[strawberry-macchiato]

Berserk

[mivvv1]

[understands]

[bbyangelbambi]

[pretty-opium666]

[dogheadeds4int]

[light-daintyyy]

[smallbody-bighead]

My dad told me I have to have more self control but I exercise self control every day by not killing myself. When I wake up in the morning I think about falling out the window. When I drive to work I think about driving on the wrong side of the road. When I’m hiding in the bathroom at work trying to vape without mixing the smell of someone’s shit and mango strawberry I think about hanging myself on the stall door. I think about shooting myself in front of customers when they make me mad. I think about swallowing all the pills I have before I go to sleep every night. I’m not even sad I’m just angry. I’m angry I can’t hurt people so instead I just want to hurt myself. It’s more righteous to kill yourself instead of another person.

[smallpeachsworld]

ཐི ₍^. ̞.^₎ ཋྀ My Motivations ཐི ₍^. ̞.^₎ ཋྀ

- Wearing my old clothes, especially my fave t-shirt.

- Not feeling embarrassed when purchasing clothes in stores, being able to buy a S, rather than an L.

- For my parents and grandma to not make fat jokes about me anymore.

- To look nice for my boyfriend, so he can post his pictures of me without feeling ashamed of his partner.

- To take up less space on the bed.

- To be able to sit in the middle seat of a car again.

- For my co-workers to be jealous of me (we work in fast food).

- To be able to wear puffer jackets without looking like the Michelin man.

- For my Apple Watch notches to go down a few again.

- To be someone’s irl thinspo.

- To fit in my old work trousers, and not be a fat size anymore.

- For my combat boots to fit comfortably around my calf’s, rather than cut off circulation.

- To wear skinny jeans.

- So my friends are shocked by my weight loss when I finally get to see them again (they’re away for University).

- So that I don’t get judged when I go to eat out at restaurants.

- To feel confident enough to take selfies and mirror photos again.

- For my collarbones to be noticeable again.

- Having to wear a belt.

- For people to be shocked when I buy trash food.

[lalalelal]

“i will only do baby cvts so they will fade eventually”

also me when my scars actually start to fade:

[cheaskull]

Cállate

[cheaskull]

Ahora sí, a dormir entre mi horrible cuerpo y grasa asquerosos...

[rot-topic]

[shitbl0gger]

[shitbl0gger]

[cheaskull]

Im a whore...

[girlofconstantsorrrow]