THAT GIRL

nil desperandum | never despair

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Ed Sheeran - ÷ (Divide) [2017]

[timbllr]

[thoughtsofla-deactivated2017050]

When I was younger, I always thought there was something romantic and inspiring about fighting for the one you love and trying to win them back. But as I sit here, broken and lost, I’ve come to realize that there is absolutely nothing amazing about trying to convince someone to love you back.

LA // 2 a.m. thoughts  (via wellyemonster)

[chachirisse]

You're acting so sweet and I can't help but to fall for you. I'm torn between trusting what I feel or believing the thoughts that I have. You were so clingy to the point that we do the simple gestures that the couples are doing - giving me a hug, sleeping in my lap, leaning in my shoulders, watching movies together and such. While you are scared to every ghost encounters of the characters of the movie, I am scared to what I feel towards you. I know this isn't just some sort of infatuation that eventually fades away. I know that what I have for you is something deep. I want you for myself. I am loving the way you care for me though I am not showing you how much I appreciate those efforts you put into me. I am scared, so scared. I am jealous to the girl that you just developed a crush on almost a month ago and you are wanting her to be yours forever. You haven't meet each other and yet you want to be with her. How it sucks that you are wanting her while your actions are doing the opposite thing to me - or maybe the way you are acting with me is the same way you approach the other girls too. Another thing, you did know that I am not good in swimming yet you just leave me there in the ocean striving to go back to that fucking boat. You leave me all alone, entrust me with that fucking life vest and save the unrequited love of your life. I am controlling my panic attacks way back then. I don't want to put the blame in you but I am doing the contrary. I almost cry in the middle of the ocean. I am shivering with every thoughts that I have. By that time, I just told myself that I am not your priority - whatever I do, I am not and never will be. I am just someone you are comfortable showing your true side but other than that, nothing will be special for us. You were almost a perfect catch, the only problem was just that what I am to you was nothing but an unsure label. And that fact, hurts. I don't know where to put myself when I am with you. I do want to let it all go, but I can't. I just can't.

[wnq-writers]

I’m stuck somewhere between hopeless romantic and cold-hearted cynic.

surgeryandsex  (via wnq-writers)

[chachirisse]

I wonder if our paths will ever cross again. And if that happen, will we rekindle the fire that was igniting us or will we just let it turn into ashes?

[aspiringcolumnist]

“Tumingin sa’king mata, magtapat, ng nadarama..” Oh ayan haha! @peppermintchuu

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[aspiringcolumnist]

Walang kupas since 1993.

[chachirisse]

Lungkot... Nakapanlalambot na lungkot. Sa oras na ito, yun lang ang nararamdaman ko. Magmamahal na lang muli, sa tao pang nagsisimula ng magmahal ng iba. Naglagay ako ng harang sa puso ko na nabuwag nya ng hindi sinasadya. Totoo pala yung sinasabi nila na kung sino yung madalas mong makausap, sya ang mas mamahalin mo. Unti-unti, nahulog ako. Hindi ko inaasahan na puso kong dating walang maramdaman, unti-unti ng dumidepende sayo. Pinaparamdam nya sakin na espesyal ako. Hanggang sa unti-unti syang nawala. Yun pala, inilalaan nya na ang oras nya sa iba. Umasa ako. Umasa akong magtutuloy-tuloy na lahat. Umasa ako sa mga matatamis nyang salita, sa pag-aalaga nya, sa pag-aalala nya. Pero hindi ko pala dapat ginawa 'yon. Oo, kasalan ko 'to. Sana mas tinibayan ko ang bakod na ginawa kong harang sa puso ko. Sana mas pinrotektahan ko pa yung puso ko sa'yo. Sana di ako nagpadala. Sana di ko nalang hinangad na mahalin ng isang kagaya nya. Habang sinusulat ko ito, ako ay lumuluha. Ang puso kong dati ay walang maramdaman, ngayon ay nasasaktan. Dahil sa kanya, dahil sa pag-ibig kong walang mapupuntahan.

[chachirisse]

It's always been like this. I love you, you love her and she loves him. It seems like a domino effect, isn't it?

[chachirisse]

You're confusing. Sometimes, I feel like the sun which your world revolves around. I feel like I am your everything. But sometimes, I feel the contrary. I feel like you needed her more than you needed me. I am with you yet she takes your world. I saw how your eyes sparkle when you talk about her. Am I jealous? Maybe, yes. Should I be jealous? Probably, no. It hurts to know that while I am busy loving you, you are loving her. And life seems to be unfair to all of us Coz' she is busy loving someone else, too. What should I do now to myself, to my feelings, and to you? Should I let you drown yourself to your agonizing love for her? Then I just realized that no matter how much I would try to save you, you would still choose her. For now, I am tempted to forget you. But how can I? Am I really capable of forgetting you?

[chachirisse]

We've been living in a generation where saying "i love you" became a habit. When the time comes that those 3 words define exactly what we feel, believe me, that would mean less.

[chachirisse]

Never would I like to feel like Rosaline in Romeo's life. Do not get into me if you have no plans of staying. I just want something real, something worth the fight. In other words, stay with me and forget me not.

[daaamnpaolo]

i never thought winter could define what kind of heart you have right now

[daaamnpaolo]

what if i’m just a stop over a place where people kill their time and when they want to leave i will long for them but they’ll be fine what if i’m just a parking lot where people leave their car and i’ll be the one who waits and watch them from afar maybe i was meant to be like this a temporary home for the people i miss maybe i was meant to be like this a permanent cheek for temporary kiss

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