Chasing Chase

"Little boys should never be sent to bed. They always wake up a day older." - Peter Pan This is my blog about my day-to-day life with my sweet baby boy, Chase, as he grows up on me way too quickly.

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You Won't Remember, But I Will

I absolutely love this post. 

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I am so in love with this baby boy of mine. I always said I couldn't imagine having him here at home, and now that he's here, I know that even if I could have, it wouldn't have been accurate. There is no feeling like the feeling of being a mommy. My heart is so full of love for this tiny little person, and I just can't imagine loving him any more, but I do every single day. He is my whole world.

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Life Lesson #55

Be yourself, but be your best self.

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Dear Chase,

Well, we've reached 36 weeks as of today. Hard to believe it's gone by so fast. It's hard to believe you'll be here so soon. Four weeks isn't a long time, even though it feels like it is. I just want you to know, I'm looking forward to being your momma. I love you so much already, I can't imagine loving you more. But I will.

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I can't wait to have Chase. I'm getting so excited and anxious. I'm so ready for him to be here.

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So far Chase is still holding out in there. We'll see how much longer he waits on making his appearance.

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What happened yesterday and today

Started feeling contractions.

Was sent to L&D by my OB.

Got monitored and my contractions got to where they were 2-6 minutes apart, and lasting about 60-70 seconds.

Got fluids because I was dehydrated.

Got a shot to make the contractions stop, which made me feel so jittery my whole body was shaking and my heart was racing. Which they warned me would happen, but it happened more than I was expecting it to. 

Got a steroids shot to help Chase's lungs develop. 

Had to pee every ten minutes.

The stupid blood pressure cuff kept going off and beeping, because my blood pressure always runs a little on the low side, so of course it picked that up. And it wouldn't stop going off, so eventually the nurse just unhooked it so I could try to get some rest.

Got two pills to try to help me sleep, but they never kicked in. I got about an hour or an hour and a half total. 

Took a pill to help keep my contractions away every six hours.

Got an ultrasound today.

Everyone is thinking Chase will be early, although my doctor himself wouldn't come right out and say that. But he was tap dancing around it. The nurses did say they think he will be early, and that's why they gave me the shots for his lungs.

Doctor basically put me on bed rest, said he only wanted me up to pee and to shower.

Got a second steroids shot for his lungs around 11 AM and came home. 

That was my last couple of days in a nutshell. 

We'll see what Chase has planned in regards to coming early! I'm just hoping we will go at least until 35 weeks so I can deliver at my hospital here and not get transferred an hour away. 

I also hope and pray that if he is going to come early, his lungs, heart, brain, insert all other organs here, are developed properly and he is healthy and a healthy weight. 

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46 days until my due date! Getting so close!

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Dear Chase,

You have the hiccups right now. And it is hilarious and adorable even though I can't actually see you hiccuping. Although the fact you started moving around a lot tells me you're not anywhere near as amused by them as I am. Sorry, little guy. They'll go away.

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Dear Chase,

As time gets closer and closer to when you'll be here, I find myself looking at all your stuff. I imagine what it's going to be like to see you laying in your pack and play, sitting in your bouncy seat, wearing your little clothes. I wonder what it's going to be like to hold you and kiss your little face. I wonder what it's going to really be like to be able to tell you that I love you face to face. I wonder what it's going to be like to feed you. I wonder what it's going to be like to let your daddy feed you. I wonder what it's going to be like to rock you to sleep and to put you to bed. I wonder what it's going to be like to change your diaper, and to be peed on. I've changed plenty of diapers before, but I'm sure it's different when it's your own baby. I wonder what it will be like to see your daddy with you. To see him holding you, feeding you, changing you, rocking you. I wonder what it will be like to see your grandparents with you. I wonder how each of them will react. It's funny how I've been pregnant for 32 weeks and right now is when I'm starting to wonder about all these things. I guess it's really starting to sink it at this point. You'll be here soon, and I won't have to wonder anymore. And I can't wait. I love you so much, Chase. And I am so ready to be your momma.