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Go.

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sometimes all it takes is just a lil shakin up to be happy

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My biggest accomplishment.

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I hate always having other people’s words haunt me like a ghost until days after they said it. Strangers have such a big impact on me w what they say.

‘You can totally tell he skates! He looks like a skater!’

‘Well I mean ... is skinny so.. haha’

god damn. stop. please be nice to people, don’t be a bully for random reasons. it can really put people down who are struggling. and they have no idea.

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‪I get really defensive when I’m the outsider. I been the outsider for way too long. I want to be included.‬ Don’t you dare exclude me

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‪maybe people settle for less cause they just need less. they never had much.‬

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‪I think for the first time possibly ever I have something I’m actually afraid to lose‬. I’m fucking terrified of this happiness being taken away from me.

Nights like these just feel so normal and needed. I’ve missed out so many. Missing so many memories.

We all are.

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I always said I wasn’t afraid of anything. But today I found it.

Being myself.

I’ve always been afraid of being myself.

As long as I can remember.

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I try to learn from everything I hear around me. Lived experiences, songs, mistakes, everything that happens has knowledge and wisdom to it. Observe Use all of it. Use it to become the best version of you you can be.

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It’s all in your head.

Fear. It’s always fear holding you back,

Never reality.

Give yourself what you need.

Listen to yourself.

That’s all living is.

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I sometimes have to tell myself over and over to ‘shut up. I can do whatever I want’

I’m my own worst enemy

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‪For some reason everyone besides me pisses me off? Am I starting to like myself?‬

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I’m numb to so many feelings because my whole past is a lie. I’m numb to memories with people, they don’t mean shit no more. Cause it’s not connected to me. Nothing connected to me until I became myself. I can throw people away in a heartbeat and it makes everything in my life so insignificant. I feel like I could disappear again.

I need to make a connection to something, anything. I don’t care enough these days.

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Embrace today.

The past is done.

Tomorrow is unknown.

You are here now.

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brain dead, body strong

being high as fuck working out n pushing yourself w good music is the fuckin best

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magic on the floor

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i don’t think i’ll ever be free