Metamorphosis

Maliit. Mahilig magbasa. Pwede na ring maganda. Haters, xoxo  Nostalgic Dreamer(s)

[charcruxxx]

You,

Note: I’m doing this not to explain myself or to make you feel better. I’m doing this because I deserve to have peace. Sawa na akong magtanim ng galit sa mga tao, deserve ko maging malaya.

Galit ako sayo. If that’s not obvious enough then I don’t know what is. Lahat ng sakit naging galit nalang. Lahat ng kabullshitan naipon nalang. I really liked being your friend. I enjoyed your company. I really really really did. Kasi kung hindi, edi sana hindi ako nagbingi bingihan at nagbulag bulagan para sayo. Galit ako kasi sinira mo friendship natin. Hindi dahil nagustuhan mo ako or sa mga nangyari in between. Galit ako kasi pinaglaban kita, pinaglaban ko yung friendship natin tapos ganito. Isa lang naman hiling ko noon, WAG YUNG MGA KAIBIGAN KO. Alam kong di mo naman mapipigilan na nahulog ka sa kanila, plural pa puta. Ok na siguro kung isa eh pero yung pinagsabay, ang gago sobra. After ko, sila naman? O baka pinagsabay mo kaming 3? #SQUADGOALZ. Respeto lang naman hinihiling ko, sobrang hirap ba ibigay nun? Then things started to fall apart after that.

Lahat ng tiwala na binigay ko sayo bigla nalang nawala. Yung friendship natin parang inapakan mo eh. Naalala mo yung sinabi ko sayo na hindi ako naniniwala sa mga naririnig ko kasi mas gusto kong paniwalaan yung ikaw na nakilala ko? Hindi ko alam, pero parang ikaw nalang din yung gumawa ng paraan para maniwala ako sa kanila. It’s as if I don’t know you anymore, maybe I never really did. Maybe I was wrong for believing everything you said. I fucking trusted you. Tapos ganito. Masakit, sobra. Sayang, sobra. Siguro after reading this masasabi mo nanaman na I ruined your day. Ok lang, di na ako iiyak kung mabadtrip ka sakin o hindi. Kasi I’m done trying. I’m so done with all of these. Alin ba sa pinakita mo yung totoo? Alin dun yung moves mo lang para landiin ako? Naging magkaibigan ba talaga tayo? Kasi ako hindi ko na alam. Sobra akong nasaktan kasi sobra ako magpahalaga ng kaibigan, and I know that’s not your fault anymore. Siguro may mga bagay lang na hindi dapat, ansakit naman na kahit yung friendship natin hindi na maisalba.

Siguro I liked you kasi I thought we were both broken. Pero ako lang pala, ako lang nanaman. Sorry if I can’t say the same for you na sana mahanap mo yung makakapagpasaya sayo. Pero sana dumating yung time na kaya ko ulit maging masaya para sayo.

[charcruxxx]

Bakit pag kailangan kita saka ka nawawala bigla?

[charcruxxx]

LOST

Dumadating tayo sa punto na mapapatanong ka nalang sa sarili mo kung gusto mo pa ba yung ginagawa mo, kung gusto mo ba yung naging ikaw. Lately parang laging yun nalang natatanong ko sa sarili ko “masaya pa ba talaga ako o nagsesettle nalang ako sa kung anong nangyayari sa buhay ko?” 

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For whatever you’ve done or whoever you’ve been in your past, you are here now. Forgive yourself for anything and everything. It’s the first step in healing. If you forgive yourself, you will be okay.

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Maybe we’re all just looking for someone who cares enough to try. Someone who has never had the best memory, but remembers the little things about you. Someone who has always been a little shy, but opens up to you. Someone who has never been good at keeping a conversation going, but can’t shut up around you. Someone who hates driving on the highway, but spends hours on it to get to you. We’re not hoping to change them, no, we’re just hoping to matter enough to them.

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[charcruxxx]

I know I've moved on from you. But there are always moments wherein I'd remember those last weeks that I felt like shit. You made me feel like shit even though I reckon you don't know. You still do actually, sometimes, when the memories start to kick in. It's still vivid, every crushing moment as if it's yesterday and not years behind us. We could have been, you know? But you chose not to. I still wonder why it was easier for you to admit that it's not me anymore but always failed to confess that once upon a time it was me you'd choose.

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18th

Feeling ko kailangan ko na isulat to para mawala na. Nakakainggit lang yung ibang nag18 namay surprise ganun. Akala ko special yung araw na yun. Akala ko iba na yun sa ibang birthday ko. Pero ganun pa rin naman pala. Mataas lang siguro expectation ko sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Akala ko kasi kahit minsan lang, kahit isang beses lang mag eeffort din sila para sakin. Pero ganun talaga. Hindi ko naman sila masisisi kung hanggang dun nalang yung kaya nila. Wala eh. Ganun talaga. Umasa lang ako, at nasaktan.

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Naaalala ko dati usong uso yung “Online Check” tapos yung “Ask for Ask” tapos pinagtatalunan pa dati yung “Answer Privately”. Andaming issue tungkol sa mga poser noon, kadalasan kasi sila yung mga sikat noon. Magugulat ka nalang maingay sa dash kesyo poser si ganto poser si ganyan. Tapos yung sandamukal na meet-ups na ni-isa wala man lang akong napuntahan. Mga “kada” na ilan lang naman talaga yung tumagal. Tapos yung mga bangayan kesyo mas matagal na raw sila sa Tumblr at mga meme wars. Saya noh? Naalala ko lang naman.

[kushandwizdom]

Note to self

Embrace who you are Take ownership of your flaws Smile at closed doors Be happy just because Find the positives in the negative Remember to give But have no expectations to receive Don’t be too eager to please Stay unique At times you’ll feel weak For strength to be applied When required So hold you head high And keep in mind your why Remind yourself of your beauty Love yourself the way you should be Express thanks and gratitude daily Be committed and decisive Let go of your one day’s and maybe’s

Copyright © Future Poet February 2016 All rights reserved.

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Sa loob ng hindi ko alam kung ilang buwan o taon na tumigil akong magtumblr marami akong nadiskubre sa sarili ko. 

1. Pwede ka maging masaya kung pipiliin mo yung mga taong magpapasaya sayo imbes na yung mga taong magpapababa sayo

2. May tao na magpapatunay sayo na mali ka sa mga negatibong paniniwala mo. Sabi nga ng sikat ng tumblrista, ewan ko kung sikat pa rin sya ngayon, na ang 1 porsyentong tyansa ay tyansa pa rin. Maliit, pero posible.

3. Hindi mo ikamamatay ang hindi pagsulat.

4. Kapag gusto mong tumigil, ayos lang. Nagsulat ka para sa sarili mo at magsulat ka para sa sarili mo kung hanggang kelan mo man gusto.

5. Matuto kang mabuhay sa labas ng parisukat ng screen na ito. Hindi ginawa ang mundo para lang tumitig ka rito.

6. Maraming nagbago, maraming umalis, isa ka man sa mga iyon o isa ka sa mga nanatili, ang tumblr pa rin ang isa sa mga tahanan na pwedeng pwede mong balikan. Kaya wag mo idelete account mo.

7. Paborito ko pa rin pala ang kulay pink. Share lang.

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I stopped writing

The words inside me fled. My thoughts weren’t as exciting as before. I lost my sense of seeing the world from afar. But in turn, I got to live outside these words and thoughts. I breathed air instead of words. I suffocated from reality instead of my own thoughts. I stopped seeing the world, I felt it instead. I didn’t know when the ink inside of me dried. I didn’t know when I started putting down the pen and paper. I didn’t know when I started to stop. I didn’t mean to but I can’t say that I regret it. There is actually life outside, more than what I thought I surrendered my life to. I never regretted feeling the earth beneath me. I never regretted stopping. I never regretted anything from it, but it’s always nice to be back.

[tilly-and-her-books]

HI! HELLO! HOW YOU DOIN’?

Firstly…HOLY SHIT 20,000?! This is crazy. I started this blog because it was a place I could show my real love for books and somehow that love has continued to grow. Now I’m sharing that love with 20,000 people. 

Secondly….I also hit 600 subscribers on my book tubing channel which is astounding. Why do people want to watch me mumble, stutter and ramble on about books for minutes? I really don’t know but thank you!

Thirdly…THIS IS A GIVEAWAY. Hell yeah. I’m doing something big (sort of). I’m going to be giving one of these box sets. Harry Potter by J.K. Rowling and A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin (both in paperback).

The rules:

You don’t have to be following me but you’re totally missing out if you don’t. 

This is international and will be going through Book Depository (so please check that it delivers to you)

This will end June 1st 2015 (as I’m sure I’ll have enough money saved by then)

There will be one winner for now but if I have enough money saved I will make it two. 

The winner(s) will have 72 hours to get back to me and I will contact them through their ask box (so please have it open)

Likes and reblogs count

No giveaway blogs (I’m watching you!) 

Lastly…thank you for following me. I look at each and every one of you and consider you to be a part of my book army if I ever needed one. So thanks! 

[tilly-and-her-books]

HI! HELLO! HOW YOU DOIN’?

Firstly…HOLY SHIT 20,000?! This is crazy. I started this blog because it was a place I could show my real love for books and somehow that love has continued to grow. Now I’m sharing that love with 20,000 people. 

Secondly….I also hit 600 subscribers on my book tubing channel which is astounding. Why do people want to watch me mumble, stutter and ramble on about books for minutes? I really don’t know but thank you!

Thirdly…THIS IS A GIVEAWAY. Hell yeah. I’m doing something big (sort of). I’m going to be giving one of these box sets. Harry Potter by J.K. Rowling and A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin (both in paperback).

The rules:

You don’t have to be following me but you’re totally missing out if you don’t. 

This is international and will be going through Book Depository (so please check that it delivers to you)

This will end June 1st 2015 (as I’m sure I’ll have enough money saved by then)

There will be one winner for now but if I have enough money saved I will make it two. 

The winner(s) will have 72 hours to get back to me and I will contact them through their ask box (so please have it open)

Likes and reblogs count

No giveaway blogs (I’m watching you!) 

Lastly…thank you for following me. I look at each and every one of you and consider you to be a part of my book army if I ever needed one. So thanks! 

[tilly-and-her-books]

HI! HELLO! HOW YOU DOIN’?

Firstly…HOLY SHIT 20,000?! This is crazy. I started this blog because it was a place I could show my real love for books and somehow that love has continued to grow. Now I’m sharing that love with 20,000 people. 

Secondly….I also hit 600 subscribers on my book tubing channel which is astounding. Why do people want to watch me mumble, stutter and ramble on about books for minutes? I really don’t know but thank you!

Thirdly…THIS IS A GIVEAWAY. Hell yeah. I’m doing something big (sort of). I’m going to be giving one of these box sets. Harry Potter by J.K. Rowling and A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin (both in paperback).

The rules:

You don’t have to be following me but you’re totally missing out if you don’t. 

This is international and will be going through Book Depository (so please check that it delivers to you)

This will end June 1st 2015 (as I’m sure I’ll have enough money saved by then)

There will be one winner for now but if I have enough money saved I will make it two. 

The winner(s) will have 72 hours to get back to me and I will contact them through their ask box (so please have it open)

Likes and reblogs count

No giveaway blogs (I’m watching you!) 

Lastly…thank you for following me. I look at each and every one of you and consider you to be a part of my book army if I ever needed one. So thanks!