So ... What's Different This Time?
I've got 2 weeks to go until I race the Napa Marathon. It's leading me to think more and more about the race and race day.
Most pointedly, leading me to think about my goals for the day. Yes, I want a time that qualifies me for Boston, but March 3 is about more than that objective. Not to be arrogant, because I know I shouldn't take this fitness for granted, but my Vegas race qualified me for Boston 2014 (at least at the "entry-level" / minimum qualy time).
Napa is about pushing the envelope. I believe I can PR at 41. I believe I can break 3 hours and thus break through "180" minutes. I've had 2 races where arguably, I had a realistic shot at breaking 3 hours. CIM 2009, my PR, and Vegas 2012. Those yielded 3:04 and 3:12.
So the question I'm faced with is "What's different this time?"
I've been training hard for the past 7 weeks. When you are training, you are focused on the next week of training (how many miles this week?), or the hard days for that week (Tempo? Track? Long?), or the next mile of a tempo run or the next repeat on the track. Focus, focus ... focus. It's easy to get lost in it. When things are going well, you feed off the results of great workouts and positive feedback. It can be so intoxicating that you forgot where you are trying to go -- the Target Race.
I had a great run of training last fall. It culminated in 2 amazing races: New Orleans Half-Marathon and Clarksburg 20 miler. Yet in Vegas, I didn't deliver. The gnawing sensation is that "Sure, you can do it in training, but can you deliver when the goods are on the line?" I had a great half-marathon 2 weeks ago at Kaiser, followed by a great long run the following Sunday. And yet in my head ....
"What's different this time?"
Leading up to Vegas, I was enamored with my prep race results. I achieved 2 age group wins and that success was intoxicating - combined with the actual race times (2+ minute PR in 1/2 marathon). Part of me also worried that "Okay, you had these great races, but that was not the target race?" What happens if you fail in the target race?
When I ran a 1:25 at Kaiser, I was pleased, but not ecstatic. Mentally, I didn't "sell out" in a Radke-fashion, the same way I did in the 2012 races where I just flat out went for it in the last 2-3 miles.
I didn't get to the race line in Vegas at 100%. After Clarksburg, I had a really hard workout with a training partner the following weekend. There was some tightness in my right hip; nothing major, but I knew it was there. Mentally or otherwise, I started to feel it in my left hip / abductor / psoas as well. I didn't know how to address it. I've felt a little bit this time on my right side, but nothing as severe. I'm focused on stretching it out nearly everyday. I've got some massage scheduled; it will be ready.
The course will be different. Vegas was a total disaster for trying to PR. Running the second half of a marathon in the dark is a BAD idea. Full Stop. I know that Napa has some rolling hills and "is not CIM" according to one training partner, it can't be as bad as Vegas. Biggest worry is that there is a late NorCal Winter storm with tons of rain (knock on wood!). Barring that, I'm confident I can roll with this course.
The race tactics will be different. At CIM 2009, I don't know how sound my plan was, but the splits were aggressive & early. At Vegas, I was thinking 1:27 or 1:28 on the front-half and then roll the dice. I genuinely believed I could have an outrageous breakthrough (2:55? 2:56?) due to the fantastic fall I had experienced. Both times I had miles below 6:45 in the first 3-4 miles; even below 6:40.
This time, I'm going out conservative for 3 miles to get my arms around the race: 7:15, 7:00 & 7:00. That results in :39 deficit to run 2:59:59. Over 23 miles, I believe I can get that back.
The goal: Get to mile 20 and still have fight in the legs. If I have fight in the legs, the brain can take over. This is less of a "Hero" strategy and more of a "Get it Done" strategy. I swung big in Vegas and it faltered resulting in a big miss of 3:12 (still my 3rd fastest time ever, so an awesome accomplishment, just not reflective of my fitness during that period).
"What's different this time?"
Lastly, I'm different. Every race you run, changes you. If you are smart, you learn from each experience. I can argue that I failed at Vegas in December and that failure didn't cripple me.
I bounced back and have had an awesome 7-8 weeks of training with some real fire-breathing studs. I think the benefits of being battle tested matter. Your brain knows what pain feels like and does not "flee." It has a chance to make a conscious decision about how much you want to suffer.
I wrote in the fall about the mental breakthrough I had experienced. My ability to push through when challenged has been altered. At America's Finest last year, I did not rise to the challenge. The hill to Balboa Park was better than I was. Since that race, I've been stronger; tougher and more ready to fight. I'm ready to #DestroyFear #DestroyPain #DestroyDoubt and Run Reckless.
On March 3, 2013, I'm prepared to suffer. I really, really want this. I feel like I've been close before, but for whatever reason was not ready. I've been chasing 180 for 17+ years. For most of that time, I had no prayer. For awhile in the early 2000s, I never thought I'd make Boston. I achieved that goal. Now the bar has been raised. I've worked my ass off and I'm ready to break through. I ask Brad Radke for a blessing on March 3.
In 2 weeks we will find out, what's different this time ...