Dom sx is cool and all…. until you realize that the dom sx you trust may sx with someone more than they do you and end up screwing you over because you don’t matter as much as you thought to them but anyway I’m still not salty about it or anything.
onakas OKAY NO BUT I FEEL YOUR TAGS IS WHAT I TRULY WANTED TO GET AT?? ESPECIALLY HOW THEY DONT SEE PEOPLE AS PEOPLE AND THE EXTENSION OF THEMSELVES PARTBSKCJWJIFJE. SO RELATABLE. THAT’S MY SX/SO ACQUAINTANCE TO A T.
OKAY FUCK THIS REPLIES BULL SHIT I WANNA TEXT WALL
obviously #notallsx (i’m glad that i’m not seeing any sx people get mega insecure/try to say this isn’t happening yet) but like. the whole exclusionary thing is w/e imo, i don’t give a single fuck if someone doesn’t vibe w me i got people anyways, but the whole… “vibing” thing isn’t actually ab the other person, it’s purely what you do for them, it’s this really really gross kinda… if we’re going to get esoteric, bc i can’t not do that, bw sx-sx, when healthy, it’s about a mutual exchange of energy (passion, shared interests, emotions, similar personalities) with the intention of building that energy up in one another. when you have sx that doesn’t dehumanize it’s great!
the thing is though. whenever you bring anyone’s passions and really core shit into a situation it’s inherently vulnerable, whether sp is present or no. people identify themselves by their energy, you’re literally sharing yourself with someone. this is how you get into some uh… head over heels friendships? i’ve been in plenty of them, but for me it gets to where i think about the person all the time, like their interests and why they think the way they do, or their life and a whole bunch of like. shit. hmmm. i think i’m gonna be babbly and not organized, but i’ve had this kind of. scary experience where i lose myself in the other person? like the “current” is no longer mutual, it’s purely just them pouring into me and me fueling their pouring. this was particularly bad in my teenage years when I didn’t know any better, but the thing is, most people when you do that for them like… no one fucking does that for people. no one. or at least it feels like that, no one’s going to listen to you, no one is ever really going to get you, so when you have them you have to hold on to them? and it becomes this strangely… sometimes mutually possessive thing. sometimes it’s one-sided. and i’ve seen many sx folks glorify this. or act like it’s fucking beautiful.
previously i was shittalking sx doms, but i actually think it’s synflow sx that’s more prone to this? contraflow sx can do it too, but the current is… broken? it’s stunted, it doesn’t work right for contraflow people. it tends to be more explosive and doesn’t just. direct onto people. synflow sx, particularly so/sx, tho i’ve seen some sx/sp do it too They Aren’t Exempt. (sx/sp is arguably more dangerous bc they’re Fully Aware of what they can do to people bc of sp’s presence and it can be a more calculated sx energy w sp in mind and w an awareness of other people’s sp or lackthereof. they can navigate all that better if they wanted to manipulate. but Anyways) UMMM where was i going with this. hm.
contraflow sx can be nasty too, but by nature of being contraflow it’s kinda rare for it to force itself onto people unless it’s already been initiated. they can make it way worse though in terms of toxicity if they feed it. or the synflow sx person will just get fed up with them if they’re not feeding the sx current in the exact way they need it
my brain’s everywhere and scattered rn omg bear with me but… something that KEEPS GETTING FORGOTTEN IN AN IV DISCUSSION is that these are pure survival instincts. so has gotten this talk in terms of social hierarchy and positioning, sp is obvious, but sx is the fucking same too??? it NEEDS outlets, and if their outlet becomes a person or a group of friends or a social dynamic you can get some NASTY GROSS SHIT
