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[chemicalxx]

it's been a while since i wrote something here

I honestly thought I was doing better but here I am spiralling back to where I started haha

You ever find someone you genuinely like? and you genuinely think you share the same feelings? But deep down you are aware that you are ugly, fat and overall just undesirable? because damn, that shit hurts.

I genuinely felt loved and thought it was true until they start dating their ex again 🤡 maybe that is where all of this is rooted? maybe? I'm very insecure and finding these type of men just further intensifies it

I want to experience love too, but how can I feel that when I am aware that I am easily replaceable? Do I even deserve to be loved? Should I just go back to the person who only wants to thrive career wise and never cared if she actually finds love?

I wish i could go back to that.

Things have changed. I met people I never knew would change me. Is it for the better? I don't know. All i know is that I like this guy, but I'm too afraid to make it real

[kpopreactionsaf]

SM stylists: do you know what would be a good idea?

me: please no no no-

SM stylists:

me:

[winwinneedslines]

Remember when Chenle almost gave up on being a singer

Lele said to his mom “Mom, I don’t want to sing anymore”

[capillaries-blog]

plot twist: the introverted character who doesn’t like big social gatherings or speaking in front of people is still an introvert by the end of the story because introversion is not a character flaw and it doesn’t need to be overcome 

[h-brook-writes]

Look, I’ll go on your stupid adventure, but you better leave me the fuck alone when we get back. 

[maidsuokasenpai]

This is the plot of shrek

[chemicalxx]

I was sexually harrased as a kid. Up until now, nobody knows about it. I can’t just tell anyone about it. It would destroy my family.

It’s my uncle, he used to take care of me as a kid. He would tell me that we were playing hide and so I should not make any noise. He would bring me near the bed and cover my mouth and massage my genitals.

I didn’t know what he was doing I was too young to even realize the things he has done to me.

Today, I still see him, and now he also has a close contact with my little sister and god forgive me for not being able to speak up and protecting my little sister from the horrors I’ve grown upon.

[takhun]

Hey. So I live in LA and personally caught somebody at the California Science center pull something like that. The little girl thought it was a game apparently. Ever since I’ve held a grudge and always stay on the lookout for friends sense we are around that age that some of us have kids and stuff. Mainly just a me thing since I heard about Ian Watkins turning out to be a sick man. Anyways, me and you went to school together and i would personally like to speak up for you if you’ll allow me to. I’ll even be there to stand behind you and have your back because something like this wont go smoothly unless your parents are also involved. I really dont think we’ve ever really spoken to eachother and maybe we have a few common acquaintances, but ultimately I wont involve anybody else except my bestfriend for backup. We both served army and he loves his kid sister more than anything. I know that this is something I cannot make you do and I’m sorry for barely seeing it now. But I would hate myself personally if I didnt say anything to you >_

[chemicalxx]

I’m pretty positive that I’m not the girl you’re referring to. But thank you for the support nonetheless. I do hope you find a way to help the girl. Maybe telling her relatives that something is wrong would be a great idea. (I know, it’s what I would want to happen in my case)

[takhun]

Did you go to Manual?

[chemicalxx]

nope

[chemicalxx]

I was sexually harrased as a kid. Up until now, nobody knows about it. I can’t just tell anyone about it. It would destroy my family.

It’s my uncle, he used to take care of me as a kid. He would tell me that we were playing hide and so I should not make any noise. He would bring me near the bed and cover my mouth and massage my genitals.

I didn’t know what he was doing I was too young to even realize the things he has done to me.

Today, I still see him, and now he also has a close contact with my little sister and god forgive me for not being able to speak up and protecting my little sister from the horrors I’ve grown upon.

[takhun]

Hey. So I live in LA and personally caught somebody at the California Science center pull something like that. The little girl thought it was a game apparently. Ever since I’ve held a grudge and always stay on the lookout for friends sense we are around that age that some of us have kids and stuff. Mainly just a me thing since I heard about Ian Watkins turning out to be a sick man. Anyways, me and you went to school together and i would personally like to speak up for you if you’ll allow me to. I’ll even be there to stand behind you and have your back because something like this wont go smoothly unless your parents are also involved. I really dont think we’ve ever really spoken to eachother and maybe we have a few common acquaintances, but ultimately I wont involve anybody else except my bestfriend for backup. We both served army and he loves his kid sister more than anything. I know that this is something I cannot make you do and I’m sorry for barely seeing it now. But I would hate myself personally if I didnt say anything to you >_

[chemicalxx]

I'm pretty positive that I'm not the girl you're referring to. But thank you for the support nonetheless. I do hope you find a way to help the girl. Maybe telling her relatives that something is wrong would be a great idea. (I know, it's what I would want to happen in my case)

[chemicalxx]

A random crush moments throwback

when I was at the university library I was trying my best not to look at him when he us around

one day (charot very fairytale-like) he went inside the library and was looking for a cubicle (tbh i dont know what to call those things) and he was around the counter which sadly is where i needed to walk by to go to my place. He then smiled at me and i smiled back

thats basically it

am i pathetic or what

[chemicalxx]

04-22-19

Today, my crush talked to me.

well basically it's just a one liner and just something out of curiosity but still hghhghhgg

he asked me: aso?

me: oo

him: ah shih tzu

thats because he can't see what i was holding. he can only see the leash

im just saying, if this aint progress then idk what is HAHAHAHA

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pls be happy always  ❤

[chemicalxx]

Today marks the deployment of my batchmates for internship and I'm not one of them.

I'm trying to be happy for them but that would be hypocritical knowing the fact that I know not everyone deserves it.

I got this picture form a facebook page. I needed this more than I realized.

[chemicalxx]

Stop invalidating other's hardships. At some point in our life nahirapan rin tayo diyan but we grow up and face greater challenges. Kaya please lang please dont make them feel inferior. Let them experience the hardships we've been through.

And along the way, makikita nila yung hardships nang mga higher years and graduates and we can finally experience the 'respect' we desire.

Just to be clear, I am not attacking anyone. So dont take this against you kung nacontradict ko man ang opinion ng kung sino mang makakabasa nito

[chemicalxx]

Never was and never will be of any importance

[chemicalxx]

Its sad to know that even when you actually ask anyone for help. They still choose to ignore you

[chemicalxx]

Im back again

Its been a while. You know, i really did thought i was getting bettet but somehow tume just makes any progress crumble back to zero.

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Reblog if English isn't your native language

[bbyinblu]

reblog if you think sign language should be taught as a language in schools.

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Fuck yes