Thanks for the tags @heartstringsduet and @ladyknight1512! 😘
Missing Moments Season 4 is officially in progress :)
“There just … never seemed to be a good time.”
Even to his own ears, it sounds like such a pitiful excuse. TK’s told him so many painful things, been so open with him about dark parts of his past and the things he continues to struggle with, and Carlos wanted that. Demanded it, at times. Told TK there wasn’t anything he couldn’t share, that Carlos wanted all his secrets, that Carlos didn’t know what his place was in TK’s life if TK wasn’t willing to split himself open and let Carlos see inside. He’s such a hypocrite, and he knew that all along somewhere way in the back of his mind but he got so good at compartmentalizing everything that Carlos never quite realized how unfair he’s been until this very moment.
“We’ve been together for three years,” TK points out quietly.
“I know.” Carlos rubs his hands over his face.
“You couldn’t find 10 minutes for this conversation in three years?”
“Not, it’s not that, either.” Shaking his head and feeling sicker, Carlos explains, “When we first met, I really thought she was dead. And I found out she wasn’t the same week you and I made the choice to become something real after months of me pining after you like some lovesick idiot.”
That makes TK smile, just a little bit. “You weren’t an idiot.”
“I was. I was so completely gone on you. I’d already made my peace with Iris being gone, years earlier. And then suddenly she wasn’t, and I didn’t have any idea how to have that conversation. ‘Thanks for agreeing to be my boyfriend, by the way it turns out I’m still technically married since my missing wife just turned up alive’. It would’ve sounded insane.”
“Yeah,” TK agrees. “It would’ve.”
“I didn’t want to scare you off or think about what it would all mean for you and me. I just wanted you. I wanted to be an us, I’d wanted that for weeks and you finally wanted it too and that made everything else seem so unimportant.”
TK looks at him. There’s a shine in his eyes that Carlos can’t quite place, he feels as if he’s under burning interrogation lights even though he’s sitting in their living room with TK only feet away on their couch. If TK was furious, Carlos thinks he'd know how to handle that. But this quiet disappointment might just eat him alive.
With a slow exhale, TK turns. He puts his arm up onto the back of the couch cushion, resting his head in his hand. In a soft voice, he says, “Go on.”
Carlos looks down at his own hands, folded in his lap. He searches back in his brain, tries to piece together a timeline of everything they’ve been through in the last three years. “Michelle told me I'd done enough. She asked if Iris could keep using my health insurance so they could get her on the right medication and I agreed, and then she hugged me and told me to go live my life. And then Covid shut everything down, and your mom was here, and you and Nancy and Captain Vega were kidnapped and your dad and I were looking for you, and then my parents knew about us and that whole thing was hard for me, and then the fire, and then we broke up, and then I had you back, and then Sadie, and …”
He gasps, running out of breath all at once.
TK sighs again. “We have been through a lot of crazy shit.”
Looking back at him with his eyes stinging, Carlos implores, “It’s not like I was thinking about it all the time. I guess it was always there deep down, but most of the time it wasn’t even on my mind. It’s not like I was waking up every day and making the knowing choice to lie to you, I just … I didn’t know how to process it, when she turned up alive. So I pushed it away. Figured I’d deal with it later, and then a good time never came along.”
TK nods slowly.
“And then …” Carlos’s voice cracks; a tear slips free and he wipes it quickly away. “And then you asked me to marry you. In the middle of the night like you couldn’t wait another second. Like you loved me so much you couldn’t stand not being engaged to me for one minute longer.”
“That’s exactly why,” TK confirms, with tears in his own eyes.
Carlos nods, sniffing and not bothering, this time, to scrub away the water that drip down his cheeks. “And I was so completely in love with you in that moment that it didn’t even occur to me until the next morning. I was lying in bed thinking about how badly I’d fucked up, and then you woke up and you were so happy, and I just … I didn’t know how to tell you. I didn’t want to let you down.”
TK’s eyes shine and he moves in closer on the couch. A wretched sob rips from Carlos’s throat and suddenly TK is in his lap, holding his damp cheeks and kissing the tears off his face. “Okay,” he’s murmuring. “It’s okay.”
“Please still want to marry me,” Carlos whispers, grasping at desperate handfuls of TK’s shirt.
“Baby. I do,” TK swears, peppering kisses all over his face. “That’s all I want. To spend the rest of my life with you.”
While TK and Carlos anticipate the arrival of Jonah, Carlos confides in Sam about his excited yet conflicting feelings about the future, and TK faces a challenge far greater than becoming a parent.
read on ao3
This fic was written for @911lonestarangstweek. Thank you so much to Rose and Robin for being patient with me and for being so incredible to work with!
Hehe, it's part of the angsty collab with @certifiedflower and @tellmegoodbye for the @911lonestarangstweek!! It's an artwork of TK in that story... Not sure how much more I can tell about the Super Secret Angsty fic xD So exited!! eeeh!
Thank you @annoyingcloudearthquake for tagging me!! :D
So I'm doing this because it's too funny to not do it. Titles are my enemies.
Rules: In a new post, post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the titles that most intrigue them and then post a little snippet or tell us about them. Tag as many folks as you have WIPs.
To celebrate one year of 9-1-1 Lone Star ending, we want to create a zine to keep our favorite fire fam alive. Our star might have fallen (been cancelled) but this fandom stays strong.
What is a fanzine: A collection of any kind of fan-made creation imaginable! From drawings to fanfics to collages to crosswords to poetry to moodboards to playlists to recipes - etc. Anything creative goes.
The result will be a physical magazine and a downloadable PDF. This zine is a non-profit, with prices (TBD) that will cover production of the physical version. Any proceeds collected will go to an LGBTQI+ charity to be announced at a later date. Ultimately, this project is entirely non-profit!
How can you participate?: The idea is that anyone who wants to can create something for any of their favorite 911 Lone Star characters or pairings!
🚑 Please check out our info doc for more information! 🚑
🚒 If you would like to sign up to be an Organizer, you can find the form to sign up here. Sign ups close on April 6, 2025 🚒
🚓 If you would like to be a Contributor, you can find the form to sign up here. Sign ups close on May 15, 2025 🚓
Hello friends!! To celebrate the fandom’s amazing creativity and love for this show, our official “ZINE UPS” are now live !
There are TWO DIFFERENT forms for “Zigning up” the one for Creators and the one for those interested in joining the Team.
You are welcome to fill out both forms !! 🚒
We thank you all for being so patient and the excitement and happiness from this fandom has been an amazing motivator to get this out for you all.
If you are interested in more information about the zine, timeline, and roles available, please check out our information doc. Please feel free to send us a message if you have any questions!
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Creator Interest Form:
Hi friends !! The interest and sign up form is finally here ! We would love to see what you’re interested in, from contributing to the zine
Team Interest Form :
Hi friends !! We'd love some people to help us be organizers and/or editors of our beautiful magazine!! 🚒🚑🚔🤠
I'm really curious about the angsty Carlos! 👀 Do tell!
This one is of Carlos in the collaboration of @tellmegoodbye, @certifiedflower & me! So also for the Super Secret Angsty fic intended for @911lonestarangstweek.
A super little detail I'm sure I can share: he will wear a hat again!!
And yes nearly all my wips include carlos with a cowboy hat for some reason if i think about it...
Hello friends!! To celebrate the fandom’s amazing creativity and love for this show, our official “ZINE UPS” will be dropping:
Tomorrow, March 23, 2025 🤠🚔🚑🚒
Sign ups will open for both organizers/ editors and creatives.
Organizer zign up close: April 6 2025
Creator zign up close: May 15 2025
The 9-1-1 Lone Star zine is open to the entire Lone Star fandom! Regardless of what ship or characters you enjoy, all are welcome to participate in this zine meant to commemorate our love for this incredible show.
We want to embrace the creativity of every fan, and want to curate a true magazine feel to our zine! Check out these ideas for how you can participate as you wait for signups to open!
Please note, you do have to be 18+ in order to work on this zine.
Happy Zigning up!! We are always here for questions, concerns, and clarification ❤️ We can’t wait for all that contribute and those that join the team!!
The 9-1-1 Lone Star zine is looking for creative minds to help honor and celebrate this wonderful fandom and show. 🚨
Typical zines are often limited to fanfiction and fanart, but we would love to make this zine really feel like a love letter and collage to the show and to our fandom. Anyone should feel like they can participate. Check out this content page for ideas to inspire your creativity! You will also find a list of ideas below the cut!
Don't feel limited to the ideas either. Let your imagination soar. 💫
While we encourage any genre and ship, there are a few things that we would exclude from this particular zine: incest, underage, mcd, self-harm, gore, heavy angst, character or ship bashing.
If you have any questions regarding your ideas, feel free to reach out to us.
Application announcements coming soon! 👀
Also look out for sign-ups if you are interested in organizing or being a mod!
9-1-1 Lone Star Zine Content ideas
Including but not limited to:
Fics
Art
Merch
Puzzles
Craft Tutorials
Recipes
Collages
Playlists
Fandom Reflections
Quizzes
Coloring Pages
Think Pieces
Character Tips / Advice columns
LS Austin Walk-Tour
Infographics
Hello everyone! Happy holidays! I have been hard at work on this top secret project and I am so excited to share it with you all. Every day starting tomorrow through Christmas Eve, I will be sharing a holiday or winter-themed drabble featuring Tarlos or the 126!
Each day, I will also gift a drabble to someone in the fandom just to spread some holiday cheer and hopefully make you all smile, but each one is a gift to you all! 💕
This will be the masterpost pinned to my page, so feel free to come here if you are looking for any of the drabbles from this event!
in a mood today to not be vague. I hate his ass. He’s probably cheering for this show to be over max gao when I catch you !! most unprofessional, biased “journalist” I’ve ever seen