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eren jaeger whoâs your best friend first, lover second⊠makes you laugh even on your worst days, talks shit with you over drama thatâs multiple years old, has pajama day movie marathons complete with junk food and alcoholâŠthe kisses and more are just a bonus!!
NOTE! multi(eren, jean & connie) x reader! random headcanons i have for aot do u guys like these? i lowkey love reading them & this was fun! it got kinda long but i did start on armin & reiner dk if i'll post it
masterlist!
eren!
he can't handle spice like tries but he'll eat one taki & suddenly there's snot running down his nose
he eats like a DOG straight up gobbles his food down and it's so much all at once too
he comes off a little mean but it's his sense of humor
everyone says he's a mama's boy & i agree!! however sometimes i think it's a little toxic
not like horribly but when your first get into a relationship with him you have to explain that there are certain boundaries
the people who he dates have to like mikasa otherwise it's a fat NO from him
he's had past relationships that have started blossoming into something & immediately cut them off when they talk bad about mikasa (and armin) / don't like them
you decide if it's romantic or not but eren is very close to the both of them & deems it important for his s/o to get along with the people he considers family
he's not very smart
it doesn't come to him as effortlessly as he'd like it to but he's stubborn therefore he gets good grades (especially when he really enjoys the class)
unlike jean eren doesn't mind sharing food (despite him being an only child too up until whenever zeke came into the picture) but just because he grew up armin & mikasa
armin thinks it's a little gross (germaphobe) but mikasa is like whatever & so they probably all got used to sharing drinks (to try what the others got) and eating family style
he gets a little upset if you don't like to share food/drinks
pouts & mummurs something under his breath but he doesn't push it
bit nerdy & has marvel comics in his room as well as a bunch of figurines of different characters he likes
he's read two of the harry potter books because armin made him but he gave up the third (shame he'd like sirius black)
has way too many redbulls & has to hear the constant nagging of armin telling him how bad it truly is for him
he likes creepy cozy kid films LOL like coraline because it's claymation and a little eerie
the corpse bride, monster house (he still quotes the uvula line) he grew up watching them so it's almost comforting to him
he likes how i met your mother
once zeke got into the picture it was really awkward & neither could find a way to talk to each other so they'd sit silently watching whatever zeke put on (HIMYM)
so it's a comfort show of his & YES he knows it's controversial but he'll almost always have it on in the background
probably also really likes game of thrones & LOVES jon snow (sees himself in him but won't say that out loud)
also a theon greyjoy apologist & will forever hate the way they fucked up jaime's character towards the end (he complains about it endlessly)
eren has no boundaries at all like will fully shove his fingers up your nostrils to pick it if you ask him too
he's a little gross LMAOO like sometimes you look at him & are like seriously?
burps in your face all the time (it stinks)
HUGEE football fan constantly watching games on sundays will get way to into: screams & claps loudly plus he'll curse at the screen whenever his favorite team is losing
if you're into football he loves it & if you aren't... he's still making you wear his teams jersey as a good luck charm
don't worry he'll explain the game to you
or at least tries to but stops mid sentence to scream about the fumble
heâs really try-hard like games or sports but sometimes itâs soo stupid
he goes overly hard at Minecraft & when everyone decides to make their yearly server it takes him two days to have netherite
meanwhile arminâs still picking out a good spot to build his home, connie has blown up the nearby village, sasha is hoarding cows, mikasa decorating NO ONE HAS DIAMONDS!!! cue him impatiently tapping his foot
jean!
he walks behind you whenever you're wearing a skirt or anything too short
and his hands will fly up to cover your butt if it raises a little
he really loves watching you do your makeup / get ready
(if you do this) his favorite part is when your hair is up & out of your face and you're waiting for your face to dry after putting setting spray
he's gotten yelled at for the number of times he's tried to kiss you during this
don't tell anyone but he lowkey loves the high school musical movies & has gotten into arguments with connie and sasha about which is the best (it's HSM3 and he thinks right here right now is the best song)
he's one of those people who swears kissing is worse than sex if someone were to cheat
he's like 'guys think about it they risked the whole relationship for a KISS??' with his arms failing out
he gobbles anything on his plate specifically when it's a house he's never been to & theyâve made food for their guests
to him it feels like basic manners but the issue is he ends up really bloated cause they keep on offering him food & he feels like he can't deny it
he also can't show up empty-handed
his mom probably engraved it into his head & every function he'll call to ask if anything is needed and if they say no he still pulls up with beer or maybe sasha's favorite snacks (if it's a her house)
he's not a big party animal i think he prefers a bar to a club
however he's always at the club with sasha & connie sitting or leaning up against a wall talking to niccolo
his favorite movie is probably before sunrise because deep down he really craves to have a moment in life that feels like that movie
that & he's pretentious
like he wants to just stay up all night talking to someone
has a poster of that movie up in room & if they ever rerelease it in theaters he's watching it 1000%
he's such an only child like sometimes he refuses to share especially when he really likes the food & grimaces when he watches sasha and connie share everything (they aren't grossed out AT ALL because of their younger siblings)
he also can't do like casual arguements (??? i don't think thats the phrase) but like he'll go over to connie's house or something & is genuinely appalled at how his siblings all argue
jean is literally like 'what do you mean' when he sees them argue (and say some really mean things) then two seconds later literally laughing like nothing happened
he'd probably struggle with that in relationships he can't let things go easily & if you grow up like that it might lead to some issues
so he's still upset meanwhile you're over it & not really understanding why he's still upset or you do you just canât wrap your head around why canât let it go
on the other side he'd really enjoy the chaos of a full home if his s/o had a huge family
like he'd love to talk to your siblings & just be over there in general he'll happily lay in your bed ears open as your siblings rant to him about their life
he's one of those annoying people who doesn't drink soda & thinks he's so much better because of that
he stopped around high school because he discovered that sugar makes him break out but it's been happening for so long now that he can't go back
on that note he has faint acne scars that he HATES but he actually looks good with them
his ears get super red when he's embarrassed/shy or anything else
connie!
connie definitely wears both gold & silver. he used to wear gold as a kid ALLL the time, im talking had a gold chain and a matching bracelet (a photo of him with the gold chain is probably his spams pfp)
his mom still has both but once he grew up he kinda switched to silver not that he likes it better it just goes with his outfits more often than not
but underneath his clothes, he keeps his gold chain (the same one from when he was a kid that he had extended) tucked real tight against his chest and never takes it off
he's a really good dancer which is kind of infuriating because he's never taken a class or anything
connie once tried to teach sasha but she has two left feet & literally can't be move for the life of her (DOES NOT stop her from joining connie on the dance floor)
on the topic of dancing i think connie LOVES just dance
really good at it & knows the iconic ones like california girls and #thatpower by memory (definitely danced to it unashamedly during middle school in PE class)
also plays it with his little sister
OH & he defitnely played michael jackson: the experience on the wii GIRL best believe he's whipping out those moves when he's drunk
he def gets the girls with it HE HAS CHARISMA!!
connie is actually a lot more intelligent than people realize
i think funny people are all intelligent (thinking of good jokes off the ripe requires some sorta of talent) & therefore will stand that connie is actually smart
probably frustrates armin to the max because armin knows he is but connie can never seem to put enough effort in things like school
he's also emotionally smart like he knows why he's mad or upset but he struggles putting it in words sometimes (or saying it out loud)
he has a pretty large social battery but it does run out!!! it takes longer than others but it happens & it's probably really evident on big group trips
like after a full two days of socializing, going out, laughing he's very much done & will go outside to sit without saying a word
sometimes his friends will ask him what's wrong or why he's upset but jean and sasha will reassure everyone that he's fine he's just taking a break
but he's back after like an hour LOL full energy burst
he's really romantic out of nowhere
he definetly will be doing something stupid & out of nowhere say "omg you're like to best thing to ever happen in my life" which has you like what?
you're all flustered cause it came out of nowhere & he's back to shoving food in his mouth or something stupid
he's like tyriq withers where he looks like he'd have curly hair grown out but actually it's pin-straight & when people find out they are like WHATTTTT?
he'd date a tall person (he's like 5'8 right?) like i'm talking tall he does not care
and he'd love when you'd wear heels too like he's all over that (if you wear heels)
kinda picture him being a dog person? like he owns a HUGE scary looking doberman
ears & tails cut (i'm gonna say adopted from a shelter cause I hate to see animals going through unnecessary surgeries) and he's just very intimidating
it makes connie look a little intimidating too like when you see them out on a walk
BUT he's a sweetheart!!!! like the cutest dog ever, really well trained, never jumps on anyone who comes over, really good with little kids (especially with connie siblings) and the whole friend group loves him
and if you're dating, be prepared for the bed to be full of you, connie, AND the dog all laying together
they kinda look alike
he's a great dad btw!!! deff the fun parent but he can be quite scary when he needs to discipline
he dressed up as aang during halloween
his favorite movie is probably fight club & he takes it very seriously (honorable mention: scott pilgrim vs the world)
he's actually really secure in relationships never overbearing & not really jealous
when a guy comes up to you to talk connie probably thinks oh whatever & trusts you when it comes to that
however if you were uncomfortable he'd probably find some way to get the guy away (sometime stupid & funny)
he also wouldn't care what your wear if you wanna go out in a mini skirt SUREE if you wanna go out with your titties all out OFCC if you wanna wear sweats & a hoodie fine by him!!
firm believer that connie is just cool like there's forcing it UGH i wanna rub his bald head
hayato suo x reader, wc: 3.5k, req? no
note from sunnie: warning! this contains major spoilers for the current arc! (suo backstory chapters) and because of that, this is definitely an angst fic! enjoy :)
You donât know anythingâs wrong until the end of the first day.Â
Not until Nireiâs text comes in as the final school bell rings. You read his message while your friends race to pack up and go home around you, a confused furrow in your brow and lip trapped between your teeth.Â
Have you heard from Suo today? He didnât come to school and isnât answering our messages.Â
You frown, swiping to the text thread you have with Suo. His last message is from the night before, telling you to sleep well. He didnât text you good morning like usual, which is odd, but youâd woken up late and been swept away in schoolwork for the whole day so you didnât notice.Â
Youâre starting to feel guilty about not noticing. Â
Despite the gnawing worry eating at you, you ignore Nireiâs message for the length of time it takes you to haphazardly shove all your belongings into your school bag and run out of the classroom. Instead of bothering to type out a response, you dial Nireiâs number and press your phone to your ear.Â
He answers on the third ring.Â
âWhatâs going on with Suo?â You ask in lieu of a greeting once you hear the call connect. Thereâs some shuffling, some muffled voices on the other end of the call, and you know heâs still at Furin with his class.Â
âWe were hoping youâd know,â Nirei sounds anxious, which wouldnât be out of place, but the tension underlying his words is making your own heart pound in return. âHe hasnât said anything to you?â
âNo,â You hate how bitter the one word tastes on your tongue. Itâs not like you and Suo are datingânot officially, anyways. But thereâs always been a connection there, a level of closeness that goes just a touch or two past friendship. Really, youâve just been waiting for him to finally ask you out. Youâre practically a couple without the label. âHe didnât say anything about being sick when we talked last night.â
âWeâhold on, let me put you on speaker,â Nireiâs voice goes distant for a moment, until the muffled voices in the background become louder, clearer. You recognize Sakura muttering something indecipherable to Nirei, hear Kiryu chastise Tsugeura for some unknown misstep. The usual crew. âWe were with him last night, and he seemed fine.â
âThe jerk canât even bother to send a text?â Sakura snaps, and you know his anger is just misplaced frustration. You also know heâll correct himself when heâs readyâyouâve watched him grow an incredible amount in the months youâve known him.Â
âIâll try calling,â You offer, because now youâre starting to worry. The boys bid you goodbye and good luck, and you end the call before starting another.
But Suo doesnât answer.Â
You leave a voicemail, instead.Â
âHey, itâs me. Can you call me when you get a chance? Everyoneâs worried about you. And I⊠I am, too.â
You message Nirei and tell him that when you hear from Suo, youâll let him know, and try to reason with yourself that missing one day of school and not answering a few texts isnât the end of the world. You try, but you donât find much comfort in it.
Because one day turns into two, which spills into three.Â
Youâve lost count of how many times youâve messaged him, let alone called. None of it gets you a response, and the small knot of worry that had been building since Nirei texted you on day one has built into a boulder of anxiety sitting heavy on your chest.Â
Day two is spent checking your phone every time you imagine it to vibrate with a text. And when you do get a message, itâs Nirei or Sakura asking if youâve heard from him. Day two is hell, because you feel helpless.
Day three isnât much better. But Nirei calls you during your lunch block, and you answer with enough dangerous hope that theyâve found him, that you nearly die from impact when youâre let down.Â
âWhere does Suo live? Weâre going to go there after school,â Nirei says instead of what you actually want to hear. You frown, nudging your bento forward and away from you, ignoring the curious looks from your friends. Suddenly, you have no appetite.Â
âI donât know,â You admit, pouting. The same helplessness comes biting back at you with a vengeance at your admission. âWeâve never gone to his house. We either hang out in town or at my place.â
Youâd known something was wrong when he never mentioned his family or invited you over. But you were no stranger to uncomfortable topics, so you let him decide when he wanted to talk about it. Now youâre starting to wonder if you shouldâve pushed him to open up. If maybe it would change how things are.Â
âOkay,â Nirei doesnât blame you for not calling into question why youâafter months of nearly datingâhave no idea where Suo lives. You sort of wish the blond did, because you canât be the only one blaming you. âIâll check the school records. He had to list an address on his application.â
You hum, mind a million miles away. Your thoughts are scattered somewhere near where Suo is, but the problem is you donât have a clue where that could be.Â
âHey,â You say after a beat of silence. Nirei is still on the line, no doubt having picked up on the fact you still had something to say. âIf you find his address, could I come with you to check on him?â
âOf course. Iâll text you our plan.â Thereâs no hesitation. You think you hear relief in his tone, though youâre not sure if itâs because he and the boys wonât have to go alone or because you wonât be alone.Â
Either way, youâre grateful.
âThanks, Nirei.âÂ
You hang up on him quickly, and open your text thread with Suo.Â
Twenty-seven unread messages from you to him. Three days of no contact. You miss talking to him, but you miss just having him even more.Â
Youâre typing before you can process your thumbs tapping across the screen.Â
Iâm sorry if something happened. Or if I did something that upset you. I just want to know youâre safe, Suo. Even if you donât want anything to do with me anymore. I hope you remember how much I care about you. Please be safe. And come back to me soon, okay?
Somehow, you know he wonât respond even before you hit send.Â
âAre⊠are you sure this is the right address?âÂ
Youâre looking at an empty lot.Â
An empty lot.Â
Itâs supposed to be Suoâs home. Itâs supposed to have at least a building, one where the owner of your heart sleeps and does homework and calls you right before bed just to ask how your day was.Â
And thereâs not even a building.Â
âIâm certain.â Nirei responds to Kiryuâs question. Youâre standing hopelessly between the four boysâSakura and Tsugeura on your left, Nirei and Kiryu on your rightâhoping that no one will acknowledge you.Â
Of course, youâre not that lucky.Â
âYou seriously have never been to his house before?â Tsugeura asks, and Nirei hisses at him to be sensitive! You nod your head despite the guilt threatening to eat you alive.Â
âItâs justâŠâ Kiryu starts his question more tactfully, but heâs still addressing you, so you kind of wish you could bury your head in the sand. As if thatâd make Suo come back. âWe all thought you two were⊠together. Itâs weird that he never invited you over.â
And doesnât Kiryu realize that you know all that? That you probably shouldâve seen some of the red flags with Suo and confronted him? You know you couldâve done a million things differently, and thinking about it is only making your throat close with hot, angry tears. Guilty tears.Â
âItâs all weird,â Sakura interrupts, saving you from having to answer. He turns towards you, and you think you might crumble if he asks you a question, too.Â
But he doesnât.Â
Instead, he nods his head over his shoulder, gesturing in the direction away from the empty lot that was supposed to have the answers to where your Suo has been.Â
âCâmon, Iâll walk you home.â Heâs not asking. Heâs giving you a direction, an out of the conversation thatâs slowly breaking you apart piece by piece. You nod, even though you donât think you ever really had an option to not leave with him. âLet me know if you find anything out.â
He says that second part to the others, but he doesnât wait for a response before heâs turning away, walking without checking that youâre following him.Â
You do, because you canât stand to look at the empty lot any longer.Â
You walk half a step behind him the whole way back into town. Neither one of you talk, either, but you do sniffle back unshed tears every once in a while he does you the favor of not acknowledging.Â
He leads you back in the direction of your house. When you get there, he doesnât leave immediately, and you know he wants to say something to you. But itâs still Sakura, so you know he doesnât quite understand how to open up this conversation.Â
You sit on the curb, knees drawn tight to your chest and fold arms so theyâre covering your face. You donât want him to see how youâre almost crying, but you know heâs perceptive enough to figure it out regardless. Still you put some effort into hiding.
Sakura lowers himself onto the curb beside you, quietly, and suddenly itâs impossible to stop the thoughts thatâd been plaguing your mind from taking over.Â
âDo youâŠâ You hesitate, turning your head to the side to watch him while still folding in on yourself. He doesnât look at you, but he does give you the space to straighten out what you want to say. Or, more so what you need to say than what you want. âDo you think I couldâve done something to drive him away?â
âNot a chance,â He doesnât hesitate, and the swift certainty he replies with catches you off guard. He clicks his tongue like heâs annoyed by the question, which is a positive thing, coming from him. âStupid. Suoâs obsessed with you. Always talkinâ about you and things you like.âÂ
You frown, and though you know you should be comforted by his words, youâre not. Thereâs something gnawing at you, deep in the pit of your stomach, and you know you wonât feel at ease until Suo is back in your arms.Â
Safe.Â
âThatâs the thing, Sakura.â Your voice is a little stronger now, but your throat burns and your eyes are still flooded with tears that havenât yet spilled. âHe knows so much about us. But how much do we know about him?â
Your words hang heavy in the air between the two of you. And it might be a sunny afternoon, but you feel chilled straight down to your bones.Â
âItâs like heâs a ghost to us.â You look forward, across the street and into the distance. Nothing in particular catches your attention, but at least you donât have to see the way Sakura reacts to your words. âLike heâs there, but not real. Just out of reach, haunting us.âÂ
âHe ainât a damn ghost,â Sakura snaps, and you flick your attention to him to read his expression. Heâs frowning in the same forward direction youâd been looking, his dual colored brows knitted together tightly in frustration. âHeâs real, and weâll find him.âÂ
And you really canât let your mind go down the road of not seeing Suo again, so you make yourself believe him. You make yourself trust Sakuraâs vow, and trust that when Suo comes back, youâll all work it out.Â
You canât let yourself believe otherwise.Â
So, you nod.Â
Nothing has happened by the end of the third day.Â
Nothing, until Suo calls you.Â
You almost donât register that itâs actually him calling at first. Thereâs a moment, or two, where you just stare at the screen in disbelief.Â
His contact photo is a picture of the two of you. Tsubaki had taken it at one of Bofurinâs celebrations. Heâs standing behind you, strong arms wrapped around your middle with his chin tucked over your shoulder. You have a palm pressed to his outside cheek, holding him close. You look so happy.Â
You thought he had been, too.Â
But the moments pass and you realize you cannot miss his call, so you scramble to drop the pencil youâd been doing your homework with to collect your phone and hold it to your ear.Â
âSuo?â His name falls past your lips in a breathy whisper. Like just the sound of it knocks the wind out of your lungsâand it does.Â
âCome to your window.â You hear his voice, real and steady if not twinged with something you canât place in your haste to race from your desk to your bedroom window.Â
And then you see him.Â
Your bedroom is on the second floor, so his head is tilted upwards to find you. Night has fallen, so he's only light up by the hazy street lights. Heâs in the middle of the road, wearing his regular clothes, if not a little disheveled. Thereâs a smile on his lips that doesnât look right, but none of that is what catches your attention, becauseâ
âWhat happened to your nose?â You feel like your heart is in your throat. Heâs so close and calling you but he has blood staining half his face. Youâve never known him to get hurt to the point he bleeds, even despite the innumerable fights heâs been in. âWho did that? Where have you been?â
âMy, you have a lot of questions.â He deflects. Thereâs something off about himâand he didn't need to have been missing for three days for you to figure it out. Even from your spot in the window, even through the phone, you know heâs hurting.Â
âSuo, hold on,â You huff into the call, weight shifting between your feet. Nervous is an understatement to describe your feelings. âDonât move. Iâll come downââ
âStay right there, sweetheart.â He chastises, voice dripping with honey despite stinging like venom. You freeze on command. âIf you leave the window, Iâll have to go.âÂ
âSuo,â You plead, not caring in the slightest about the tears welling up in your eyes. Miraculously, you havenât cried yet, but now youâre approaching your limit. Having him so close yet so out of reach is beyond painful. âHayato.â
You see it then, the emotion he tries to hide. It flashes across his face like lightning, so quick you wouldnât be able to catch it if you were any less devoted to him.Â
Heâs hurting, too.Â
But then heâs smiling again, acting smug like he can convince you that heâs fine, that this is all part of his plan. You know it isnât, but calling him on it might make him run, and you really canât risk that right now.Â
âIâm afraid that wonât work. This time, at least.â He laughs, but itâs a touch too self-depreciating for you to believe him. You hadnât meantâeverâto use his first name as a way to convince him to do what you want. But from his words, it almost seems like heâs accusing you of manipulating him by calling him Hayato.Â
âI donât understand whatâs going on,â You confess, as if that much wasnât glaringly obvious. You have to lean your weight against the windowsill, forehead pressed to the glass as you watch him like heâll disappear in the time it takes to blink.Â
Which, is that even a stretch anymore?
âItâs all very obvious, if you think about it.â Suo hums, almost tauntingly. But any mirth he might be trying to display is completely undercut by the dried blood coating the lower half of his face. âSo put that pretty head of yours to good use, alright?â
âSuo,â You plead again, hating how desperate you sound but doing nothing to temper how obviously youâre aching for him to come back. âI⊠I love you. Just talk to me. Please.â
Itâs the first time youâve said the words, admitting aloud just how heavy the feelings you carry for him are. And you despise youâre being forced to tell him like this. Through a phone call, on the verge of tears, unable to physically go to him despite being close.Â
But it doesnât make them any less true.Â
âDonât⊠donât.â Suo breathes heavily through the line, and you hear the shudder in his words. You think he believes you; you think you see the truth of it settling across his features despite the distance or how quick he is to lock down his emotions after. âIf you say stuff like that, Iâll have to leave.â
âYou donât have to.â None of this makes sense, but you know youâll never get your answers if he leaves tonight. Something deep within your bones tells you that if he leavesâif he walks awayâyou wonât see him again.Â
And you canât let that happen.
âYou havenât seen poor Nirei yet.â Suo smiles and you donât believe him. You donât believe that heâs actually amused, or that heâs so casual about this all, or that he just implied heâd fought Nirei. And you certainly donât believe that Nirei was the one to give him the bloody nose. You canât believe it. âHe just didnât know when to quit.â
âStop it.â You hiss, and you feel the first of your tears start to run down like itâs a race to fall. âYou donât mean it. I can see it in your face.â
How did everything go so wrong?
âI only came by to let you know that this thing between us? Itâs done.â His voice is cold now. And you hate that the first thought you have is that at least heâs not pretending to smile anymore. But such a small comfort doesnât take away the bite from his words, each one landing like a well placed punch to your heart. âThereâs a reason I never asked you to be official.â
It feels so trivial, worrying about your non-relationship status while heâs actively breaking down. You wish you could say you donât care about it, that the only thing that matters is that heâs here, but you know itâs not true.Â
And maybe itâs selfish, but knowing that fact doesnât make the pain cease or your tears stop falling.Â
âHayato.â You donât even know what youâre begging for anymore. All you can think is to plead his name on a broken sob, your fingers gripping your phone so tight something is bound to breakâwhether it be bone or glass or you.Â
âGoodbye,â He doesnât even say your name, not once, before he ends the call, still not smiling. You watch him pull his phone away from his ear, and when he turns the slightest inch away, you run.Â
You donât bother with shoes, or a coat, or even clothes other than your pajamas as you race through the house. You take the stairs two, three, at a time. You use your hands to push off from the walls to increase your momentum and speed.Â
Still, itâs not enough to catch him.Â
Barefoot, you sprint into the street where heâd been standing moments before. Heâs gone, you knew heâd be, but thereâs not even a trace of him left to be found. Thereâs no way to tell if he went left or right, but you guess anyways and run up and down the street like youâre insane.Â
You feel like you are.
Youâre still crying by the time you dial Sakuraâs number and drop helplessly onto the curb. The same spot you were in when you talked to Sakura earlier that day. You donât feel any better than you had then. Part of you wishes you could go back to the version of you that hadnât suffered the call with Suo.Â
Sakura answers after only a few rings, but youâre already talking, rambling, the moment you hear the call connect.Â
âI saw him,â You sob into the phone, knees drawn tight to your body like you could physically make yourself small enough that the ache inside you has nowhere to live. âI talked to him, but he left. I let him get away. Andâand he was hurt, Sakura. He had a bloody noseââ
âYeah, we know.â He interrupts you, voice grave. He doesnât want to be having this conversation with you, you can tell. Heâs angry, and you still havenât pinpointed who heâs angry at. Now, youâre in no state to dissect Sakura. âHe fought Nirei.â
Suo had practically told you as much, you think. But you donât say it aloud. There will be a time, later, for you to break down the conversation you had with Sakura, Nirei, and the others. But itâs not now, not tonight.Â
Tonight, you can cry. Tomorrowâthat will be when you can talk about it.Â
You think about how, earlier, you called Suo a ghost. Unknowable, unreachable. An apparition.Â
And suddenly, youâre finding it impossible to deny the fact that you might be right.
extra note from sunnie! I loved writing this and am dying to know how this arc is resolved. possibly a part two depending on how it plays out?
Hiii!!!! I just wanted to say I LOVED those aot headcanons you posted esp Jeans I canât stop thinking about him being a vinyl collector now uwuwuwuđ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°
THANK YOU HHEHE i actually just got into vinyl myself and have started collecting so that was the inspiration!! so glad u liked it :333
honestly atp youâre genuinely one of the few writers i trust with accurately characterizing the aot characters in a modern au,, i love them sm ESPECIALLY porco (if my acc didnât make it obvious enough) i absolutely love your headcanons
ehehhee thank u sm!!! ive been a fan since the show started airing back in the dinosaur ages so theres been a lot of time for me to think about it LMFAOOOO im so glad you like my interpretations!!! kisses u mwah
i just finished my rewatch and i hate everything so here r some relationship hcâs to cure me
eren bf headcanons part 1 & part 2
EREN.
first and foremost LOVES south park and has mastered the cartman voice and annoys u with it constantly
not a complete disaster in the kitchen despite what you might think, he has an apron that says âkiss the cookâ and if u donât kiss him he follows you around whining like a toddler until you have no choice
big fan of laying down and putting his entire body weight on you. it doesnât matter how hard you smack him, he will not get off of you!!! and if you bite or lick him heâll take that as an invitation if u know what i mean
really sensitive heart :( he doesnât like it, but he cries easily and is quite hard on himself. likes to be pampered from time to time and reminded that you love him. head scratches in particular make him melt
prefers nights in as opposed to going out and dressing up and all that. why would he put on pants and spend a bunch of money on a meal in a stuffy restaurant when you two can lounge in your underwear, eat pizza, and play video games together?
that being said, he DOES like going out for the sole reason of coming back, taking off the outfit that you worked so hard to put together, and messing up your hair wink wink
let you take him to get his first piercing and was kind of a weenie about it but REALLY likes how he looks with it
there are no boundaries between you. if youâre on the toilet, heâs sitting on the bathroom counter telling you about his epic victory royale against jean last night. if heâs sweaty from the gym youâll tell him exactly how stinky he is and heâll laugh as he picks you up and hauls you to the shower with him.
ARMIN.
runs long, intricate dnd campaigns with you and the scouts. heâs SO good at coming up with twists and turns and tying everything together. he says heâs fine if you want to romance another playerâs character but also coincidentally always has an npc that you canât help but fall for
doesnât have a whole lot of belongings aside from books so whenever you two move in together you kinda have free reign of your home. all he asks is that he has a bookshelf all to himself. or two. and a space for his lucky coffee mug.
he grew up with just his grandpa, so it was really hard on him when he passed. he really enjoys spending time with you and your family, regardless of whether itâs dysfunctional or not. heâs at every holiday, charming your ornery grandparents and reading to your little cousins.
if youâre a homebody, heâs kind of a nag about getting you outside at least once a day. he gets a couple of chairs for your porch and you guys eat dinner out there a lot and watch the sun go down while you talk about your days
loves an afternoon nap. if you donât have anything going on during the weekend, he undoes the bed (that he makes every morning) and cracks a window open and heâs dragging you to lie down with him while a video essay plays on his phone in the background
big pasta guy. prefers a light sauce, like a butter-based sauce or wine sauce. bad day? spaghetti. great day? penne. if there are no dinner plans, heâs probably already deglazing a pan with a bottle of pinot grigio and boiling fettuccine. ugh malewife
also surprisingly handy??? he thinks of fixing things or hanging pictures like a geometry problem so as long as a project doesnât require like. a jackhammer. he can get it figured out
really into historical dramas!! he thinks documentaries can get a bit boring but he likes watching dramas or reenactments and then researching the differences between the show and reality.
JEAN.
big vinyl guy!!! somehow not in a pretentious annoying way (most of the time), he just has a cool turntable setup and a good collection of records spanning everything from miles davis to noah kahan to the saturday night fever soundtrack. he likes putting on some oldies and dancing around with you
no place is too far for him to drive to get you. if you're an hour away and drunk off your ass with your friends you tell him you'll just get an uber home and he says "over my dead body" and gets in the car immediately to get you. doesn't care if it's 3am
on that note he'll also drive your friends home too. yes he's the guy that does stuff for your friends too because if they're important to you they're important to him!!! he gets them birthday gifts and pays for their food if you go out together
had a phase where he was WAY too into hair gel/wax until you had to tell him he looked like someone out of west side story. to this day connie calls him 'grease lightning' much to jean's dismay and your delight
unfortunately he takes up the whole couch. he's just tall and all legs and he can't make himself compact so he makes up for it by letting you lay on top of him or sit on his lap. plus you can pick whatever movie you want
doesn't ever really get insecure about your relationship. why would he be concerned over the guy at the grocery store asking for your number when you come home to HIM and the weekly bouquet of flowers he gets you?? (however, said grocery guy is getting fucked up if you so much as whisper that you're uncomfortable)
if you guys decide to have kids, he is SUCH a good dad!!! he has those kids on his shoulders at the amusement parks and they have matching outfits and everything. when they're teenagers he's great about laying down the law without being a jerk about it. cries at every wedding
really loves when you get new clothes and come home and model them for him. especially if you happen to have a cute new set of lingerie for him to wolf whistle at. most of the time this results in him whisking you off to the bedroom hehe
CONNIE.
thinks you two are the funniest pair alive and is constantly saying "we HAVE to start a podcast babe" and then you tell him that the world doesn't need another couples podcast but he's convinced that you two could actually make it big
in my mind connie is at least half latino (i'm texan and i say he's from the rio grande valley bite me!!!) so he is constantly bringing home food that his abuela and tias make. tamale season is so peak you guys are stocked for months
he's really good at skateboarding but terrible at trying to teach you how. "just flip the thing and land" and you try and he's like "no the OTHER thing here let me show you" BUT! if you finally land a trick he's whooping and cheering and your biggest fan
he has a tattoo on his scalp and it looks so good UGH. if he wants to change things up he can simply grow out his hair for a couple of weeks and then it's hidden. however he loooooves when you trace over it with your fingertips it drives him nuts
he has a pretty lanky build despite not purposely working out. he's just an active guy - if there's a place within a reasonable walking distance why would he drive when he can just walk or board?? if you're not a fan of walking that much he gives u a piggyback ride no problem
winning every idgaf war. not afraid of being stared at so he will do anything and everything to make you laugh even if he looks like a total moron.
back to latino connie - when he gets pissed at jean and/or eren during a game he starts RAVING at them in spanish and you can hardly understand him even if you're fluent bc he talks SO FAST and rambles and talks in circles but it's really funny. you often hear 'CĂLLATE, PUTA!!!' from the other room
somehow able to do pda without it being weird. like you know how when you go to a concert there's always that couple that's hanging off each other and it's uncomfortable for everyone in a certain radius??? he's like that but it's so natural for him that no one rly cares if his arm's around you. ig it's his effortless charm or whatever.
LEVI.
he's brutally honest and doesn't mince his words so if you're sensitive then i'm sorry LOL. he's still kind about it but if there's something wrong he'll just tell you. doesn't see the point in dancing around an issue.
similarly, he is an excellent communicator. he's very good at expressing his thoughts without being a total jackass about it, but he doesn't sugarcoat things. he's super good at texting back and picking up the phone - you'll almost always get an answer from him within 10 minutes even if he's busy
annoyingly punctual! if you two have somewhere to be, he's mapping out the route and calculating the time to get there with allowance for traffic, and even then your ass better be in the car 10 minutes early. if you have to do your makeup or whatever in the car then so be it
unintentionally really funny???? it may just be me but something about a guy who's so serious and badass using phrases like "look at these big ass trees" makes me giggle. he's good at being crass at the perfect time and doesn't get why you're laughing but it makes him smile all the same.
he's not super into tv or movies or anything but will sit down and watch something with you if you ask. just expect him to comment on how stupid and predictable the main character is or ask why that couple won't just talk to each other instead of having a 3-episode-long miscommunication. he's very cynical lol
since he doesn't have much of a family, he cherishes you above everything else. he would move heaven and earth for you the second you ask. treats you like royalty and if you think for one second you don't deserve it he will set you straight!!!
didn't grow up with any pets or anything so he doesn't really care to have one. thinks they make unnecessary messes and stink up your house. but if you bring in a stray he can't help but ask if it's been fed on time and if you need him to schedule that vet appointment.
he's a big softie when it's just the two of you. not in a weird or toxic way where he's aloof in public, he just has a hard time letting his guard down unless he knows you both are safe and sound at home. like he'll have a hand on your back if you're in a crowd but when he's home with you he's resting his forehead on your shoulder while you're cooking dinner yknow. very quietly whispers that he loves you - you don't have to say anything back.
i'll probably do a pt 2 with the marley guys and maybe another with the ladies!!! who knows!!!! im coping!!!!!!!!
