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Anticipatory grief and PTSD chronic pain and fatigue. Anxiety and depression. Anhedonia. toxic family issues. Everything goes here. I'm too exhausted to run a side-blog. I'm an adult over 21. Thank you!

[chaoticinternettrash]

for some reason, i can not leave a reply to a blog post. i must reblog and add my reply. it has been like this for awhile and i wonder if other people have this issue or just me??

[daily-spooky]

[uln]

just because you grew up that way, doesn’t mean you have to stay that way.

[tyjrose]

I do shit out of love, I don't expect anything back

[hoeroina]

[chaoticinternettrash]

wow

[classycookiexo]

[wifislim]

[littmel15-blog]

I wake up with constant fear.

Of losing you, Of losing time, Of losing my youth.

I go on with my day with the crippling fear of not enjoying the moment or time i have.

And although life, moments, or people are meant to come with uncertainty. I can hardly live to be content with that.

Because i’m scared if i enjoy the moment too much it might just be my last one.

[nostalgic-teddyy]

A patient person is so fuckin attractive to me.

[closeeedddd-deactivated20250111]

I care a lot until i don't care at all

[nocuer]

When you know yourself, you don’t need the world to know you

[spookysalem13]

For some odd reason, my insomnia started to act up again tonight. I haven't been able to sleep.

I lay here with so many thoughts & creative ideas 💡 ✨️ wandering through my mind.

It's been a long week, at least it's Saturday, so I don't work today.

I think it's honestly stress that's keeping my brain 🧠 so highly active. Considering my jaw is tightly clenched, my neck & shoulders feel like they're going to snap, my head pounds & my face hurts from scrunching my face.

I'm not sure about anyone else... but I have a tendency to tighten all my muscles when I'm stressed. Even without realizing it. Then my brain tries to escape 🙃 in any way it can.

Hopefully this weekend I can relax. I need it.

[chaoticinternettrash]

im with ya!

[rainybraindays]

Its 6:30 and I STILL can't sleep

[chaoticinternettrash]

same here, it's 9:17am this is the worst... I'm starting to think maybe it's the upcoming eclipse. I've been very moody and depressed more than usual.

[adhdandcomics]

shout out to my folks with insomnia & depression & delayed sleep phase disorder & sleep apnea & disabilities & other sleep disorders diagnosed, undiagnosed, and just my plain old night owls & night shift workers!! we r so fucking cool & exist every day in a society not made for us at all. and NONE of us are lazy bums or bad people for staying up late & sleeping in till noon or two or whatever whenever you get up!! no matter what anyone says!! you’re incredible and i love you!!!

[chaoticinternettrash]

thank you. i needed to read this now.

[therelatableimages]

[rontieremodeled-deactivated2023]

I know that God is going to take care of me.

[chaoticinternettrash]

Any tips or advice for a person who has insomnia? Nothing seems to be helpful. I take ambien and temzapam, and it seems to have the opposite effect. I'm wired and tired the minute my head touches my pillow. I start thinking of a million things. It is very frustrating.