rules for surviving trauma anniversaries
-donāt give in to isolating
-have something to look forward to
this week is 11 years since i was almost killed by my parent on my birthday. people often think of my busy birthday plans as an obsession with myself. when really, the obsession is trying to stay so busy that i canāt fall into the despair of this anniversary. my body stores the trauma. this week brings endless nightmares and flashbacks. i just want to survive this. i want to be surrounded by people who care for me so i know the fight was and is worth it. in my hardest times, i want to know that there is beautiful people here now. i want to know i made it out. i want to know thereās beauty to life; and itās in the community iāve acquired. i donāt make so many plans because iām obsessed with my birthday, i make so many plans because iām obsessed with enduring & surviving.














