wrapped her entire arm around your waist and practically slammed you back against the wooden door and simultaneously punctuated her aggression with another rough thrust of her curling fingers. “You like when I fuck you like this? In the janitors closet where everyone passing us could probably hear you beg and moan like a little slut?” She paused to press open mouthed kisses on your shoulder hotly, soon gazing back down into your blissed out, slightly teary, eyes. “Mmm, my little slut”
At the words you let out a soft whimper, head ducking forwards to hide into her neck as she fucked you so roughly that your body jolted and squirmed with each pleasurable movement.
“Oh, look at you” her mouth was firmly against your ear, almost moaning the praises as she verbally worshipped your writhing body. “So fucking pretty. Wonder how this sweet cunt’s looking” her hand only seased so the other could hike your underwear down your thighs to expose the dripping cunt to her feasting eyes. She groaned lowly at the sight, leaning forward and almost instantly licking broad, wide, stripes across your quivering clit, fucking back into you again with wild abandon, moaning and huffing hungrily against your cunt.
There weren’t words to describe how fast you were steering to the brink of euphoria, that exemplified by how much you squirmed and writhed against the door and fought to keep your screams in and instead letting out these obscene whines and hushed moans. Having jade at your knees and absolutely claiming the entirety of you with her mouth was mind numbing. She was devouring you.
“Mm” she pulled away from your clit with an obscenely wet pop, hot mouth ghosting over your cunt “You gonna come for me baby? Hmm?” Her fingers curled harder, her other hand coming up to fondle your tits as you tilted your head back against the door, that move earning a slap to your right breast. “Look at me honey, look at me” she murmured deeply “or else you won’t get to come”
You fought through the thick cloud building behind your eyes and looked down at her, letting out the softest moan at the sight of her, debauched and her mouth, chin, a wet mess. A wet mess that you made. You nearly buckled once she started rubbing your clit with the pad of her thumb, simultaneously curling into you with her strong fingers. You moaned out her name with such need, clearly wanting to come, but jade wanted more than that.
She wrapped her strong arm around your waist and rested her forehead against your lower abdomen, huffing with the need to feel you come already, though still holding onto the want to establish an earlier thought. She sucked purple marks into your skin, moaning against it as you whined before saying.
“You wanna come for me then? Huh sweetheart?” A beat. You whined and grasped her shoulders, gasping for air as she threatened to slow her pace at your silence. “tell me how bad you wanna fucking come, tell me how this pussy belongs to me and that you wanna come for me like a good fucking girl” the last word was grunted out as she picked up her pace, quickly attaching her mouth to your clit as you began quivering.
“Fuck yes, fuck f-fuck” it was a blabbered jumble of slurs leaving your mouth then, muscles clenching as you neared your orgasm. “this pussy is yours baby, please let me come, wanna c-come like a good girl for you, please, please pleaseplease-“
You whined and keened into her, and all the permission you needed to tip over the edge was the very distinct, very satisfied, harsh growl of the word “come” against your quivering cunt, the vibrations of her voice being purposefully dragged out to assist your mind-numbing climax. Her arm was still tight around your waist, forcing your hips to buck flush against her mouth and fingers as she sucked onto your clit methodically through your orgasm.
“Good girl, that’s a good fucking girl” as you settled her voice glittered on top of you with praise, into your ear, over your neck as she kissed it deeply and hummed her satisfaction while you came down from seeing stars, wet hand that was absolutely covered in your come rubbing slow circles on your clit to assist the aftershocks of your orgasm.
“Mmm, possessive much?” you murmured slowly once you calmed down a bit. Jade chuckled, nosing against your cheek and kissing it, sending a playful slap to your ass in the meanwhile.
REQUEST: “AAAAAA YES OKAY can I request a slightly angst fic where the reader is basically in love with Jade but she feels like Jade doesn’t like her back? Fluffy ending please dhskfh”
Jade West x Fem!Reader
Warnings: a bit of angst, kinda trash writing but that’s nothing surprising,
A lovely request indeed! (I started writing this really late and got a bit tired writing the end so I sincerely apologize if it feels a bit rushed or anything. Though I hope this one is still to your liking!) ((not really proofread oops, I’ll edit mistakes later))
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Today, was detrimentally cold.
It could’ve been an exaggeration considering Hollywood was the epitome of warmth and radiance always. Though, as the rain sprinkled itself over the usually brilliant school you’ve grown so attached to, and as Jade towered beside you so distantly as you walked with her to the lunch table, you couldn’t help but notice how harshly the cold clung to your skin.
Her silence was intensely recurring, and you’d expect from the infamous Jade West. She’s a cold person to most and you shrunk in on yourself internally, but not unnaturally, as her hand instantly detached itself from yours once you entered the view of her friends.
It wasn’t uncommon for her to fluidly move with the weather, and maybe, just maybe, on colder days, she was even colder.
You sat close to her though. Regardless of the cold, she was still unabashedly warm in body heat. She knew it too. Jade made it known that when she cuddled you she’d freely and honestly give you all of her body heat if she could; just to see you shake a little less.
The group conversated lightly, all sitting closer than usual considering the weather, but as moments passed, the sprinkling came to a stop, leaving you all in a dry sense of (still chilled) comfort.
You shivered lightly as a gust of wind moved past you, brushing up against your ill prepared body. You’d decided on a skin tight long sleeve and a simple pair of jeans that morning, considering the forecast called for a ‘lightly cloudy’ day. Judgements were called, mistakes were made.
Peeking up to Jade who sat on your right, you scooted closer and rested your head against her shoulder timidly, almost melting at the instant warmth.
You could feel her tense the slightest and regardless of your comfort, you couldn’t help but let the anxieties flood you to the extent of you pulling away shortly after and instead choosing to just sit close. It stung, but you assumed it was just because Beck was around and you weren’t exactly positive on whether or not she was comfortable with PDA around him yet. Hell, a little chill every now and then is fine, you supposed.
The recoil wasn’t nice as another cold breeze glazed over you, and you could feel your own limbs begin to tremble under the cold. You didn’t even feel hungry anymore, too distracted with the chills overrunning you. Tori spoke up seeing how cold you were as you practically caved in on yourself like a wilting rose.
“Cold, y/n?” She questioned with a sympathetic pout seeing you shiver. You sent a smile, waving it off.
“I’m fine, just a tad chilly. I’ll be okay” you reassured her regardless of her stern look. Cat perked up beside her.
“One time, my brother and I went up to the mountains with my uncle, and it was really cold!And, and,” her voice broke into a short giggle before she continued, “my brother, he stepped out into the snow with nothing but a trash bag over his head, and he ran across a frozen puddle screaming that he was gonna get eaten by gnomes” She stopped the story to let out a booming laugh, slamming her hand on the table loudly before straightening up and stating seriously, “The woman who lived next to our cabin called the police because he was ‘disturbing the peace’. We can’t go back up there anymore.” She ranted on while virtually illustrating the tale with her pink gloved hands, and you had to stifle your giggle at the story while Tory rubbed her forehead, clearly confused. Through your silent laughter, you wrapped your arms around yourself to fight off another shuddering wave of cold you felt, growing slightly frustrated.
You looked over at Jade who absentmindedly picked at her food and stared at her phone in her other hand, clearing your throat to speak silently to her.
“Is it okay if I lean against you?” You asked quietly, eyes leaving hers once she turned to you afterwards. She made a contemplative look before shaking her head.
“Not now, my uh, jacket’s kinda wet from the rain” she drabbled on, only half interested in the conversation before her attention was pulled deeply into her phone that she scrolled through. Ouch.
You nodded, a small ‘ok’ leaving your mouth as you sat at a respectable distance from her since she clearly didn’t want to engage in physical contact. Jade remained the same for the majority of your time together at the table, silent and distant as she normally was, but what you couldn’t bear was how different you felt about it today. Every other day you were understanding, and respectful with how she wanted things to work and you genuinely were okay with it, but today it prodded at you more than the icy chill that continued to run through you.
Theatre instruction was the last class of the day, the only one you two had with each other in fact, and some small part of you dreaded it as the day went on. Was she angry? Did you do something wrong? Is she just not feeling as comfortable with you as you are with her?
So many questions raced through your head and you had to physically pause before walking into the blackbox just to regain your senses. You had such a gutted feeling of isolation and it protruded your mind more than you’d like. What if she had never felt the same way you’ve felt as of lately, or to even begin with? She’s never been with a girl publicly before, was she having regrets? Maybe that’s why she’s been so distant-
“You alright there?” Her voice interrupted your train of thought, panic bubbling away into a quickly dissipating steam as you met her eyes.
Jade stepped closer to where you now rest against the wall, stepping in between your legs and situating her arms around your torso. You almost melted under her gaze and against her body but you kept your composure as you nodded your head timidly.
“Yeah,” you glanced up at her eyes and back down to the floor again, smiling weakly as you placed your hands cautiously on her shoulders. “Yeah, I’m okay”
Jade tilted her head at that, eyes peering down to your anxious form with a single brow raised. She keened her head down into you and pushed your arms to wrap completely around her neck as she nosed along your cheek gently, giving you a soft kiss there.
“You’re a bad liar.” Another kiss as she held you close, pulling your body flush against hers and all of the tension in your muscles faded away with the warmth she encompassed. You let her hold you, pressing the side of your face into hers while you shut your eyes and enjoyed the peace.
“I’m okay” You meant it genuinely as you focused on her warmth, her strong arms wrapped around you, and the way her body fit perfectly against yours and how her voice always made you feel endlessly whole. You’re okay, you both are, and even if you aren’t, god forbid, it was always known that you eventually would be. It’s okay.
As she kissed your cheek multiple times and murmured how much she loved you into your ear while her tone was drizzled upon with a dozen pet names you’d never imagine coming out of the Jade West’s mouth and directed to you, you felt unimaginably safe and much warmer than before, not a chill or a falter in sight.
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