yam's reference blog

horny blog tbh | 20's | she/her

[cheesypuffkins87]

cheesy/yam(s) | 20's | dark content-friendly

sporadically online - here to vibe + tell people I liked the things they made

I support writers' + artists' rights to explore and do whatever they want in their art.

this includes dark content/"proship" - I do not usually re-tag tw because I like to use the tags to yell about things I enjoyed.

please proceed with caution, thank you!

for personal use - tag cheat sheet to jog my memory

[yuki119]

it's 1am kakashi doodle time babes

[cheesypuffkins87]

@amuus-bouche

[crimson-chains]

Wanted to do another of Monet's pieces ^^ I really love the colors and lighting of this one :D

[cheesypuffkins87]

@c-qcat

[iamdesibell]

Shy Hottiehara wants to seduce you hihi 🤭

Had to do a selfie with him🤣🩷

[xstarjam]

Your anons all think you're dead because when I get my hands on you, I'm killing you

is this a love confession

[fruitbento]

^ will you please remind me bc i don't remember what the hell i did LMAO

[cheesypuffkins87]

Two words: City. Exclusive.

[xstarjam]

Your anons all think you're dead because when I get my hands on you, I'm killing you

is this a love confession

[xstarjam]

I am going to make it my personal mission to get ushijima on your masterlist on this blog too

y'know what. you've done it once i fully believe you will do it again 🙂‍↕️

[xstarjam]

Hehehe housewarming in the new blog inbox by dropping in with random weeknight dinner. Nothing fancy, but still cozy and yummy like the vibes on your blog. Setting your seat with some pad prik king moo: pork belly stir fried with makrut lime leaves, red curry, and long beans. I did end up making the son-in-law eggs bc you told me to 😂 and there's a teeny sliver of salted duck egg on the side for flavor too. The SIL eggs are dressed in a tamarind and palm sugar sauce, and fresh cilantro and chilies from my friend's mum's garden!

One of the legends for why they're called son-in-law eggs is bc testicles are colloquially referred to as "eggs" and this is a warning to sons-in-law everywhere to treat their daughters well. So just imagine me making unnerving eye contact with sae through the entire frying process, not even breaking it as I very slowly cut each one in half with my cleaver.

Bon appetít!

WAHOOO HELL YEAH

okay so it does turn out i DO know this dish HAHA except i really have never tried the son in law egg before and now i really want to. yes please maintain direct eye contact with sae while you cut them asdkfkgjfkd unfortunately i do think he'd just raise his eyebrow at you 😔 insufferable fuckass hair guy 😔

god looking at this is making me so hungry it's almost time for friday VSB!!

thank you for the blog housewarming thank you for the FOOD i'm so glad you made the eggs hehe now imagine using your late night kitchen time to make rin his lunchtime bentos. sure he could hire a personal nutritionist or cook or whatever but you always add that extra little bit of effort that makes his heart clench when he notices. he's out busy destroying the field or whatever but when he's digging in to his bento he spots that one weird looking lime thing your neighbor brought over and the noodles you smuggled home in your suitcase. and he knows you used these ingredients for him because you support him and he loves you and can't quite believe you do so much for him. so when he gets home he'll have to :) show you :) how much he appreciates you :)

[cheesypuffkins87]

HAPPIEST OF BIRTHDAYS TO @mangostarjam my sunshiney betrothed!! Thank you for your beautiful stories, the constant laughs, and the walls of texts that have become some of my favorite things to wake up to. I love you so much and I will never stop telling you! Please accept this small token of my love, and may your day be filled with cheer, love, and remarkable cake!

I made this cake with you in mind from start to finish. I was inspired by our "pen pal" letters where we yapped about our mutual love of crumble cakes and my desire to experiment with persimmons. So here's your Fuji Apple Cake for your special day! It's a brown butter cardamom cake with a homemade apple cider cake soak, spiced apple-persimmon compote, fluffy cream cheese whip, and pie crumble.

"Happy birthday, my love."

You turn in surprise to a dark kitchen, where the glow of your favorite smile is rivaled only by the dozen candles perched atop the cake in his hands.

"Soshiro! What are you doing here?! Isn't your day off not for another few days?" Eyes wide in joy, you fling yourself around his broad shoulders, almost upending the cake in the process.

He laughs, delighting in the success of his surprise. "Yeah, and I still plan on spoiling you for the whole 24 hours. But I couldn't miss your actual birthday. What kind of boyfriend would I be?"

You snuggle into the familiar woody, clean scent of his collar and feel every nerve soothed by his solid warmth. "Still the best one. You're the fukutaicho, I know you can't just waltz on and off the base whenever, the troops need you." There's no real admonishment in the bell-like giggles that accompany your words, and Soshiro knows it.

"I may be the fukutaicho, but there's an even more important position in my life," he pulls back, uncharacteristically serious. You get a glimpse of wisteria-hued irises before he boops your nose and tugs your bangs. "I've got to keep the fuji-taicho happy. I think Japan's defenses depend on this, actually."

Soshiro grins at the sunset painting across your beautiful visage as you blush up to your ears. "Now hurry up and blow out your candles. I had to hustle off the base extra quick to get it, thank God the taicho is almost as fond of you as I am and understood the mission."

Soshiro watches your eyes flutter closed, lashes gently kissing the tops of your cheekbones as your scrunch them tight to make your wish. When you've made your decision and pucker your lips to blow out all the candles at once, he can't help but think that it's his wishes that have come true, not yours.

You survey the confection in his hands, layers of orange and gold and cream stacked on top of each other, crowned with your name written in pale green whorls and decorated with the tiniest rose buds. "Oh...it's lovely! No way, is this-"

"-from the bakery that we've been wanting to try?" Soshiro interrupts, rolling his eyes. "Yeah, it is. I had a hell of a time getting it too, I'll tell ya." Soshiro picks up the knife to cut you both generous slices as you settle in to listen to what you can tell is about to be a lengthy complaint. "First of all, the bakery was hard to find. I know it's Tokyo and there are plenty of old streets to get lost down, but this place was really in the alleyway of an alleyway. Even with the kaiju suit on it took me forever to find the right place." Soshiro carefully sets each towering piece on its plate and lightly pushes it in front of you.

The fork cuts through each layer easily, and as you lift the first bite, the scent of cinnamon and cloves overtakes your senses. On your tongue, the flavors of tart apple and delicately-sweet persimmons bloom against the soft, buttery cake. As you chew, you discover little gems of bruised cardamom bursting in between the dense crumb.

"Mmm..." Even Soshiro looks begrudgingly pleased with the cake. "It took me so long to find this bakery," he continues, "that by the time I got there, the owner was closing up." He picks up a second, larger mouthful of cake before huffing a breath. "You'd think she would be happy to do a favor for the fukutaicho of the division of JAKDF that protects her sector from calamity and destruction, but noOOo she actually tried to bar me from coming in when I brought it up. I had to basically beg and say this cake was for a special birthday celebration for you before she even bothered to hear me out."

As Soshiro gets more and more worked up, you try your best to muffle your giggles at the thought of your strong, imposing, unflappable boyfriend on his knees for some cake from a snooty stranger. "So if the bakery was closed, how did you get this cake?"

At this, Soshiro's eyes soften. "Well, I may have gotten a bit carried away talking about you and how much you deserve a treat after all the work you've been putting into the coffee shop. She actually recognized your name, believe it or not. When I mentioned your shop, she did a total 180. It was all 'omg Fuji from Mangostar Coffee?? I love her roasts!! I've been dying to ask her about the anaerobic Mexico and the strawberry coferment she made, I would LOVE to feature desserts centered around them!' And then she made me promise to take you in on my next day off in exchange for a special experimental cake she'd just finished in the back." Soshiro huffs, and you'd be lying if you said the next bite of cake he shovels into his mouth isn't just a tad pouty. "Anyways, she said that it was an honor to be making the birthday cake of a local celebrity, and that this must be fate, because this cake features fuji apples and some particularly lovely persimmons from Mizuho."

With this final complaint out of the way, Soshiro finishes the last of his cake. You survey him over the rim of your teacup, tracing his soft features with grateful eyes. "Well, I appreciate all the hardship you went through to get me this treat," your teasing evident in the way your mouth lifts up in the corners. "But the best part of today is definitely just having you around to enjoy it with."

Soshiro leans in to brush his nose against yours, catching your lilting words between his lips. "Yeah, and the cake is good enough for me to consider going back." He peppers light kisses from the corner of your mouth to the tip of your nose, your eyebrow, your forehead. The cheeky vice-captain leans back far enough to catch your eye so you can see the characteristic glint in his eyes. As he surges forward, he murmurs, "but for now, I think I want a taste of the dessert I've been looking forward to most all day," before capturing your lips against his in a toe-curling kiss.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

In honor of you always sharing your behind-the-scenes director's cut of your fics, here's a look at some of the thought process+testing that went into your cake. There were some changes made between conception and baking. The cake is a cross between Christina Tosi's brown butter cake and Niloufer Ichaporia King's kardemummakaka. The cake soak is made from apple cider punched up with ACV and brown sugar. The liquid cheesecake and pie crumb buttercream ended up being too rich for the overall flavor so I scrapped it in favor of a super-fluffy cream cheese frosting lightened with whip. Also, I ended up testing 8 different apple varietals for the compote. I had Hoshina say the cake had fuji apples in it for the sake of ~fiction but unfortunately, the fuji+fuyu was the fifth-ranked compote at best, so I went with the opals for the actual cake.

[mangostarjam]

cheesy i'm gonna pass out. hold on. hold up.

this is like a week late because i couldn't fathom the sheer depth of joy??? this gave me??? CONTINUES giving me??????

THIS CAKE LOOKS SO FUCKING GOOD I WANNA EAT IT SO BAD !!!!!!! I LOVE PIE CRUMBLE!!! THE COMPOTE AND THE WHIPPED CREAM AAAAAAAAAAAA

god looking at it makes me so hungry lmao and the plate is so pretty wow okay teleportation WHEN i wanna be at your place SO BAD lemme try all your delicious creations i can't promise i'd be any kind of discerning because the only thing i'll be able to say is "this is mcfuckin DELICIOUS"

and you wrote me a fic what if i fucking sob. god even just trying to type this out is making me tear up lmao. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS.

"it's his wishes that have come true, not yours" <- hey that's so freaking sweet and tender i'm gonna punch my wall

also i love how lovingly you described me i feel so loved??? by YOU?????? HELLO???????

and the way you describe how it tastes mmmmm i swear you could easily be a food blogger please share all your recipes with a million anecdotes sprinkled in it would be so delightful

the "noOOOo" is killing me asdfghjkl NOT SNOOTY NEVER SNOOTY honestly he should be on his knees begging for one of your creations bc you are SO worth it

omg cheesy ahaha you are truly giving me too much credit i was a barista but i wasn't anywhere NEAR this level of sophisticated i just had fun steaming milk and perfecting my whipped cream toppings and i've forgotten all my coffee lab knowledge!! if i could work in a cafe though i totally would it was genuinely fun. cheesy bakery fuji coffee collaboration WHEN. i'll need to study up again though to offer any sort of tips on strawberry coferment. wait did i tell you about my bestie and i stumbling upon a super cute incredibly classy kissaten after we got turned around looking for a cat shrine in japan? the menu had different roasts and beans and each offering had suggestion pairings for light cakes and snacks and all the cups and mugs were charmingly mismatched. there were only a few booths and one corner had a group of ladies who clearly came often to gossip and catch up, and there was a table scattered with notebooks and a guy studying (but clearly spacing out lmao). the atmosphere was so soothing and the chatter and bean grinding and the light clank of dishes was the perfect level of ambiance. anyway this is what i imagine our collaborative cafe would be like!! especially the menu, we'd have so much fun messing around with pairings and having our friends pop by to give their verdict on our newest potential offering

whoops tangent. whoops fuck i just scrunched my face so hard at that last part AUGH that was SO CUTE cheesy how could you DO THIS

laughing at soshiro being like "yeaaaaahhh fineeeee the cake was good enough to go back i GUESS" as if we will not be frequenting your bakery every single weekend from here on out

i promise you i swear to god you can write like look at this!!!!!! incredible!!! "little gems of bruised cardamom" great imagery "every nerve soothed by his solid warmth" perfect encapsulation augh "you survey him over the rim of your teacup" i can literally see this scene in my head

distracted by your handwriting omg it's so neat and pretty. once again i am faced with cheesy intimidation levels i'm positive i will be tongue tied shy as fuck when we meet in person. sorry to cheesybf but it's TRUE

the notes for the apple combos are SENDING ME HAHAHA the MUSH. MESS. and yankee candle air freshener lmaoooo. okay i love that you ended up choosing opal actually bc i loooove crisp apples so the fact that it retains that texture is chef's KISS

and you did persimmon things!!! HELL YEAH

anyway. god. i love you. thank you. receiving so many birthday wishes from friends here has been truly seriously amazing and i can't believe how lucky i am. everyone is so SO wonderful and i just hope i can reflect even an inkling of that love back 💕

[cheesypuffkins87]

i am so Stupid™️ i did not realize you followed me i just see your interactions with dee all the time (bc she's incredible!! makes sense!!) anyway hi!! your responses on my dash make me laugh out loud sometimes! (do you prefer to go by yam or cheesypuffkins?)

hahaha omg don't worry about it! probably my fault bc that means i haven't done a proper deep dive into your stuff yet 😊 (it will happen. you will be flooded with notifications. i apologize in advance.)

i am HONORED to be known as "dee's super fancy cook buddy" like hello?? i made this account to keep track of the smut/fics i liked and now i have internet friends :') what a nice plot twist. i always clock your messages/fic requests on dee's blog as well and i'm just like ahhh yesss. a person of taste. it always makes me happy to see your url!

as far as names go, now that i'm interacting with people on here i realize i should probably put a lil nickname or something on my page lol. "yam" just doesn't roll off the tongue (and is based off a total shitpost nickname my bsf gave me). feel free to call me whatever! yam, eevee, flower, cheesy. whatever floats your boat.

tysm for stopping by and sending an ask! tbh i'm still not used to it so my first reaction is to think the spam bots are back LOL

[mangostarjam]

oh my gosh no you never need to apologize for notifications?? and don't feel obligated either!! my friendship isn't contingent on like. reading my stuff LOL as long as we vibe it's good and i've seen your interactions and i think you're amazing! especially when you talk about food?? my GOD i swear you've awakened me to a whole other dimension!! i just don't look at metrics/numbers on tumblr for the sake of my peace of mind and so i didn't realize you were on there HAHA

if it's alright with you i think i'll call you cheesy! (eevee is my dog's name so that one's out lol) but if something else comes up just lmk! i feel you on inbox surprise though LOL i'm always like "me?? someone wants to talk to me??"

[cheesypuffkins87]

fuji!! hope you're having a good day at work and such! omg my warning about stalking your blog was actually meant to let you know it's not transactional at all-don't think i'm just stalking it bc you followed me or something. i have a lil list of people whose stuff+reblogs i think i'd really vibe with but i haven't had the time to properly go through one of my deep dives with yet. i'm such a completionist/manageably ocd and will get lost. this is my version of a wikipedia rabbit hole haha.

🥺 you think i'm amazing? tysm for the compliment i am blushing! i always recognized yours and cate's urls off dee's blog so the feeling is very mutual.

listen listen i am ALWAYS down to talk about food. in my early 20's i went on a date with some dude and spent THIRTY FIVE minutes waxing poetic about mushrooms. that relationship went nowhere lol.

if my chosen outlet was a form of media that could be sent to y'all over the internet and not, yknow, tangible foodstuff you bet i'd have already shared. honestly i wish i could send you guys stuff bc my problem now is finding more people to give sweets to so i can bake more frequently. we keep giving stuff to the same 12-15 friends and i don't work in an office anymore!

sidenote, your url is so cute to me. i imagine a lil country-style glass jar of jam covered in a chartreuse+red+lime checkered cloth lid with a little white hand=drawn label in front with a watercolor mango and starfruit <3

[mangostarjam]

I LOVE THE CROISSANT STORY!!! croissant o'clock omg that's so cute i adore that and your friendship sooooo much! my bestie is also my platonic soulmate (wrote soupmate at first and it didn't autocorrect bc i've declared the two of us soupmates too often HAHA) but i absolutely love that for both of you :') "croissant o'clock" was running through my mind all weekend

honestly i get that though re: reading and deep dives — i have a few writers who i know i wanna consume their works but i can have a hard time reading fanfic when i'm also writing fanfic so they've been on a list in the back of my mind! this somehow does not apply to dee or wttcsms who i can read without it messing with my brain ( ᐛ )و i think i just love their writing so much it overcomes the squigglyness of it mentally LOL

hello please wax poetic about mushrooms to me?? or any foods your heart desires really?? because i seriously love love LOVE the way you talk about food. have i said that before? maybe so. but its true. i have a big sweet tooth so i would be absolutely down for your cooking/baking augh. how i wish teleportation were real!!

>ᴗ< that's such a nice image of my url thank you for sharing that!! i will admit i did think of cheese puffs the first few times i saw your url but that also brings up childhood memories of using chopsticks to eat chips so i wouldn't get my fingers dirty and teaching that to my lil bro so i appreciate your url's unintentional reminder! i hope you're having a good day and that your weekend was nice!!

[amuus-bouche]

HIIII KITA-NON!! i might've missed it but i saw that you caught up to the kn8 manga — how are you liking it? are you reading the b sides too? (has anyone captured your heart yet?)

HI FUJI!! I did indeed catch up to the current chapter (i have been steeping in my thoughts since sunday).

Liking it? I am looooving ittt!! There are so many things i pause on and just examine in my hands like a geode. It’s rare to have an entire cast i like, so i just want to burrow myself into this world and poke and prod into all their personalities.

I just finished reading the b-sides! Honestly things like this are my favourite part of a series, the little slices of world and character building.

So about this heart of mine, throughout the main series i was very firmly in the hoshina camp (i was not subtle about it, teehee). And like, starting the b-side with his story was such a treat, but… I think i might like narumi. Like. A lot. Head in hands. This was the most surprising turn of events.

What about you! Did you have a rollercoaster of emotions for different characters?

[mangostarjam]

YES i love the entire cast — everyone is so fun and interesting! and i loved that we got more insight with the b sides (though i'll admit i wish there had been a little more for some other characters too! but maybe matsumoto will have their backstories in the main story! who knows!)

bahahaha narumi. i do love him!! cheesy pointed out that i clearly have a favorite (i do... it's hoshina) but honestly when i first started reading i wasn't really paying attention to anyone. i thought hoshina was cool! narumi honestly almost stole my heart but i got to the scene where — wait i'll put this under a cut so i don't spoil anyone on accident —

i read the scene where hoshina visits kafka at the first division and tells him that he doesn't need to transform anymore because he'll take care of everything and. it was over. i was gone. my heart: captured. and then when i reread the manga i just kept noticing all this other stuff about soshiro and i was in love HAHA

[amuus-bouche]

that's true, about the b-sides. i wanted to see a little more of the other newbies (...i'm biased, i wanted to see more of izumo). i have to root for hibino a lot because i feel like i'd be so tired and worn out from all the younger officers just having so much damn energy that i'd just sit in a hot bath for most of the night and... idk, foam roll my hamstrings or something haha.

hahaha narumi snuck up on me, the little dweeb. i totally did not consider him as an equal to hoshina (immediately liked him) but then the b-sides (and dee with her... writing🤤) just shoved him front and center in my mind and he has literally been sitting there ALL DAY, mocking me, right in my line of sight. Dweeb. I heart him.

i loved that part with hoshina and kafka too! knowing now why he was so willing to give him a chance as well as help to bring him up to par to keep up with the others in the next fight, my little heart swelled. he's just... such a great character. ughghsigsogoe

i ran out of chapters so now i think i'll do the same as you and start over again at the beginning to make notes and look for hints and foreshadowing or just world building in general. i started a draft over the weekend but right now it just looks like word vom with no formatting or context haha.

[mangostarjam]

i had some thoughts to share/respond to and it all got wiped out as soon as i read that you started a draft over the weekend — YOU STARTED A DRAFT!!!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!

just know that you have a captive audience right here (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

[amuus-bouche]

Fuuj by all means, share your thoughts!! There is no backspaaacceee~

My draft is literally like when people want to share a slideshow of their entire vacation of “and then there’s this panel, and this panel, and this thing one person said, aaaaand here’s my little dweeb (he’s such a trooper) mopinggg” and you’re like “are… are you just showing us the manga again?” 😂

[mangostarjam]

bahahaha i am sitting here heart eyes chin propped on my hands kicking my feet under the table. slideshow away!!

ooh but yes izumo and aoi! we're missing out!! and i actually want more of mina too — for such a badass driving force i really wanna see her like. get a hug. LOL. and yesss kafka poor guy. get that man a break! i love his relationships with reno and kikoru though — they're so supportive and silly!

NARUMI THE DWEEB!! thus shall he be named!! he's sooo silly goofy. and hot. like, annoyingly hot. which makes his sopping wet cat impression so much stronger hehe

[fiollaigean]

i cannot emphasize how necessary it is to have a buddy to participate in fandom with. completely elevated experience. don't have a buddy? find someone you like and message them and be their friend. gush over every sketch and drabble and insane headcanon they have. live life to the fullest.

[amuus-bouche]

I am going to take this moment to say thank you to Dee, Fuji, Cate, and Yams for inviting and welcoming me with open arms to the cool kids kaiju club.

I’m not often up to date with a series, and if i were, i’m not usually vocal about it. It’s been really nice to have people i can talk to, bounce ideas off of (or just throw ideas at, sometimes, teehee), and generally be my silly little self and be encouraged to keep going, keep exploring.

My little heart has been so full lately, and my garden overflowing with sunflowers 💜

🌻@captain-hawks 🌻@mangostarjam 🌻@alicesfracturedmirror 🌻@cheesypuffkins87

[mangostarjam]

HI I LOVE YOU ALL!!! it has been so very fun with our chaos and games and i am so glad we somehow found each other in the vast void of the internet!! thank you for letting me yell in your dms thank you for being so supportive and silly together! it's such a joy to be with you guys 🥰

[mangostarjam]

Here I am. In your inbox. Again. For the "oh no he's hot" game: fuji edition. I read your sore loser narumi fic before I even had any inkling of who he was. I was CAPTIVATED. I love it so much you are the only person I break my narumi content ban for. Summertime madness is like an ultimate au characterization for him. I love reading about his earnest loserboy antics through your eyes. I love the idea that he'd get on his knees and beg the object of his affections for ONE CHANCE. it is so fun to immerse myself in your world of narumi gen.

Also Sakura. Because I still know nothing about windbreaker. I mean I liked his character design a lot but the shy, bumbling about his feelings skittish cat with anger issues energy wasn't doing it for me until you made me reconsider like hmmmmmm. Stop torturing me. Thx. I behave like the worst impulse shopper with anime men. i have so many faves i am unqualified to claim bc i am riding this ride barely holding on by the seat of my pants based off some vague Vibes.

asdfghjkl omg of all the people it's NARUMI what have i done OTL

okay but your vibes for sakura are pretty spot on!! he IS a skittish cat and he just wants love and affection and has absolutely no idea how to ask for it or how to react when he gets it. he's just a lil guy 😭 that i want to make blush so hard you could spot him from space 😌

oh no he's hot game

[mangostarjam]

In honor of our favorite birthday boy today. An international holiday truly. I just love him so much!!

he's so CUUUUUUTE this really IS an international holiday i love him so much 😭 thank you for sharing this and so many hoshina pics he is just 🥺😭

[krytella]

Commenting positively on fic like

Unfamiliar author: wow I loved this!

Author you’ve interacted with before: you killed me, I’m dead

Author who’s your friend: I hate you

[p1013]

Replying to comments on your fic like

unfamiliar commenter: Thank you so much! I’m so glad you liked it!

commenter you’ve seen before: Let me grab my shovel and help you into your grave.

commenter who’s your friend: HAHA BITCH I WARNED YOU

[starlightshadowsworld]

This really sums up every post and fic I’ve ever made.

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

do u actually believe oliver is not a 30 year old man and if so please share how because to me there is not one single way that man is not a grown ass man

here’s him without facial hair vs him with. hope this helps

[amuus-bouche]

@mangostarjam so what i’m hearing is… you would like him better when he’s clean shaven?

[mangostarjam]

this is doing irreparable damage to my psyche

[amuus-bouche]

If i’m not allowed to hide in the tags, neither are you 😘

@captain-hawks LOOK AT US WINNING TODAYYY

[mangostarjam]

post canceled, cheesy coached me through it and i am ONCE AGAIN standing firm against this man 😌

[mangostarjam]

CHEESY IN MY NOTIFICATIONS !!!!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL !!!!!!!!