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Whyareyou actively liking me shit, why adid you send me videos a few days ago I want you gone

I needyou to leave me alone

I hate thinkinf sboutbyou I hate thinking of the times we've had togrhy

I ahte it so much

Get out of my life pleasendude

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I forgot abouthtis blog

Idk if they have tunblr anymore or not to even stalk me or this blog anymore but like

Why an I letting words get to me, am I taking being asystem for attention??? Where those years of being in denial just nothing, was me talking to somany doctors and therapists and psychiatrist s just nothing??? Am I being lid too????? Am I fakingwho I am??? Are WE even who we deem to be?? Why ami spiraling now??? I ahte them, why did theirfriend hae to go out of their way to text my bf and comment onmyshit, I stopped thinkfinf about then, I stopped talking about them and thisis hwo shit gets brought back?????? Me being fake claimed?????? It hurtd a lot, Ive endurd so much shir and I just idk

Whybdo I try to get people backin my life who hurt me, indontwsnt them to talk bad aboutme if I'm not talking bad about them!! Sure we're on badyerms but I don't want eachothr to just spread shit I'm gonna kill myself dude icannotttt

I panickd so bad todaybwheb his friend sent shit to us, I don't wantto be basically manhunted again!!!! I don't wantto be harrasd!!! Idk its just happdn so mcuhto uss that we always getscared when someone weve cut contactwith has a fridn who goesto us and text us

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SOMEONE KILL ME I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING CREEP FOR OUR FANTASIES. UGHHHHHH. FML FML FML FML I HATE HAVING TRAUMA!!!!!

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Trying NOT to split out of jealousy ugh UGHHHHH.

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I love thinking about just trying to contact the people I lost knowing damn well it wouldn't work. Like, I lost the Adam I was talking to and it makes me so upset knowing that. I miss my bf :((

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Anyways back to living my life!

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Hint hint, CONTEXT CLUES EVEN, "it's happened to us a lot" durrrr so maybe you're the retard here bud

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I can't post shit without you assuming its about you broski. It's a post MAINLY about other friends I've had that YOU DIDN'T KNOW! Hope we enjoy this information

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Or just don't let me explain! Kay then

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Bro if you have shit to say to me say it to my face like what are you on about!! Idk how recent ur post was but like what 😭😭😭😭????

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I wonder if people genuinely miss us after breaking contact, it makes me go into deep thought a lot. What if they just didn't care at all and wanted me gone? I miss some of my past friends but most of them were terrible people. I just miss the times we had fun and when there was no issues. This doesn't go to like every friend I've but off but it's like so questionable. I'm too soft and let people do whatever. Our attachments used to take forever to go away but it varies. If we have someone helping us break away from said attachment then it'll go away quicker.

I also just think like whenever ex-friends break contact with us but like go to someone whose also hurt them. That happens a lot to us and we just feel like we weren't enough and stuff. As if thinking that they were ready to go back to them.

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Again & Again by The Bird and The Bee is lowk us rn

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Guys what happened the time I was in dormancy are we fucking joking!

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Nvm false alarm..

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I'm scared who the hell just followed me

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I hope you're ok