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fumble my humble troumble!

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paper mario but i ball him up and eat him

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snacking away makes me punch my penis into submission this is fact checked by me!

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one day a banana will smoothy things over with me

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im starting to think im just running out of steam on all of my creative ambitions but i dont know if that'll mean i'll stop chugging soon or if its going to be something where i try and find new meaning even if it isnt absolutely what i want to be putting my focus into. stagnation is really a bitch and no im not talking about stag beetle nation those guys are cool im just more worried that im just going to be dragging my feet in the mud over every little idea that requires a modicum of effort. i did a lot of work over this month on """"""""""""art"""""""""" if editing pictures of my friends cat can be considered that but ultimately i think im just burnt out on everything.

i really wish i posted more on here but honestly it would get repetitive just going over the same shit i always do. i now hate my ex, i have dysphoria over everything about myself, my relationships and whatnot with the people currently in my life are so strange and i feel like ive just made so little process in bettering myself. instead going back on old habits time and time again, swearing this time its different. swearing this time im not getting in over my head. i know ive changed, i know ive become better, but ive also became worse in some aspects. i truly am pathetic but honestly if i were to wallow in it any longer i fear thats all i'll be able to do for quite awhile. god that sounds gay as fuck lmao i haaaaaate emotions oh my god. either way im doing okayish, i think my lack of sleep has been catching up to me. I suuuuck at taking care of myself but that'll change, just like everything right now it will change, i will eventually pull myself up, just yknow. gotta actually get the feeling to. fuck my ex btw i hate him sorry i keep bringing him up but he has been p ming me the o off lately. that's a little incomprehensible but if you follow this blog you are used to this. im fucking done with minecraft though dude holy shit ive been playing it almost daily for the last month i think thats the real reason ive just been feeling nothing but shitty these last couple of weeks. oh right the image here one sec uhhhhhhhh on pc typing this out so lemme see what i have here

does anyone who's friends with me even know about 8 bit theater or is this something i grew up on that even the people pushing 30 in the crowd dont know anything about

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what is a salad says the burger? lettuce see!~ google how to make women want me in a way that is satisfying for both parties. thank you. one more from the drafts rq cause i like havent posted all may soon i will be a cup stacking legernd, i can stack so high and fly to many locations in the sky. if i were in trouble you can count on me to stack on the double. ???

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sometimes i jerk off in the broom closet and people don't know 'til i'm gone

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buy one get one being shortened to BOGO is really funmy to me

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its very quiet in my house at the moment and im pretty much alone with my thoughts so this one really isnt anything serious im doing alright enough as of late.

but yeah hi! i think mostly why im writing currently is to hopefully distract from me thinking about mortality which is an ever present issue that keeps popping up for me. its just scary cant really say much else on it.

after like 8 months? (wow) i finally opened my ex's dms for the first time to kinda just remind myself that yknow it was always that bad and ive been doing myself a favor for finally being my own person. and like yeah it worked, im like still in awe it got that bad but hey learning lesson right there.

especially since too he very clearly has a lot more anxiety and paranoia about me than i do him at this rate but i dont really just wanna complain about my ex constantly on this blog especially since too there id say at least a 30% chance he is occasionally stalking it.

I honestly do hope he's doing well it makes me sick to think about him for too long but like i really hope he does move on with his life in a productive way.

tomodachi life is insanely good bee tee dubs, fuckin adore that game.

im very happy to have all of you people in my lives, yes all of you that actually read these and some of you that dont! even if there have been some hiccups i do feel like im starting to get back the time i was robbed by my ex.

man i said i wasnt gonna make this about him but like bleh bleh bleh.

i do really feel bad though cause i do think im hard to approach to a lot of people because again im such a fuckup and i will just forget to reply or i will think i replied to someone when in reality i didnt but im trying and i love my friends i just actually fucking suck at it!!!

uhh lets see here i got 15 minutes left on the food im cooking and i really should end this post its probably my longest yet. lemme see what image is going on this one to indicate that this is a semi serious post

fucking i guess bro have this on the end. whatever there was too much other shit i didnt wanna use in my gallery rn

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epic derp my celery sticks

hi yeah this another draft one. do i just off myself at this point what the fuck is going on

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the elderly 73 year old balding male mage with a prestigious position in society: "Thou shall not lick my pussy"

im a heretic baybe

hi this is me after having this sit in my drafts for about a month, and yes i actually have some of these in drafts.

i dont know what i was going for but look i know what you're thinking now. "why the fuck do i even look at this blog?"

and honestly i dont know why you do either but thanks for stopping by i guess?

since im already down here as well i will say things are getting a little better? still not great and id rather not get into it but yeah.

i think a lot of whats been going good for me recently are temporary solutions though that im unsure how exactly to resolve properly but yeah.

also i just woke up so good morning

mitch digger dokapon skype thing i made and that i will provide 0 context for

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did you know a chili cheese dog can feed a family of two?

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if anyone here has contacts with M. Beast I would greatly appreciate it cause i've got some really cool ideas for videos that i wanna see done but do not want any involvement in and just want money.

example:

last to leave the goop.

100 slime vs 100 goop

24 hour chud market

i built a big 2 dollar bill

hide and seek but we tied karl jacobs to the roof of my car

is karl even still apart of mr beast anymore i never liked him.

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yes i fucked the spongecake next question

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twin we bounce off each other like 2 fat guys in a boxing ring

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the foot pornography porn post got 0 notes in 22 hours so im making it everyone else's problem.

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i like my eggs sunny side up.

and the side? heh.

foot pornography