I feel them clawing at my skin
Chunk by chunk, piece by piece and thread by thread being ripped away from me
Theyโre trying to glue down everything that isnโt me
Trying to rip off everything that is
My flesh, my thoughts, my passion, my love
All in a pile on the floor at their feet
Ripped off by the hands of people I loved, clawed through by the people I trusted
Trying to create something they deem lovable
All the while they stripped me of warmth
Im watching them parade around on everything that made me me. Everything I wanted to be. Celebrating like theyโve conquered a monster
And once it was realized there was nothing left to take or change,
my flesh, my thoughts, my passion, my love
Were left on the floor and trampled as they went on their ways
I am clawing at my skin
Chunk by chunk, piece by piece and thread by thread I am trying to put it all back
Trying to glue back everything that was me
Trying to rip off every fingerprint left on the pieces taken from me
Iโm a shell of everything I once was. Of everything I wanted to be. Now Iโm a monster.
Mis-matched pieces stapled to my core, pieces of a puzzle mangled beyond repair
Pieces ripped off and taken by the hands of people I loved, clawed through and ravaged by the people I trusted
Im trying to recreate myself into something I can love again
All the while everything that made me love me was already stolen or shredded
And once it was realized there was nothing left of me I could put back together or love again,
my flesh, my thoughts, my passion, my love
Were left on the floor and trampled as I went on my way too
CV
7โข26โข2023
Revised of 7โข25โข2023