𝙙𝙮𝙨 * / 𝘧𝘶𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 .

multimuse indie penned by luna | nav ☾

[chaoticenxrgy]

alright kids , daddy needs a new beginning so i’m moving this whole indie right over here 

still under con bec work tired me tf out but i’m getting my shit together yay

[autumsn]

but what about “your ex hired me to make you fall in love with me then break your heart but oops i think i fell in love and now i’m conflicted what the fuck is happening i’m supposed to hurt you ow what am i sUPPOSED TO DO” that’d be rad

[lifeinpoetry]

“by the time i’ve finished with you, you won’t know whether you’ve been kissed or cut, whether you were loved or butchered. and either way you probably won’t care, just grateful you came close enough to touch.”

— Warsan Shire, “under their breath, someone said.”

[badolmen]

Listen, “asshole with a heart of gold” is a good trope but you know what we need more than that???

Dumbass with a heart of gold. Just, a complete moron who cares a whole fucking lot. An idiot who would die for a stranger. A goddamn dimwit so fucking in love with someone that they’d do anything for ‘em.

[chaoticenxrgy]

okayokayokay luna gets her life back together part 1234762

so for one, i’d like to apologize to those i suck at replying to . y’all know i love you a whole bunch and i just have been in and out lately but i’m getting my shit together . 

these past few months have been a ride . one of the most important people in my life died . my med dosage was changed without warning . i finally had to come to terms with a lot of things i’ve been avoiding . but that doesn’t necessarily mean it got to me yknow ? it almost did . i’m just so fucking grateful for those that helped get me out of my head many , many times .

now my family and i have been getting stronger through grief . i  found a new thera/psych combo . and my ex and i have finally addressed the elephant in the room which was that the relationship died years ago and we were still in it for other people instead of being with those we actually want to be with . so now luna does monogamy with a plant that makes her the happiest she’s ever been . 

so . whilst i’m actually getting the hang of my life going the way it’s supposed to go , i’m getting my ass on all the shit i gotta be on , i’m making sure that i’m being healthy , and i’m gonna stop overwhelming myself . in five days i get to see my boyfriend , in three days i get my first psych appointment , and tomorrow i will catch up with work .

this was a ramble but i needed this out . please be patient with me *uwu face with the fingers * ♡

[sorta-ish]

“Look at us both. Covered in other people’s blood and talking about morality.”

— Mitchell (Being Human S2 E8)

[rpxmusings]

         “  you look just like your mother.  ”                                                                          i guess i do carry her tenderness well         “  you both have the same eyes.  ”                                                                          because we are both exhausted         “  and the hands.  ”                                                                          we share the same wilting fingers         “ but that rage.           your mother doesn’t wear that rage.  ”                                                                          you’re right.                                                                          this rage is the one thing                                                                          i get from my father.

[writing-and-nutmeg]

Writing is a party and I, the writer, am the piñata.

[feetdavidson]

I’m proud to identify as morosexual. I’m attracted to dumbasses and dumbasses exclusively. A guy asked me what the Spanish word for tortilla was once and now I dream of kissing him under the moonlight

[feetdavidson]

this same idiot: what kind of animal is the pink panther

me, already taking off my clothes: benjamin you’re so fucking stupid

[femmehealer]

if ur lgbt: what’s ur fav season & ur birth month????

[inlove-core]

i love you more than the stars. and that is to say i love you endlessly, infinitely, unconditionally.

[451seconds]

“You deserve better,” he whispers, staring at his hands. “That’s what you don’t get,” she says, and she's exasperated. “I don’t care if I deserve better, because I want you.“  He lifts his head. She takes his hand. “There is nothing better than you.”

H.L. // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #12 (via fitzsimmonsofrp)

[blossomfully]

“How dangerous,” she thought, “to finally have something worth losing.”

— Ten word story

[write20xx]

“Looking at you, I suddenly wished That my hands did more Than ruin everything I touch.”

— Atrophy (#593: June 28, 2014)

[ssweeneys]

[chaoticenxrgy]

dxrksanctuxry​:

She stands still, her heart pounding in her chest. Her name leaves his mouth in a tone he’s never used on her before. Not in any fight, hell, she’d only ever heard it once or twice. Alessia blinks, the tears already pooling before he’s said the words she knows are coming. “Richie.” She responds in a tone that she selfishly hopes cuts through him. Makes him realize what he’s saying and makes him stop. “Please don’t do this.” Her dropped to a whisper matched with the shake of her head. 

“You’re lying.” It’s pathetic how much she’s willing to beg for him to stay. “There’s no reason we shouldn’t last.” She doesn’t move as he straightens up. “I don’t believe you.” Alessia pulls her arms to her chest, tears rolling down her cheeks now. 

--

His name passes through her lips and Richie’s never hated himself more. There’s a slip in his facade, but he recomposes it back to its impassive state. Say it again, he wants to say. Let me hear it and have ingrained in my memory. He doesn’t. Instead, he looks at her, really looks at her, and ignores every part of him that screams to stop. Richie’s not selfish enough to keep her when it’s her life in the line. He’s suffered loss, sacrificed everything he has, but he can’t lose her. There’s a lot he can take, but not that. Never that. 

Richie just wants Alessia to be happy; safe; alive. And if he has to hurt her to ensure that, he will. 

“Do you really think we could have lasted?” His tone takes on something crueler, colder -- something he’s never directed towards her. How could he? Alessia was the one that made him feel a little more human. “I don’t want this anymore. That’s what you have to understand. I. Don’t. Want. You.”

[laurens-german]

“I‘ve got you. You’re safe.”