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I can't believe I'm in Toronto.

... I'm starting to think I've been stood up at the airport. Or Gus has broken down already. I feel so strange. Hurry up Jules. I need normalcy.

Still doubt that. I hurt a lot of people along the way. I can totally say that I regret it now, but there’s no fixing the past. I thought that I was hot shit; I was stupid. Glad she kept you updated. I haven’t talked to her in ages, actually. It’ll always be there. Some things never change. But, I can now keep myself alive by thinking one thing- at least it’s not as bad as Nate. What are you saying? ‘Course I’ll be in the same shape as my dad. Maybe better, who know. We’ll just have to wait like thirty years. Trust me, when I got the first picture, I was freaked out. Oh, uh no. I’ve had a girlfriend here and there over the past few years, but nothing big. I think the last girl was… Tessa, I think. I broke up with her a bit before graduation. What about you? Someone rich and famous, also like we all expect?

You have a degree that says otherwise. Read it when you need reminding :P - Do you know what you want to do with it? Well it's in the past now. We were all kids, bound to screw up along the way right? I made my share of mistakes back then too. Well. You were kinda hot, at one point there. Maybe. She came to one of my shows a couple of months ago. She's still Ella. :) Strong, independent and always taking care of people. Nate Coyne - looks like Toronto won't know what hit it, with you two living under the same roof. I'm scared for the people. I haven't talked to him in forever. I got pretty mad, when I found out he was keeping your secrets for you. I'll make sure to call you in 30 years so you can send me a picture of yourself and we'll decide then, Milligan. Maybe some of your charm rubbed off on him after all? It was bound to happen right? Tessa you think? Ouch. I see that you haven't changed too much. Uh yeah, there was a guy. He's an actor. He was on that Glee - the second generation show or whatever. His name was Chord. We weren't really right for each other. I dated him a lot longer than I should have. It was long distance, mostly. When he proposed - I knew it wasn't right and we ended things. He wanted something I couldn't give him.

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Got that right. Kinesiology. I barely passed all of my classes, but I graduated, so I’m proud. Everyone knew, anyways. I was kind of hoping on one of you guys called. Ella did, though. It’s all part of the legacy. ;) Mom’s fine, Dad still looks like he’s in his thirties, and Keegan ended up being himself. He’s going to the University of Southern California for video game design, being the same dork as always. And he has this super hot girlfriend named Molli. Don’t ask me how.

I'm proud of you. I always knew you could do it. There was always more to you, than football. I'm sorry. It just...I got hurt by it all as well, I guess. I just didn't know what to say. I got scared and you... I didn't think you would want me to call. You sort of made a pretty huge deal out of pushing me away in the end. I'm glad Ella was there for you. She sort of, kept me updated. The legacy huh ;) I see that your ego is still, very much in tact! Now you just gotta hope you look that good, when you're his age.Super hot girlfriend named Molli? Well there's something I didn't expect. Good for him though...How about you? Girlfriend? ...Wife? Geez we're old enough to ask that question - I feel so...adult. When did that happen?

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Doesn’t surprise me at all. We all knew that’s where you were headed. Penn State was a ride. Couldn’t play football freshman year, but once things were sort of normal and I got a few physical evaluations done, I was back on the field. Now, I’m back in Toronto, visiting Mom, Dad, Keegan. Don’t know where I’m going after there, definitely not to Pennsylvania again.

Thanks. Nice to know that I had people who believed in me. :) What did you end up majoring in? Something sports related? I heard about...all of that. I'm sorry. When I found out, I wanted to call and check on you, but I figured you didn't want me to know...so. You're Rory Milligan - nothing could keep you down for long :) I'm glad it all worked out. How is the family? What did Keegan get up to? Not a fan of Pennsylvania then?

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Yeah. It’s really been a while. I guess… how’s everything been?

It's been good. Living the dream, so what's to complain about right? Between shows at the moment so, I'm flying back to Toronto this afternoon, for the summer. I'm based in New York most of the time. Broadway, you know? How about you Rory? How was Penn State? Where are you based, these days?

Hi...? It's been...awhile?

#it is.#so awkward.

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A suit might not change the fact that I’d still be referred to as a bridesmaids repeatedly through your engagement. But thirty? Really? Make it forty and you’ve got yourself a deal. I’m way too close to thirty now to believe that it’s some insane age not to be married by. Chord also used to send me death glares and text messages like, ‘Im watching u.’ Though you’d never believe me. He hated me almost as much as Felicity hated you. You said something about him not being around a lot and the sex being good. After all that press drama and nonsense they went through in high school? Yeah, they deserve their happy fairy tale ending. Talk about the perfect fucking couple. I’m pretty glad Aaron has been in and out of my life, actually. Seeing them make out every five minutes is something I’m glad I don’t have to endure. Sometimes I wonder who hated who more — you or Felicity. I agree, I turned 19 years ago and yet I haven’t been into a Toronto bar or club legally yet. Come later in the afternoon, we’ll plan something. You and assholes. It’s like you didn’t learn in high school which guys to pick and choose from. Don’t I make everything sound depressing? Sure, or something. It’s fine. He’s not being a bother… Yet. He’s right, it’s not high school.

Forty and done, are we really close to thirty? No. Surely not. STOP IT. Chord was...weird. So weird. I don't even know. Yeah that sounds like me. I'm just too busy for real relationships. Besides he wasn't the guy for me. I don't even know if there is a guy for me. Maybe I'm just looking for the impossible, you know? I have ridiculously high expectations. Didn't they have a baby??? Cute kid. They were big on PDA weren't they? I still can't believe they met at my NYE party. Talk about a crazy night. It was...I have no idea. Mutual. If you ever go out with someone that stupid again, I may have to hurt you. Deal. I'm booking my flight now. The guys in high school weren't that bad. I mean, Rory was - we were complicated. He was just an asshole to everybody else. Me he just...broke my heart. I don't know. I don't care. YES YOU DO. STOP MAKING STUFF SOUND DEPRESSING JULES. So. Gonna make out with Valli again? I can't believe he's a doctor. Let's not get drunk and end up in emergency okay? WHY IS RORY MILLIGAN ON MY DASH?

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#superlocked #thoughts

rory--milligan started following you

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My laughter is manly, even when I’m drunk, thank you very much. Now stop saying otherwise. She’s probably run down the isle, throw her bouquet of flowers at me and then proceed to strangle me. I only hope that you’d stop laughing to save my life. And I’m sorry, but I’m getting this out now… I’m never going to be your bridesmaid. Way too embarrassing. Unless you’re willing to be a groomsman for me. His name is Cameron and I’m pretty sure he’s said you’re cute, too. Don’t even go there, though. Last thing I want is for my friends to make hanging out a chore as I third wheel it. Aaron — god, that asshole. Coming in and out of my life for the last four years, doing who knows what anymore. Wonder where his art has taken him now. A nympho? You don’t think that’s a little drastic? I mean, yeah, she liked sex, wanted it often and she was good at it, but a nympho? I don’t know — whatever. I will never forget the night you called her out at a club and had her in hysterics, screaming and crying. So bad. So, so bad. Pretty sure we went to a bar and I bought us a ‘free of douchebaggery’ round of drinks, ha. Good times. Don’t even. The only reason why people ask about me is because of all your fame! Nice to know I’m still being called a weirdo though. Some things never change, you’re right. Yeah, forever alone together! Woo hoo! Oh, don’t even go there.

Hehehehehe. Whatever you say Jules. I would eventually stop laughing I think. I hope. Maybe I'd catch myself before she killed you. You are my best friend after all. Fine. I'll dress you in a nice suit; deal? Though I'm still holding you to our marriage deal. If we're both forever alone at 30, we're getting married, Goldsworthy. Like it or not. Cameron thinks I'm cute? Aw. You know that Chord used to say he felt like a third wheel when he hung out with us? Why did I date him again? Aaron Nunez - I miss him. I'm so glad that he and Jenny are still together. They are perfect! Not drastic. I can think of even better words to describe her Julian and you know it. It's not my fault she was an attention seeking- Okay. Stopping. I'm calm. You know you were on my side - I could tell. Good, good times. We need to get drunk again. Maybe, "Yay we're in Toronto" drunkeness - seeing old classmates again we might need it. I like that "weirdo" - and I wouldn't have him any other way. I'd prouder to have you being called my boyfriend than any of the other assholes I've been linked with over the years. You make it sound so much more depressing than it was in my head. He seems like he's trying?

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Shut it. High school was so long ago, it might as well just be irrelevant in a grand scheme of things. Since when do I giggle and care for what people are wearing? Will you let me get Everleigh angry by being the one who jokingly objects mid-ceremony? Because then, yes, we can go. Also, I would love to see Valli in an ugly dress, hating her life as maid of honor. Another reason why I’m said ‘Mystery Man.’ Because your goddamn cast and crew think we’re dating after every show, too. It’s true, they’re not. They’re worn out university kids who work at coffee shops or thirty/forty year olds who work as editors are very pretentious. Why did I break up with Anastasia? I can’t even remember. End of sophomore year at NYU — it’s all a haze. Felicity, just… I don’t know. She was… pretty. And I guess that’s all I wanted junior year. Hey, hey, hey! That was totally a cough. Not a sigh of relief. Pff, I was totally in support of that relationship. (Just kidding, I hated his guts and when you said it was over, I won’t lie, I did a happy dance). Talk about people who aren’t our type. Them and everyone we know in New York City. Do you know how hard it is to snag a date with you around? If I hear, ‘aren’t you dating that Broadway girl?’ one more time, I think I might just revert back to my forever-alone-with-Bernadette days.

High School...Yep. We can forget it. You giggle when you're drunk and you know it. ;) Sorry lovely. Oh god. I think we would see smoke come out of her ears! Could you picture it? She would hit you, mid ceremony or something! Yay we can go. I just want to see the ugly bridesmaid dresses too. Don't worry, I'll make yours attractive when I eventually get married Jules. It's probably 20 years away. ;) Hey - it's not my fault okay? People just don't understand our friendship. I think the guy behind the counter at that coffee shop you play at is cute. What's his name again? He's always so sweet. Reminds me of Aaron. Felicity was a high maintenance pain in the ass - who just so happened to be hot, into yoga - a groupie and a nympho. Let's be real. Happy Dance is an understatement, I'm pretty sure we went out and celebrated. So many not our type's. This is why I spend all my free time with you - and hey I don't exactly get dates with you around either. "Aren't you with that weird writer dude?" and "What's it like dating somebody who isn't in the business, Charlotte?" You won't be forever alone, Jules - be optimistic. I mean, we can at least be forever alone, together? You and Nate Coyne......LOL

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I have no idea what you’re talking about… Anyway, I doubt I’ll meet him or get an invite. She seems off, like she doesn’t really feel like talking to me. Very un-Everleigh, if you will. Maybe we can crash it? I do have friends besides you! What do you think I do when you’re at rehearsals and cast parties and all that good stuff? Of course, there’s really only like, two or three of ‘em, but they’re there. You make it sound like I had dozens of girlfriends. It was only Anastasia and Felicity. Anastasia was a little iffy about it, she didn’t hate you, though. Felicity… Well, let’s just not go there, yeah? Good thing your douchebag — oops, I meant boyfriend — lived on the other side of the country. What reputation is that?

I bet you don't. Tsk Tsk Tsk. ;) If that's your story...So weird. People change though? I mean, maybe you guys just not to get reacquainted, if you will. :P. CAN WE CRASH IT? I always wanted to crash somebody's wedding! We can get drunk and giggle in the corner and laugh at people's outfits/hope the bride doesn't run away. I wonder what Valli will wear. You think Everleigh's the type to dress the bridesmaids ugly like? You mean when I'm not calling you to rescue me from said, cast parties - because directors get drunk and grabby? I know, I know - you have other friends. They're just not as cool as I am. Anastasia was cute; I liked her, why did you break up with her again? Felicity...I think I agreed to never speak of her again, didn't I? She was...interesting? Not our type, Jules. Not our type. Douchebag, has a name ;P Chord remember? We both know how you felt about him. I still remember the day I called you with "He proposed!" and the silence, before I answered with "I said no!" and then the sigh of relief that you tried to cover not so subtly with a cough. The mystery man rep. If they saw those texts - you would definitley not be a mystery man. They might even think we were secretly married!

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My two close childhood friends who never really seemed to like me? Joy. Can you believe it, though? Everleigh Torres is engaged. That will never not be shocking. Even on her wedding day, it will still surprise me. I don’t know, she said something about wanting to ‘get in close for the picture’ and I just… let it happen. It’s Grace Thompson. You don’t question, you just listen. I wouldn’t even know how to explain those texts to my NYU friends, let alone the tabloids and thousands of strangers. Keep that phone near and dear, Haig.

...Are you kidding? That's a joke right? Do you seriously not remember high school? You were like King of the Love Square/Rectangle plus 1, thing! Yeah I never thought I would see the day. Wonder the guy is like? Can I be your date? I just really have to see that. For real. If you get an invite...which I would assume you would. ;) Yeah I've played that move. At least, you seemed to be able to control yourself better than you could in high school. ;) You have friends besides me? :P Yeah I think your girlfriends got slightly weird about me. I can't imagine why. The phone is locked, secure and on me at all times, Goldsworthy. Don't you stress. Your reputation is in tact.

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Remember when, Char? Remember when? ;)

The picture that nearly caused me to go into cardiac arrest ;) I remember it well. She's so pretty though. Aw.

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I so would.

You know I’m the first one to admit how fucking terrible my first year at NYU was. I knew literally not a single person, was living alone, couldn’t find a job. But then you came around the following year and things definitely got better. You pushed me to be social as always. Some things never change. I was perfectly fine! I had run into Grace before, everything was a-okay. I remember not getting to a phone before the picture of us at the lunch date went up on some social networking site, though and you freaked. ‘What is she doing in your lap? CALL ME, ASAP!’ Those are text messages I’m sure the tabloids would have twisted, along with everything else we do. God forbid you have a not so famous best friend, huh?

Wearing jeans AND my oldest shirt.

I remember a dream you had in your senior year that we weren't friends - told you it would never happen, Goldsworthy. Some things really don't change huh. Valli...Everleigh - Looks like it might be an interesting summer, Jules. Hey, I'm protective okay? I still don't fully grasp why she had to be in your lap either, Julian Goldsworthy. I don't sit in my friends laps - well unless there's no where else to sit and it's you. But that's different. Thank god, my phone has never been hacked. Could you imagine? "Can't sleep. Let me in, I need cuddles" Not exactly typical behavior. I wouldn't have it any other way. :)

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Won’t be so funny when I ask you to hold something and your shirt gets drenched in oil like it did last time, though, huh? ;)

I didn’t get what you were doing. All you said was, ‘Hold out your hand.’ And then you spit in it. Somehow, I wasn’t phased though. I remember just looking at my hand and thinking that I wasn’t as displeased with it as I should have been. Anyway, it’s not my fault suddenly Rory Milligan is back in our lives in some twisted way or the pact would have still been standing. Yes, I am very aware of the years I spent pining over her. Remember when I told you about that lunch date? You begged me not to go. ‘Julian Goldsworthy, if you come back and are all head over heels for Grace Thompson again, you can kiss my friendship goodbye, because I am not sitting through that again!’ Good stuff. I feel honored to be on that list — even above Broadway. Don’t let the critics/tabloids hear though. I’m pretty tired of getting called ‘Charlotte Haig’s Mystery Man’ repeatedly when we go out for midnight ice cream.

You wouldn't ..... - No, you would. ;)

Aw. <3 You know you're best friends when you can spit in someone's hand and have it be alright ;) It's because I was in New York and back in your life - and admit it Goldsworthy, your life just wasn't the same that first year, without me! That day was so horrible. I thought you were going to call me - fully prepared to attempt to jump off the Empire State Building. Thankfully you proved me wrong. Guess life after high school puts everything into perspective huh? Of course you're above Broadway. Who held my hand through all the horrible auditions huh? Yeah...gotta love the tabloids. Imagine what they'll call you now that I'm "flying to Toronto" to be with my on again/off again mystery boyfriend ;)

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I can pick you up. Want to hear something shocking? My parents still haven’t sold Augustus. And he’s still (barely) running. It’ll be just like old times with that goddamn red truck. We’ll probably have to stop so I can fix the engine on our way back from the airport.

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, it’s been — what — four years since we made that pact? And up until now, I’ve kept to it. I have no idea how to help you there. Grace and I only ran into each other a handful amount of times in New York and every time was civil as could be. There was even a lunch date. Maybe Rory will take you out to lunch. Who knows what the guy is like now? Either way, I’m fine without him in my life, not going to try to hide that.

Aw Gus. I don't know if I'm more scared or excited. ;) So many adventures! I'll make sure I wear jeans in case I have to sit by the side of the road and laugh at you! <3

I can't even remember how long it's been. Weren't we drunk at the time.? I'm pretty sure that was my first night out in New York :P I just remember spitting in your hand and you being like 'That's disgusting' but you still spat in mine and we shook on it and it was supposed to have never been brought up ever again. Oh the shame. ;) Remember when you were convinced you two would end up together? Aw. I don't even think I'd want to have lunch with Rory. I mean - he's probably never thought twice about me. Just another notch. Who knows. I'm fine without him too. I have you and my career - and pizza. Who needs anything else?

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