Not mad, just extremely enthusiastic about punching.

Independent multimuse RP and drabble blog for TMNT - penned by Som

[chaoticxbeast]

Independent, selective, mostly humorous but trying-to-be-more-serious drabble and RP blog. OWN interpretation. Not affiliated with nickelodeon.

NOTE POSSIBLE TRIGGERING TOPICS WRITTEN BY SOM,   18+.   they/them ESTABLISHED SINCE 2024

[chaoticxbeast]

So you may have noticed i have been mentioning a lot of toxic issues like manipulation, darvo etc in my posts lately and that is because im healing after being free from someone quite abusive in my life who was using these manipulative methods on me. This was at my workplace and the abuse lasted for 3+ years. But im out of it now and coping.

my posts are usually quite humourous but believe me i take these issues seriously. i also want to spread the knowledge so that people can recognize manipulation, because you never know whos just sitting in confusion, feeling exhausted or guilty, or got pulled into bullying a person because someone around them is toxic. i do understand that the abusive person has their own inner battles ..

and this is just a request. if you see someone in your life being bullied or manipulated atleast reach out a hand. Honestly i can understand if that is hard, cause in my case the ones that noticed at work did not get involved because they feared they would be the next victim. I get that. And im not the type of perosn who likes to say i was a victim. Id rather say i was strong. Because i would never allow myself to adapt to a victim mentality. Id hate that. But i guess part of healing is to face reality and that is to see that i was a victim. But im not that anymore.

if you have experienced something like this and relate to my posts during the last month feel free to pop me a message if you want to talk about your experiences. Id like to listen.

❤️‍🩹

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AUGH. It's been almost a year since I started this comic. Thanks for following along, and I hope you enjoy what I have yet in store!

(ko-fi)

[chaoticxbeast]

"A speech you said? No? Well if you insist. I would like to thank me, for being me. That's all."

[pcrplevenom]

Soldan facepalmed, letting out a small clicking hiss. She held back the strong urge to punch Leo in the arm, which is a struggle as the adoptive sibling. "What are you making a sspeech for? I'm a little losst here, or I don't fully...undersstand at all."

[chaoticxbeast]

"It's a self talk speech Mikey is telling everyone to do. It's a new thing. And it's soooo healthy, as long as it's not a lie or a narrative you are making up to make yourself feel better. Because we wanna stay in the land of reality you know what I mean, anyyyywayyyyyy Try it!! Say something nice about you that is honest, kind and uhhhh... real."

[mkthedingus]

Celebrating pride with some gay doodles. Hope everyone knows they’re always loved and accepted on my page 🩷💜💙

[chaoticxbeast]

"Yes I may have killed a man, but I'm still a being! I still yearn and ache and shop. Don't I deserve love? and.... Jewlery?"

[chaoticxbeast]

"Oh before I forget...thank you for being you."

[chaoticxbeast]

"A speech you said? No? Well if you insist. I would like to thank me, for being me. That's all."

[chaoticxbeast]

"I'm pretty smart. But that's it. Nothing magical kay? Except for the mystic stuff but that's normaaal! Aaanyway I don't like to reveal my secrets or anything but I think my mind sees patterns and then it acts like a super computer while I zone out, and it goes foom foom foom foom foom and connects the dots super fast and that's it. I don't even think and my brain just goes AUREKA in the morning and then I forget all about it after my morning coffee. And my next trick -- ahahah man you're gonna be the one who's always one step ahead now -- Is to laugh. Laugh about everything. This is so important...Laugh about the stupid stuff you do. Your mistakes. Other peoples mistakes. The big mistakes and all your regrets. It brightens up your day and it makes you look kinda cool riiiight? And everyone likes a cool guy. Plus, it makes you relaaaax kay? When you're relaxed, your brain is chill. And when you're chill in a crisis, you're one step ahead baby!!"

[chaoticxbeast]

"Can you puhleease stop spreading that crazy rumor about me being a psychic spy? It's scaring the children, the elderly AND the intellectually challenged but THEY STILL DESERVE THE TRUTH! Okay I zoned out once and said the time out loud down to the very micro second but that was just the one time! I was pretending! Plus guessing the time with my eyes blindfolded is part of my ninjutsu training but don't you think I'd be rich by now if I was like Professor X from the X men?"

[chaoticxbeast]

I have 13 notes in like 1 hour? how. holy..

[chaoticxbeast]

"Today's lesson is the introduction of the concept of balance. In Japanese, we say... Chowa. Balance. Leonardo might say, that balance is important to remain focused and calm. And he is correct. Emotional calm is the bliss of Chowa. However, there is more to Chowa than just focus and calm. Now. If you look at your hand. For those of you with five fingers, one hand is enough. For those with three fingers, you can use two hands. Imagine your life in your hand. Imagine that your work is your pinky finger. Rest and inner peace can be your thumb. Learning is the index finger. And relationships is another, and joy is another. Now. What if your life lacks learning. What happens to your hand? Well, one finger disappears. And without learning, you lose growth. Without growth, joy and work will start to shrink. Imagine how strange your hand will look and how difficult it will be to manouver our day, when important parts of us are missing. We are all complex beings. We all need many things in our life to feel Chowa. Things like joy, rest, work, friends and growth." The rat fell silent and glanced at his student. To see them study their hands deep in thought made his chest feel warm and whole, and his eyes softened with a faint smile. "So.. How are you keeping balance between the things that are important to you in your life?"

[chaoticxbeast]

Casey straightens up. He shoots her a confused grimace and puts his comic aside. "Wait. Are you worried about me? I've been fine! You know how it is, I roll with the flow. I'm used to going solo. Yeah, it's kinda quiet, I mean all the goons are wiped out, but I keep busy. His expression faded into mild concern, and then he grins, and pulls her hood down into her face. Even ruffles her fringe up for a second or two. "Don't look so serious. I always got stuff to do. And right now, I got lots of projects to work on in the garage! I actually needed this. I'm not bored. So don't worry okay?"

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Previous.

AU Masterpost

[chaoticxbeast]

"Kintsugi. Golden Repair. When you look at this broken cup, what does it remind you of?" The tall rats warm brown eyes curiously scanned the younger one before him. A small smile twitched upon his lips, and he held back the urge to pat the student on the head. "Something broken? Yes. And Donatello would perhaps say, that its structure is weaker than before. And he would be completely correct. The cup will fall apart if we are careless and pour boiling water into it. That's why we should know its limits." The rat turned the cup, to show its fragile handle. "Every kintsugi cup is unique, and must be handled with care. But how do we learn about the gentleness it deserves? We must be curious in a compassionate way. Because it's still a beautiful cup. Perhaps even more beautiful than the cup without scars. Perhaps the scars are like a proof of hardship that deserves respect. As you know...life may give us scars. But we can be strong again, with a bit of kind care. Even though the scars may make us more fragile, the experience defines us, and makes us wiser and more compassionate. Once, I cut my finger on this cup, but now I know where the sharp shard can be found. This is how it can be with people too. The ones with scars, can cut, if we are not gentle in our approach. That's why, it's so important to properly communicate our boundaries. Our needs. And to forgive and acknowledge that we all have scars and insecurities, that deserve respect."

[chaoticxbeast]

"You are gracious to want to help someone grow, but keep in mind, you cant do the work for them. They will only grow once they are willing to truly listen and to face themselves and see that they are both good and bad. Growth is painful. It hurts to look at the darker aspects of yourself, and pinpoint the parts of us we want to change. It hurts to see that we have ways about us that could even hurt someone else. But that is how life is for all of us. Everyone has faults, but that doesn't mean we are not kind. It doesn't mean we cant grow. Growth starts with truth. Honesty. Open communication and compassion. If our loved ones never tells us how they got hurt by us, we cant grow. So, honesty is a gift. But its only a gift if we choose to listen and hold their words with compassion towards the other person and towards ourself."

[chaoticxbeast]

"You know my dad wasn't a bad person all the time. He taught me how to fix cars which was awesome. But.. the most important lesson he taught me was that loneliness isn't only about empty rooms. Its about being shut out for telling someone how you feel."