Summary- one day your whole world turns upside down and where will your lives go from here
Warnings- Brest feeding , teen pregnancy, quotes and references to how to lose a guy in 10 days. Not proof read so let me know if major errors
A/N- please note this story is only for entertainment and not in anyway linked to what real life people mentioned in this story may do or how they may act!
I sat in the back of mums car motionless as I looked at the little living thing sitting in the car seat next to me. I still couldn’t believe that this thing came out of me. She was a piece of me and… him.
It’s also far worse because she’s not an ugly baby , so it’s even harder to not like her just a little. She was kinda cute with her little gurgles and the way she looked up at me like she didn’t care about anyone else.
Mums voice broke me out of my trance
“ so I got you some things, needed to stock up if she’s gonna be around for awhile” she spoke looking at me through the car mirror.
“Mum don’t tell me you went all out she’s not staying “
“ sweetie I think you really need to think about this, this is a big decision I want you to really think about this. I’m going to be here for you, you don’t have to worry about the support I want this to be your decision”
“ I just need time” I spoke
“ I know sweetie but I really think we should also involve the father , doesn’t he have a right to know”
And she did. I knew this was a big decision and my daughter’s little face was not helping me. I also knew that her dad had a right to know, but how are you meant to tell a 17 year old he was a father. Particularly one you hadn’t spoken to since you slept with him. Like what should you say ‘hey long time no see…… so you’re now a daddy’
We had pulled up to the house and unbuckled myself along with removing the little things from the car. Once I arrived in my room I realised that it was actually no longer my room.
My mum had brought a bassinet winch sat next to my bed, there was a changing table , boxes upon boxes of diapers, and a massive tub of clothes all pink or white.
Little dresses, little onesies , little socks ….. it’s all to much!
“ you happy?” I looked at the little baby in my arms
“ you have taken over my room and my life” I joked
I placed her down inside of the bassinet before going back down to the kitchen. But upon arrival I was met by loud screams, screams that made your body shiver.
How can one little things make that much noise?
My mum came running down the hallway
“ you can’t leave her alone y/n” she made her way into my room.
I slowly followed after her, stopping to lean against my door watching while she bounced my daughter in her arms.
“ I think she’s hungry “ she looked at me
So feed her I thought….. until I realised.
“No way I’m not doing that”
“ you have to, it’s part of being her mother”
“ well how did they feed her at the hospital?” I asked
“ that was only because of the state you were in, but now you have to at least give It a try.” She looked longingly at me .
“ I promise it’s not as bad as you think”
I really didn’t like the thought of it. But I really didn’t like the sound of her cries either.
So I walked over and sat on the edge of my bed
“ well tell me what to do then” I sighed
I unbuttoned the buttons on my shirt until I was left exposed.
“ here hold her like they showed you in the hospital” my mum placed her in my arms.
“ now face her to your chest and place her level to it.” I did as she told me.
“ then touch it to her lip and she what she does” I slowly did so adjusting her hoping she would latch and like magic she did.
“ wow she’s a fast learner you didn’t latch that fast” my mum laughed
It felt weird like something I had never felt before. But I wasn’t grossed out, I was kind of in awe at the fact my body could do this.
My mum looked up at me “ you’ll need to name her you know, we can’t keep calling her , her”
Naming her felt very personal, it felt like something I could only do if I was keeping her, but I knew mum was right.
“Ok but it’s only temporary you know ” I nodded back at her
My mum only smiled before leaving the room, leaving me with my daughter attached to my chest. There’s nothing bad about her she’s so perfect and she’s mine. But I knew I couldn’t want her.
It was now far later in the day I sat in my bed, all the lights off my room now only illuminated by the TV. Next to me lay my daughter in her bassinet staring at the ceiling.
I scrolled through looking for something to watch because there was no way I was ready to sleep yet. Eventually I decided on my all time favourite , the classic ‘ How to lose a guy in 10 days’.
As the movie began to play I noticed the movement of my daughter in the bassinet and her quiet gurgles which were now growing louder and louder.
Sighing I sat up and looked into the bassinet.
“ hey what’s wrong?” I whispered leaning and picking her up holding her in my arms.
“ what’s wrong huh?” I slowly began to sway her in my arms, until eventually she calmed down and just stayed gazing up at me.
She really did make me feel soft, I have never felt such mixed feelings for a person before.
“Hmm I guess you really do need a name , don’t you?” I smiled at her , stroking her check
“ let’s see, Emma?” I suggested like she was going to reply
“ No… Lola? “ I suggested again. She dosent look like a Lola
“ Andie it’s brilliant “ the TV spoke as the movie continued to play. I looked at the TV and then down at the baby in my hands
“Andie, you like that baby” I smiled at her. To me it was perfect my favourite character and my little girl having the same name.
“ I think we just found your name” I grinned. How could something be so beautiful and so prefect. It began to make me think maybe this could work, maybe I could do this, maybe I wanted to do this….. I want to do this.
I lifted myself off the bed still with Andie in my arms walking toward the door of my mums room. She sat in bed reading her book with the night light illuminating her room.
She looked up at me as I walked in putting her book down for a second.
“ Andie, I named her Andie” I smiled moving to sit in the bed next to her.
“ oh it’s beautiful” she looked down to stroke Andies head. “ it suits her” she pulled my head closer and kissed the top of it.
“ hmm “ she hummed still looking at her granddaughter
“ I think I want to keep her” her head rose and she looked at me
“ yeah I think I do, if I have you i think I’ll be fine”
“ of course you have me” she smiled. “ you’re going to be a amazing mum “ she pulled us both closer towards her.
I had decided to go back to my room and finish the film. Andie settlers in her bassinet, my mum asleep and just me in the dark. Before my phone vibrates on the night stand and the light fills the room.
I groan leaning over to see what’s on my screen. But become frozen as I see the message before me.
Lando Norris ( don’t message )
A/N- SO SORRY if you don’t like the name! You can just change it in your head, hope that’s ok.
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